Baah Baah Black Sheep

&♥/

2011-08-10T16:43:00.001+08:00

Speaking of which, I love the new skin ♥

It's been a long time

2011-08-10T15:17:00.002+08:00

It's been ages (like about 2 years) since I've last updated this blog. I kinda switched to another platform but just suddenly felt an urge to blog here after reading some friends' blogs :\

This is not completely private so I'm not gonna say much. And yes, many things have happened and changed throughout the past two years. Few major events though. hahaha, such as 2AM's fansign, getting addicted to KPOP, etc.

Just as soon as I've started to settle down for Senior High, it's almost time to take A Levels and then leave. Time flies. Really.

There are many things that we need to be aware of but are not. We can't see our own shortcomings and we think that we understand ourselves the best. maybe so for some, but not really the case for most.

"You put yourself in the spotlight and then blame everyone else that you can't see them."

So what are they supposed to do? How are they supposed to answer your questions to them?

It's hard to maintain friendships/relationships with people sometimes. How are you supposed to be honest and yet not hurting the other party's feelings at the same time? To me, everyone's worth that try. But not everyone can maintain it. Why would you expect others to understand you when you can't even see yourself clearly? And besides, they're not you, you cannot expect everyone else to understand what you're thinking and understand you fully. I find it kinda ridiculous when one always exclaims, "You don't understand me at all!", and then hurt the relationship because one thinks that the other cannot understand him/her-_- Sorry my dear, I don't have that superpower to read minds.

I've come to realise that, ultimately, family members are those who will be there till the very end. I've read it somewhere, that say, "Parents are the only people who give you the most, allow you to owe them things, and not request for any forms of repay." We all get to live only once, and the time that we've got is finite. All I wanna do is to treasure the time with everyone around me, so that I don't leave regrets.

领悟到了很多事情。虽然不能说完全理解了，但是在一定程度上，应该就是吧。

只可惜有些事，现在领悟已经太晚了。只能希望一切，还能来得及。

The things that we wanna stay unchanged are often the first ones to change.

It's those little things in life that make us stronger.

\RUN BABY RUN;

2009-12-29T10:59:00.002+08:00

Holidays' gonna be over soon.
Well blog's dying, so I figured I should say something. lol.
Fever yesterday, 38.2 }:
China's like, super cold :S and my handphone was stolen on x'mas. }:
curses to the thief. rarh~
But it's kay, I'm getting a new phone like today. hoho :D
2009's ending soon. And senior high life will be starting after a week of orientation.
rarhz~ Start expecting different things hmm.
Classes and subject combination results are not out yet :\
I don't think there will be anyone getting rejected for their first choices._. LOL
It snowed on x'mas :D
and it's prettaye~

I'm like super bored now..... zzz......

why can't you see anything?

STUPID BLOGGER

2009-09-10T21:47:00.000+08:00

okay the stupid blogger thingy is really getting on my nerves. (!)
Forget it... ahh.
EOYs is just around the corner!!
Hai. I should really start some serious mugging.
Holiday's been really slacky for me. and I'm pissed at myself for procrastinating. rarh!

"He gave my heart away the day after I gave it to him"
hoho~

since! there is no colours, etc... I shall just copy and paste it here. hmm.

<<再说一次我愿意>>
"结婚不是两个人面对面，而是两个人牵手共同面对这个世界"

《舒颜(女)；顾秦(男)；这是两人离婚后，故事发展到了快要结尾的部分。》
刚吃完晚饭，安顿好了父母后，顾秦看了看时间，差不多了，舒颜应该快到了，他拨通了对方的号码，但奇怪的是，一直都打不通，传来一阵阵忙音。
他有些忐忑起来，然后就接到了舒颜母亲的电话，对方的语气很是急促：“不好了顾秦，刚刚舒颜的朋友小洋打来电话，说就在舒颜必经的那条高速公路上出现了严重的车祸，有一辆巴士撞到了路边的栏杆，直接摔下了几十米的山崖……现在……舒颜的手机打不通、打不通……”女人的嗓音明显地颤抖着，声音里都已经有了哭腔。
天！顾秦的心猛地往下一沉，心跳急速加快，因为就在刚才，他还打了舒颜的电话，没错，一直打不通……
他安慰岳母：“妈，您先别急，我现在就去问清楚，你把她那个朋友的号码告诉我！”
女人颤抖着将号码报了过来，然后顾秦直接就打了过去，对方也很紧张，说是本来要问到了没有，可却一直打不通，方才听到新闻快讯说是那条高速公路上出了事，她急得快疯了！
顾秦还是保持着冷静，虽然心跳已经不受控制，他问清楚了舒颜所坐的巴士的号码和班次，然后查询了终点站的服务号码，询问这一班次的情况。
让他无法相信的是，新闻快讯上所说的出事的班次，居然真的就是舒颜所坐的那一班！
……感觉一阵天旋地转，他神经质似的一遍又一遍询问对方，校对着号码和班次，连服务员都被问得没了耐心。
放下手机，他整个人瘫坐在沙发上，铁青的脸色让母亲也吓了一跳。
“孩子，你这是怎么啦？脸色这么难看的？”母亲担忧地询问起来。
他却听不到了，急匆匆地抓起车钥匙就出了门！
车开得飞快，他一边开一边不停地拨打着舒颜的手机，那边传来信号不通的忙音一次又一次让他的心惊慌不已。
不一会，雪洋打来了电话，他匆匆接起。
“顾秦，我刚了解到了，舒颜乘坐的那班车就是出事的那一班，听说现在道路戒严，交警和消防已经赶到那里，车子摔到山崖下，车里面的情况就不清楚了！”雪洋带着浓重的鼻音，那是哭泣后的声音。
这一刻，他心乱如麻，但还是竭力地安慰着对方：“恩，先别紧张，或许没有我们想的这么糟糕，我现在就在赶往现场的路上，你继续打舒颜的手机，打通了就告诉我一声。”
“好的，我知道了！”
放下手机，顾秦长长地呼了口气，眼角越发地酸涩起来，此刻的心里只有那个名字……舒颜……舒颜……
昨晚，他们还通了电话，他告诉她，会等她回来。
可是现在，为何却连个电话也没有，他不是叮嘱过她么？无论遇到什么事，一定要第一时间打给他……
眼角的液体终于缓缓滑落，带着丝丝的温度，让他意识到自己正在向着什么方向而去，他的心是冷的，脑子里也是空白一片，他不敢想象，真的不敢想象……
第二卷第二十七章等我
完全没了时间观念，不知道现在是几时……
舒颜不是自然醒的，而是身边的一声声难挨的呻吟和哭泣将她拉回了现实……
这一刹那，她居然暂时忘记了自己身处何方，为何眼前一片漆黑？然后便是身体下方的小腿传来的一阵阵抽痛！
呜呜……耳边传来的是一个女孩的哭泣声，断断续续，带着惊慌的颤抖，就在这一刻，她的一切感官都苏醒了，鼻间传来浓烈的汽油味儿，然而，更令她意识到事态严重的是空气中的血腥味道，这个味道弥漫着小小的空间，与汽油味儿混杂在一起。
天！出车祸了……出事了！
原谅她的后知后觉，因为就在前一刻，她甚至还以为自己只是在做梦！
惊恐顿时占据了整颗心，脑子里既混乱又模糊，现在到底是什么状况？他们在哪儿？为什么除了呻吟和哭声，一点其他的响动也没有？有人知道这里出了事么？
一串串的疑问涌上心头，然后便是越发绝望的念头了，她躺靠在似乎是车窗的地方，身体除了右手，其他地方都无法动弹，尤其是身体的下半身，已经牢牢地被什么东西压住了，待神志恢复过来的时候，却痛得越发厉害了！
周围黑乎乎的一片，她看不清楚一切……
女孩的哭泣还在继续，舒颜意识到这应该就是坐在自己身边的晕车的女孩，于是同样颤抖着声音问：“别哭，知道是怎么回事了么？”
一瞬间，女孩的哭声停止了，然后便是带着哭腔的沙哑的低语：“我、我不知道……车子好像滚下了山坡，方才还有很多人在哭叫，可现在……他们好像都……”女孩再也说不下去了，黑暗中再次传来了她的哭泣声……
舒颜的心缓缓地沉了下去，或许，一切真的会到此为止了。
她感觉到了眼角温热的液体，也不知是因为疼痛还是恐惧，反正，它不受控制地流下了。
尽管害怕，她还是尽最后的力气安慰着身边还尚存气息的女孩：“别怕，会有人来救我们的，别哭，保存好力气，不要急……”
女孩抽泣着，然后低声回应：“恩，可是我痛……好痛……”
“我知道，我也很痛，但我们该庆幸，因为我们还知道痛，不要放弃、不要放弃！”她深深地喘着气，顿觉脑袋传来一阵阵晕眩的感觉。
她竭力让自己平静下来，此刻最需要的就是冷静，无论周围的空气多么令人窒息和绝望，她却要坚持下去，要活着出去，一定要活着出去！
家里还有妈妈，父亲已经离去，她不能再失去唯一的依靠了……还有、还有顾秦……他在等着她回去，她还想协助他办好画展，那个曾老师的联系方式还在她的腰包里！
突然间，她机能性地用仅剩的可以自由活动的右手急切地摸索着腰间的腰包，还好，它还在，打开了拉链，她靠着触觉掏出了手机。
顾秦说过，无论发生什么，都要第一时间打电话给他……
即使腿上的抽痛越来越厉害，即使身边的女孩已然消失的呻吟声，却还是没有打垮她仅剩的意识，是的，此刻如果连她自己都放弃了，那么或许这里就是她的葬身之地！
手机屏幕亮起的那一刻，她被眼前的一幕吓得浑身颤抖，这是这辈子最触目惊心的一幕！一张血肉模糊的脸就靠在压在她身上的椅背上，此刻已认不清是男是女了，她终于知道重压着自己的不仅是前面的座椅，那上面还有一个已然没了生气的人……
紧握着手机的手不受控制地颤抖起来，鼻间的血腥味道越来越浓烈，她不敢对着那张脸，否则，她会崩溃！
掉着眼泪，她颤抖着按着手机，按通了那个熟悉的号码。
然而，一片忙音……
急切的心跳让她的恐惧感越发强烈，老天应该不会如此绝情吧？如果想要她离开，那又为何让她此刻如此清醒？或许在昏沉中死去也会是一种解脱……
发疯似的不断按着那个号码，直到一次次的忙音让她的心一点点地僵硬，又试着拨了其他人的号码，可还是一样，她听不到期待的通话声，有的却还是急切的忙音！此刻只能任由绝望向她袭来……
她最后的依靠，最后的救命稻草，都没了、没了……
终于到了车祸发生的路段，已经将近深夜了，顾秦随便将车停靠在路边，然后匆匆地上前，想要进到出事的路段，然而，却被交警拦在了路边的休息站，说现在暂时封锁戒严了路段，警察和消防正在全力抢救，其他人不得进入。
他的脸铁青得可怕，发现休息站里都是像他一样坐立不安的遇难者家属，有些女人已经开始哭泣，脸上挂着的是绝望的表情……这一刻，他的心也冷了，他知道事态的严重已经远远超过了所有人的预料，现在大家剩却的只有等待，等待着亲人们或爱人们的音讯，哪怕只是一声证明他们还活着的呻吟……
舒颜的妈妈和朋友不停地打来电话，询问着最新的情况，让他原本就焦虑万分的情绪更加恐惧烦躁起来，可嘴上却还是尽量安慰着她们，他能做的只有这样了。
几乎每隔一分钟，他就会拨打舒颜的手机号码，即使每次传来的还是那一声声令人崩溃的忙音！
意识渐渐模糊，舒颜感觉眼皮沉重得快睁不开了，手机被自己的右手握得温热起来，周围安静得可怕，身边的女孩连呼吸声也听不到了。
“你还在么？还在么……”她虚弱的声音在小小的空间里回荡，然而，回应她的却只有冰冷的空气。
绝望一波又一波袭来，她强撑着最后的意识，颤抖的手指依旧按着那个熟悉的号码……
绝望了的，但还是要打，此刻，她只想跟他说话，哪怕只有那么一两句。
这一次……均匀的嘟嘟声……通了！居然通了！
她靠在冰冷坚硬的车窗旁，强忍着疼痛和恐惧，心里是期盼，却也是诀别前的空洞，泪水早已迷糊了双眼……
……
顾秦坐立难安，看着人们在面前紧张急促地走来走去，听着悲哀绝望的哭声，感觉自己只剩身上的这具行尸走肉，从来不知道，等待是如此恐怖又惊心动魄的事情。
他几次三番想要进入施救现场，但却被拦住了，交警说那巴士滚到了几十米深的山崖，而且现在又是在黑夜，给施救工作带来很高的难度，更不能让这些无谓的家属来扰乱秩序了。
无奈，他只好又安静地回到休息区，然后就是等待了。
……突然响起的铃声让他着实吓了一跳，心想一定又是岳母或雪洋打来的电话了，他无奈地掏出手机，可屏幕上清晰的来电显示却让他一时不敢相信自己的眼睛，是舒颜！真的是舒颜！
“舒颜！”他完全是用喊的叫出了对方的名字。
“……”那边很安静，或许是因为这边人流太多，他听不清对方究竟有没有在说话。
“舒颜，是你吗？你在么？我是顾秦，我现在就在现场，你回答我一声！”他腾地从椅子上坐起，走到了较为安静的角落。
那边又沉静了一会，然后传来了微弱的沙哑的嗓音：“顾秦，我还在……还在……”
眼泪在这一刻夺眶而出，他哽咽着的声线轻轻颤抖着：“我相信你会没事的，我就知道你会打给我，我一直在等着……”
“我一直在打你的电话，可是一直都没有通……顾秦，我很想你……”声音虽然很虚弱，但传到他的耳际却再清晰不过了。
他强压住铺天盖地的心酸和痛苦，尽量缓和自己的声音：“舒颜，现在感觉怎么样？身体哪里受伤了吗？”
“……很痛、很痛，又很累……感觉就要睡过去了……”
他的心猛地一紧，几乎是嘶叫着对着话筒说道：“别睡！舒颜，千万别睡！从现在起，我跟你说话，你要保持清醒，警察已经到了，不用多久就会没事的，知道吗？”
“恩……”那边的声音越来越弱。
顾秦发疯似的又跑到警戒线前，不顾一切地想要通过，声音里已然带着哭腔：“让我过去！我老婆还在，她还在里面给我打电话，请让我过去，或许可以配合你们施救！”
交警理解地劝解着，但还是拦不住他此刻的冲劲，无奈之下，其中的一个警察只好答应领着他前往不远处的出事地点。
“舒颜，我这就过去了，你等着我，我现在就过去找你，千万别睡！听话，千万别睡！等我！”他边跑边喊着。
“恩……我不会睡……等你……”
在这样冰冷的夜，连眼泪也失去了温度……
第二卷第二十八章再次唱起那首歌
好冷……舒颜依旧靠在那个冰冷的角落，然而全身渐渐传来的麻木感却让她的脑袋越发晕沉了，除了右手握着的手机留着丝丝温度，其他地方都已然没了知觉。
她很想睡，但顾秦的声音就在耳朵的一边，一直告诉她，不要睡，要等他过来……
好吧，她强撑着最后一丝意识，等他、等他过来吧。
“舒颜，我已经跟着他们下来了！坚持！你很快就会没事了、没事了！”顾秦的声音依旧颤抖着。
她只能“恩”一声，告诉他自己还在，却完全没多余的力气再说什么了，也许此刻只要轻轻合上眼，就永远都醒不来了，但是，她绝对不要这样！
许久，她朦胧中似乎感觉到周围热闹起来了，很多的光束照进来，然后又转到别的地方，让她的眼睛一时无法适应了。
听到一些说话的声音、脚步声，还有喷水的声音……她不知道是怎么回事，因为此刻真的思考不了，她只需要强撑着最后的一点意识。
“舒颜，告诉我们你在什么地方，靠窗的位置还是？”那边的顾秦突然紧张地询问起来。
她抖着嘴唇，用尽全身的力气喃喃道：“靠……窗……”
“好，太辛苦就不要说话了，我告诉他们，马上就救你出来了，别怕！”
思绪陷入空白，很久很久……然后，她听到一声猛烈的撞击，“砰”的一声，她旁边的窗户被砸开了，车子摇晃起来，硬邦邦的椅子磨擦着她受伤的小腿，痛得她顿时来了气力叫起来。
“好痛！好痛！！”
“舒颜，忍着点！忍着点！同志，她说很痛，我们能不能换个方式？”顾秦焦虑的喊声再一次传来。
再然后，车子又不摇了……
昏暗中，顾秦辨不清楚舒颜的具体位置，他们不让他靠近，他站在离车子一段距离的地方，神经紧紧地绷住，从来没有像此刻如此的紧张。
前面的战士来传话了，说舒颜被她前面的车座压住了下半身，而那个车座上还有一个不知是昏迷还是已遇难的乘客，所以，必须要先将那个乘客从车座上拉开才行，他们会小心翼翼，但这个过程难免会令她痛苦，希望顾秦能告诉对方，要坚持下去。
他的心紧紧揪着，知道了也只能这样了，于是开始安慰舒颜：“舒颜，他们说会有点疼，但别怕，会很快的，我陪你说话吧，你别管他们，只管听着我的话，好么？”
那边又传来了一声“恩”。
“舒颜，记得你最喜欢吃的蓝莓蛋糕么？不瞒你说，我们分开的这段时间，我几乎每天都吃呢，就在那一家我们经常去的糕品店，明天一早，我就给你买去……”
“啊！痛！”电话那边的舒颜再一次撕心裂肺的喊叫，伴随的还有痛苦的哭泣声。
他听到施救人员正小心地安慰着她不要怕，很快就好了。
压住心底的抽痛，他继续轻声说道：“舒颜，别理其他，听我说话，这样吧，告诉你一个秘密，这个可是我隐藏了半辈子的秘密了，除了父母，可是没有其他人知道的哦。”
那边渐渐停止了哭泣，但喘息声还是很浓重。
顾秦接着说：“其实，我的名字是后来才改的，小时候我爸妈起的根本就不是顾秦，我说出来你可别笑啊？”
又听到舒颜的闷哼了，她一定很痛很痛，此刻，心在滴血。
继续故作轻松，却发现早已泪眼模糊：“小时候，我的名字叫顾小明……呵呵，很土吧？看到小学语文书里到处都是自己的名字，我真的没少郁闷过……后来，电视里播放了秦始皇的故事，我对他可崇拜了，于是在到城里上学的那一天起，我就改名顾秦了……呵呵，这可是从来没跟人说起过的哦，你是第一个。”
那边还是很多人的说话声，当然，听得最清晰的，就是舒颜的痛苦呻吟。
“我……我真的撑不住了……”舒颜气若游丝，似乎已经使尽了全身的力气了。
“撑住！舒颜，要坚持住！我就在你身边……”声音哽咽了，连他也说不出话了，头皮酸麻酸麻的，胸口又像被针扎一样难受，为什么要这样？为什么这短短的几个小时过得如此漫长？
前面传来消息，舒颜出血很多，需要医护人员前往协助，几个医生和护士匆匆抬着器械就过去了，顾秦站在原地，感觉自己的血液就要停止流动……
什么片段在脑子里一闪而过，然后又被他厌恶地甩开了，不要，他绝对不要看到这样的结局！
电话那头已然没了舒颜的声音，甚至连呻吟都没有了……
“舒颜？舒颜！”他喊着、叫着，心跳得飞快，不安的情绪笼罩着他。
然后，他蹲在杂草丛生的草地上，任担忧和恐惧的泪水蔓延着，轻轻地喃喃起来：“唱歌给你听吧，就像当初那样……”
“忘了有多久，再没听到你……对我说你最爱的故事，我想了很久，我开始慌了，是不是我又做错了什么……”
颤抖着的稍稍变了调的歌声，却引来了周围所有人的注意，他知道此刻的自己有多滑稽可笑，也知道自己的歌声有多难听，但还是不想停止，他要唱给她听，要让她知道，他是多么在乎她，担心她，依旧爱着她啊……
“你哭着对我说，童话里都是骗人的，我不可能是你的王子……也许你不会懂，从你说爱我以后，我的天空，星星都亮了……”
沙哑变调的歌声参着眼泪，将在场的所有人都打动了，一个女警默默地站在一边，无声地掉着眼泪……
“我愿变成童话里你爱的那个天使，张开双手变成翅膀守护你，你要相信，相信我们会像童话故事里，幸福和快乐是结局……”
这一刻，不仅他的声音，在场的其他人，站着的也好，忙碌着的也好，无不轻轻跟着哼唱起来……在这个冰冷又昏暗的夜晚，大伙的歌声却让空气顿时温暖了起来，顾秦的眼泪从没有像此刻如此汹涌，止都止不住。
舒颜的眼前一片漆黑，握着手机的右手已然麻木了，她应该是昏睡着了，但却又清晰地感受着电话那边的顾秦的声音……
他在哭……他在唱……
唱着那一首曾经令她感动不已的歌，童话……真的能像歌词里写的那样么？他们的结局能幸福快乐么？
呵呵，也许此刻，她真的笑了，不是因为没了疼痛，也不是因为终于等到了救援的人，而是……那颤抖跑调的嗓音和当初对方跟自己求婚时一样好笑，顾秦一点唱歌的天分也没有，而且不到万不得已，他怎么也不会开口唱歌的……
而此刻，她却听到了，清晰的听到了，虽然中间几度因为哽咽而停顿，但温暖却将她冰冷的身体紧紧地包裹起来，她说不出话，但相信彼此会有心灵的感知，顾秦，我感受到了，也答应你，不会离开……不会轻易离开了……
这一刻，周围一切的喧嚣或杂乱已经完全被屏蔽在九霄云外，她安静地闭着眼，意识却不停告诉自己，不能睡着，一定要坚持，因为就在车外，那个站在寒风中的男人，轻声地颤抖着再次唱起那首歌，他在等着自己……
“我愿变成童话里你爱的那个天使，张开双手变成翅膀守护你，你要相信，相信我们会像童话故事里，幸福和快乐是结局……”
是的，我们都要相信，幸福和快乐会是永远的结局……
……
朦胧中，舒颜来到一处优美梦幻的花海中，一望无际，清新沁人的芳香随着细细的微风飘来，抚在脸上，就像被蒙上一片轻纱，痒痒的，很舒服。
正奇怪着这里是什么地方，就见到远处一个熟悉的身影缓缓向她走来……
谁？如此熟悉？那身影，为何令她如此亲切和安心？
很快，她知道了，那不就是心中记挂着的那个人么？那个虽然离开了，却依旧留在心田的男人。
“爸爸！”她流下幸福的泪水，然后朝着那个人跑去。
男人明明站在眼前，可却感觉遥不可及，无论她怎么跑，无论怎么向前，始终都够不着、摸不到。
男人始终微笑着，舒展开的眉头显得慈祥和蔼，他朝她摇着头，然后轻轻挥动着手，告诉她：“孩子，你一定要幸福啊……”
眼泪决堤而下，她怔怔地目睹着父亲的身影缓缓消失在花海的深处，然后，什么都没有了……
第三卷第一章完满的回报
好像昏睡了很久……舒颜的脑子比眼睛抢先一步醒了，好安静，她这是在哪儿？为什么感觉整个人昏沉又麻木？昏暗中，她听到了自己匀称的呼吸声，还有似有似无的滴答声……

男主角唱童话的部分深深地感动了我。
或许是在发泄，不过的确哭得挺惨。

希望考试能顺利，加油{:

&TORTUROUS TIME

2009-08-24T23:09:00.000+08:00

It's weird how blogger doesn't seem to be working very well (at least not on my computers) these days...
Life is freagging screwed :\ Mood swings getting serious. I wanna be happy! Is it that hard? EOY is about a month away. Going on hiatus soon I suppose... I need to bury myself deep inside the books and pray that the information will somehow line up and all enter my brain automatically. Ahh, nice try Janelle, nice try.

I've got a headache today, with an upset stomach and Janelle. I think I'm dying :\
Food doesn't appeal that much to me anymores. Chem (atomic bonding) was a total failure. People are so stressed up nowadays.
They are crying, bleeding and dying.
Why?
To live on.

It's funny how I can laugh so heartily, and the next minute I just don't feel like smiling anymore. So it sets me thinking, are those happiness for real? If they are, why don't they linger around like the other happy memories? I don't know :\ (bloody hell)

Math is up this friday, with physics next week. JUST kill me somebody. God.

The colour of the blue sky makes me emo.

Why are skies blue?
Why are hearts red?
Why is love so simple yet complicated?
Why is it that it's those whom you love that hurts you?
Why do birds fly and not humans?
Why do lives have to be so fragile?
Why are there so many things in life that we have to do, must do and cannot don't do?
Why can't I forget when I already swore to give up?
Why do I have to smile when I'm not actually happy?

Answers, someone?

I wanna run away, and soar up high into the blue skies. Maybe everything would be different :\

TATA/

&LOVE IS LIKE RAINBOW

2009-08-17T15:19:00.003+08:00

{她兴奋地指着彩虹，“夜，看！八色彩虹哦” 男孩皱着眉，不解地问道：“彩虹是七色啊...” “呵呵，红橙黄绿蓝殿紫，还有幸福的颜色！”}

Sudden craze of rainbow and the colours. Amazed, I must reckon, that rainbows simply fascinate me. A lot, actually. Haha. Life is crazy nowadays, with all the upcoming tests and datelines to meet with, it's totally stressing on my brain (and brain cells if there are any brave survivors-_-) Damn. I swear I'm gonna shop till I drop dead after EOYs. Hoho~

Chem's tomorrow. Die. Today's DHRP symposium was totally, b0r1nG... I mean I slept through some of it ._. It's nice to sleep in the PAC :D they should open it and charge people to sleep in there! It's super comfy (:

I mean the last thing I would wanna do is to suck on lollies all day and stare out into space for 24/7.
it actually sounds fun (:
ahh. nevermind :\

Shall rush home to study chem.

tata!
P.S. If at night you see a pair of white eyes and a big (fat) white set of teeth smiling at you, and they seem to be "floating" in the middle of the air, do NOT be alarmed, I repeat, do NOT be alarmed! Because that will be Yitian's laogong, aka mugua. I repeat, do NOT be alarmed! In case of emergency, please on the lights or jump out of the window. THANKYOU

12/08/09

2009-08-13T00:19:00.000+08:00

JANELLE is feeling okay~

Stayed back for history today, had some stuff to ask the teacher.(hahaha)
There's so much to do for this week. History test (plus the stack of readings to do in order to do well for the test o.o), history essay to be handed in, chemistry article review... rarh it's irritating me. Okay nvm. Statistic test, I think I'm SO gonna fail. Dang.

I think it's such a wonderful day (lalala)

And I'm dancing over the rainbow (lalala)
May the bright sunlight shine on me (lalala)

Cause I'm in a happy mood (lalala)
Rainbow's got seven colours (lalala)
And they're all smiling at me (lalala)
Zebras are singing with me too (lalala)
Y don't you join in too (lalala)

okay nvm I'm just being bored + lame. Put the first letters of the 'song' together and get a sentence (: ahhh, that's me alright :D

I'm emo because I am officially stuck at my history essay and because I desperately want to sleep and because I really really really want to UPLOAD PICTURES! dang! and I can't even change the fonts and stuff. I mean why wouldn't the damn stupid irritating annoying bloody buttons just show themselves?!
ahh nvm :D
I'm off to lala land folks~

TATA/

060809

2009-08-06T21:58:00.001+08:00

Damn I've no idea what's wrong but I can't change the colour or the size of the fonts. Ahh, well. It's been a long time since I've last posted, haha. I mean the last time i posted was god knows when >_> Today was cool. haha. Very fun. lol. Not really looking forward to the celebration tomorrow. red shirt + singing-,- okay I've gotta admit that the songs are okay but the way they organized it is really...
Got my history book from the library!! :D hoho~ It's super thick and the font size is like what, 8?! okay nevermind, at least it's encouraging to know that I have motivation to drive me on~ woots.

Ahh. Chemistry test was Y-A-Y, yay. haha. 17/20, highest~! haha. Shocked, I must say. Very, shocked. Because usually I'll get like what, 5/20-_-, which is the last few in class. heh heh. I guess hard work does pay off. The nanjing peeps are coming soon. I kinda don't really want them to._. I'm evil yes I know, but hell-o! They've ingeniously chosen a very good timing to come RIGHT BEFORE OUR EOY. Dang, that's what's going to happen to the Australians.. I've got to spend the eve of EOY out with them; playing like tomorrow's holiday forever-.- Great, just great.

But I'm so looking forward to Nanjing trip~ I want to S.H.O.P~~
Ahh. I'm crazy. I'm mad. I'm insane. I'm mentally unstable. My nerves system is failing me. My memory is failing me.(speaking of which I've nearly lost my wallet twice today. But a big fat thankyou to all the wonderful peeps who returned it to me!! :D) My brain is dying, and so are the cells inside it. hmm :\ Are those symptoms considered normal? Err, yea. For the undergraduates of WoodBridge University. What was I saying? Forget it.

Super high, and then super emo. Just don't leave me alone, because my brain would start to replay the emo things. Ahh. So I got super emo. Dang. Very constructive, yea.

Things have changed and people are still changing. Just don't target me again. I wanna protect myself, because I know that everytime I give my heart out, they'd return me a wounded one. I want to have a scar-free heart. So, leave me alone if you're such an arrogant snob. I mean, honestly, who do you think you are? My husband? My parent? My teacher? None. If you don't respect me, I won't to you either. Take that, and leave it.
Hate is a strong word, so I'm not using it. Why should I see your ass-like face and take down all your temper? I'm not your servant, you s.o.n-o.f-a-b.i.t.ch. Be reasonable. Quit asking people to reflect, start with yourself. Why are you asking me to think and reflect on myself all-the-time? Ask me again, and you'll kiss my ass.

that's all. Just suddenly, thought of it.

tata//

She belongs to the darkness, so take her away from love.

UPDATE

2009-06-14T22:07:00.002+08:00

Yoh~ It's been like what, god knows how long since I've last posted. xD Because of my laziness hahahahaha.

School holidays are not any better than normal school days. I mean, the work load this time round is crazy. >_> I'm on the verge of going crazy. hahas. Lee Min Ho is cute! Nice! Handsome! Simple perfect! Omg! :D

BBF has become my daily routine heh heh~

Went out with yitian, siting and ak to study today. Siting left at 12 and ak came at abt 1+? yep. Studied at Bugis Bras Basah Macs. Hahas. Me and yitian crapped for so long. Pranked some senior. hahas. Ps :P

Then siting came at abt 3+? And we went inside Bugis Mall to walk around and stuff. Then this guy and his friend came over to 搭讪. At first I thought was someone doing survey. But obviously that's not the case. He said all kinds of stuff like what,"我如果不说出来我可能会后悔的" and stuff. haha. Whoa I was so scared sia. I thought 老妈 gonna get kidnapped away by him cuz he kept on asking her for 3 minutes-,- crazy guy. lol

Then ak pretended to be the bf, but apparently they didn't believe. And wth he's 27 years old. And I thought he was, or rather should be younger than that. like rofl? I nearly spit blood on him...

Well anw in the end we gave ak's number. haha funny~

Me yitian and ak went to eat the 台湾雪花冰. haha. Not bad~

如果可以，我想要回到那时候的我们。
那个不曾为任何事情烦恼过的我们；
那个坚信会与彼此一直走下去的我们；
那个曾经以真心来对待彼此的我们；
那个曾经喜欢一起疯的我们；

曾经拥有过的快乐，为什么要找回来却是那么的难?
大家都在变。
我不想我们的友谊变质了。
为什么这么看不起自己?
虽然我们不是那么地要好，但是我还是很珍惜你的。
看到你的照片，我会很怀念那个时候。
是啊。
我应该明白你的做法，因为我自己也不是说没想过。
但是，不要把我们避在门外好么?

一个个的。
大家一个个的都离开了。
当初的誓言呢?
当初的承诺呢?
当初的欢乐呢?
我知道，以前的快乐是真实的。
但是为什么此时的我，却感觉不到那个真实感?

我想找回那时的你，那时的我，和那时的我们♥

2009-06-01T20:57:00.002+08:00

今天中国六一儿童节~ 恩恩... 其实是看到别人的状态才想起来的。呵呵。儿童节，好像很早以前就已经不属于我们了。好忙。好想休息。好想喘口气。

还有几个月而已。一定要加油... 加油吧! 大家，一起加油。为了共同的梦想而努力。

2009-04-02T20:28:00.002+08:00

HAPPY APRIL FOOLS =D
(1st April)

woots~ April's such a wonderful month don't you think? [:
hahaha.

Chem and math tests are totally screwed ><
urgh. I hate people who have big brains-.-

k bye

BORED):

2009-03-27T15:52:00.004+08:00

HELLO

I'm back. lol. Blog's dead now._. ahh nevermind. Loads of setbacks lately :\ failing everything. But I'm not gonna give up. Physics didn't disappoint me (: Am pretty happy when I got it back today :D But I expected a higher grade hmm :\

Started going for chemistry tuition since 2 weeks ago. Every tuesday. hmm. Not exactly what we're learning/what we've learnt. O Level syllabus is indeed different. Does that mean we're actually slower?o.o

Two tests next week. Major news! T_T
Blah. E math and chem. OH and A math ytd was so s.c.r.e.w.e.d -.-
Urgh. Luck's totally down these few days. or rather this whole year (though there's only 3 months).

Tomorrow's dongchen's CS concert. SH's. (not siswo hartoyo-_-) LOL! GST don't huachi arh. wahaha. k nvm. Yitian is osama! Jinxin is chen guanxi! osama is chenguanxi's hou gong and vice versa. eew lol. hahaha. Chenniao likes to farm-.- LOL on xiaonei. hahahahahaha. Hilarious. I was laughing at her for the past 39487456194290 minutes [: hahahaha

In the comp lab now. Freaking cold. My fingers are frozen-_-

Ahh. Yitian is Cold papaya. lol. HAHA. The scene where she gives birth to little papayas. :D so cute. lol

Jinxin's right; 疯狂也是一种幸福

미안한, 사랑하♥

I can't type chinese so I'm emo-ing now._.

haish. nvm.

Shall end this useless post with a song(:

"When It All Falls Apart"

I'm having the day from hell,

it was all going so well (before you came)

And you told me you needed space,

With a kiss on the side my face (not again)

And not to mention (the tears I shed)

But I should have kicked your (ass instead)

I need intervention

Attention to to stop temptation to scream

'cause baby

Everything is F'ed up straight from the heart

Tell me what do you do, when it all falls apart

Gotta pick myself up where do I start

'cause I can't turn to you

when it all falls apart No

Don't know where I parked my car

Don't know who my real friends are (anymore)

I put my faith in you

What a stupid thing to do (when it rains it pours)

And not to mention (I drank too much)

I'm feeling hung over (and out of touch)

I need intervention

Attention to to stop temptation to scream

'cause baby

Can it be easier?

Can I just change my life?

'cause it just seems to go bad everytime

Will I be mending?

another one ending once again

Falls apart

Gotta pick myself up

'cause things are messed up

this lyrics i took from the net is so screwed-.-

ahh well tata/

LATELY

2009-03-11T20:30:00.002+08:00

Things just turn out so unexpectedly. somehow. :\ But I don't know how-.- Failed so many things. and I'm reflecting. of course. Mean while, I'm also struggling. Struggling to stand up, to get up after the setbacks, and the disappointments. So many things to cope with. I just don't know if I can make it up to standard anymore. It's irritating. Really. I just don't know where and what went wrong. So how can I improve for the better? And i'm still reflecting...

2009. A really bad year. Year 4 now. So many things happened, so many people changed. People come and they go eventually. I think I'm starting to accept that now. Some people are not meant to be there, and so no matter how hard you try to hold on, they will still leave.
Friendship is a very frail thing. I realise. Things that don't work out will never work out. And things that went on so smoothly, in fact too smoothly, would go wrong in the end. I too, have changed. I'm starting to question many things in my friendships with others. Am I too sensitive? I mean, everyone is bound to question things. Just a matter of whether they voice it out.

I'm starting to reflect alot now adays. I think I'm soon going to be part of the big family in Woodbridge. How very nice.

我曾经跟你说过，我是个非常珍惜友情的人。虽然你没有给我正面的答复，但是我依然相信，你跟我一样。虽然一开始，我是有很多的疑问，但是我问不出口。因为我怕。我怕，一旦我问出口，我们之间的一切就会被破坏掉。所以我一直忍着。我不停地告诉自己，自己想的不会发生，这一切都会像童话故事里面一样。我们大家，会永远永远地快乐下去。可是我错了。这一切都发生地这么得快。一夕之间，什么都变了。你变了，事情变了，友谊也变了。我从来没想过的东西发生了。伤心，是因为无法接受我们之间越来越疏远？是啊。我怀念当初的友谊，当初在一起的时光，当初一起走过的日子。可是现在，我必须面对的，却是变质的友谊。从一开始到现在，我的脑海里一直有一个问题。我很想要问你，可是我不敢。应该还是害怕吧。
现在，虽然不像以前那样了，可还算是一段友谊，所以我会继续相信你，相信这段友情。我对你冷淡，我对你忽冷忽热，我不理你，那是因为我不知道怎么样面对你。我不知道，自己还有没有资格再做你的朋友，但相信我，只要你还珍惜，那我一定也会珍惜。这段友谊能不能维持下去，我也不知道。这个世界这么的大，我们永远不会知道以后会遇到谁，现在的人将来会不会失去联系。曾经的感觉那么的强烈，让我开始怀疑，这一切是不是虚幻。

okay. I've got to go. Been on comp for such a long time. =\
tata//

and I'm still holding on ♥

birthday miao

2009-03-03T22:09:00.003+08:00

Failed my chem test terribly.
My temper is getting worse as days pass by.
What on earth is happening._.
Okay so what if I don't know. It's not a crime. blah whatever.

SWEET16 birthday miao!♥

LATELY

2009-03-02T20:03:00.004+08:00

So many things to do. I'm so running out of time. If only there was 72 hours a day and that there was no school. I would really be happy then [:
Jiayou jiayou.

一定要撑过去...

Happy 17th birthday to geng aokun![:

What would happen if that accident back in 10 years ago did not happen? I doubt if things would still be the same...

"就算心很痛，我也要谢谢你。因为你让我爱过"♥

情人節快樂

2009-02-14T17:09:00.002+08:00

情人節快樂！

今年又是一個人過啦。恩。

爲什麽你沒有出現？我坐在那裏等你等了好久。對你來說可能就是一個早上，但對我來說，卻好像一輩子那麽的長。我興奮得瞪着你的出現，可你卻沒有來。也許，這輩子都不會再看到你吧。童話故事最終的結局，應該還是王子和公主在一起了吧。但我深信，我的王子會出現的。而你，並不是我的王子，我也不曾是你的公主，以後，也不會是。看開了，可是卻沒怎麽高興起來。無精打采的。我需要努力的目標。等我訂了目標，就是你消失在我生活中的那一天。我，不會在愛你了。
祝福你，
情人節快樂。

感情，非常的複雜吧？有些事，還是不要知道得好。如果知道了會傷心，那幹嗎要知道呢？

我要離開。我要忘記這一切，忘記所有的人，甚至忘記我自己。可我從來，都不曾認識過自己，何曾來的忘記？
有緣的話，星星會讓我們再次相遇的。

我喜歡天使。非常，非常，喜歡。

黑色星期五

2009-02-13T22:23:00.002+08:00

okay fine. yt & st, here's your 黑色星期五。在白板上寫上日期時，才發現今天是黑色星期五。13th Friday. 真諷刺。明明是情人節除夕，明明是個充滿愛的季節，明明應該是個高興的一天，但卻是“黑色”的。星期五。對我來說，還向每一天都是黑色的。除了周末。周末，不用看到不想看到的人；不看到他們，就不會鬱悶；不會鬱悶，自己也開心多了。但是星期一呢？星期一，比星期五還要黑。

終于，星期五我解脫了。今天大家也都沒去。在外面儅了一天。

對於友情，我還是願意付出的。只是這次，我會很小心，很小心。我不想，在犯同樣的錯誤。

既然你選擇了愛情，放棄友情，那麽我也沒什麽可說得了。只能說，我對你非常的失望。友情，應該是比愛情還要長久的，不是麽？還有，永遠記住，愛的反面，是恨。

idk

2009-02-08T15:03:00.002+08:00

A sudden urge made me delete all my messages in my inbox. I was actually deleting all of someone's sms. Then I got irritated by everything, so I decided to delete the rest too. Ahh. Anyway. Somehow, I don't regret. I mean, last time, messages to me were considered "precious". Yea yea, I know, I know. You're going to say that I'm mad, or crazy, or whatsoever. But those happy moments, encouraging moments, and moments of blessings were important and memorable to me.

I don't know why I no longer feel so now. Is the world changing? The people and things around me changing? Or is it me who is changing all along? I'm lost in my own world when I'm alone. I get to think. I get my own space, and my own universe.

Fine. So I admit that I'm changing. But you got to admit, that those around me are also changing. Especially some people. I don't know. But you do. you have to.

I'm sick of many things, sick of many people, sick of many habits.

So I'm trying so hard to change. Attempted. Tried. Failed. Attempted again. It's always a cycle, and will always be. When will it finally succeed? I don't know.

Life is unpredictable. People come, and go. Nothing lasts forever. I finally understand. There's meanings behind everything, it's just about whether you understand. It's not hidden for nothing you know.

I wanna jump into the sea. I wanna run along the coast and let the wind hit my face. I wanna bury my face in my pillow and sleep forever. I wanna bang my head against the wall so hard that I'll forget everything that I don't wanna remember. I wanna run away from this world that I'm so sick of and start my life anew. I wanna dream though knowing that I can't live it. I wanna lean on your shoulders forever and cry till I have no tears left. I wanna go with you to the end of the horizon, stay there forever and never come back. I wanna dance till my feet can't hold it anymore. I wanna scream till my heart's empty. I wanna sing till I have no more voice left in me. I wanna live till there's no live in me. I wanna love till there's no more love in me. I wanna catch the stars when the moon comes up. I wanna see the world crash the same way I saw mine did. I wanna live in a fairytale that will never end. I wanna live a dream that will never come true.

I wanna......

Today

2009-02-07T21:44:00.002+08:00

Didn't do much today. There's not really anything for me to blog. Actually. Went out to study with Siting and Jiahui today. Wasn't exactly effective, but was fun. The feeling of breathing some fresh air is awesome. Walking around the airport was cooling.

School's starting to get busy, and homework's piling up on me, 'till I can hardly breathe. So many things to catch up with, finish up and settle. Getting really moody nowadays.

Maybe I should just keep things to myself. What's the use of telling others? Nobody will understand. anyway. So why bother? I don't know. I just don't know anymore. But maybe being alone gives me more space and time to think, and ponder about the questions that were left unanswered in my fade memory.

So just leave me alone.

Magic, is merely an illusion of the human eye. But what about love?
It's an illusion of the heart.

FRIDAY

2009-02-06T22:39:00.002+08:00

我只知道有黑色星期一。但是星期五对我来说，一样的黑。心情不好。也不知道自己都在郁闷些什么。只知道，最近很烦。非常的烦。超级无敌郁闷地烦。好多东西要做。好多事情要去想清楚。瘸了一个星期，终于可以正常的走路。虽然还是很慢啦... 不过至少比星期一来得好。
为了做那些堆积如山的功课，为了对得起自己，为了对得起父母，我本来决定要退了戏剧的。是啊，现在的决定还是要退了戏剧。可是被人骂了。因为我逃了活动。

最近老是被骂。

一个人郁闷的感觉，不好受...

我想哭。真得很想哭。肩膀，借我一下好么?

Updates

2009-02-05T20:13:00.003+08:00

There's quite some stuff happening lately. But I don't really know what... Ahh well. Confused about many things, so i'm kinda lost. Not in a very good mood. Don't feel like talking to anyone at all. And all of a sudden, I'm getting used to being alone. Loneliness. I don't know why.

Getting tired very easily nowadays. Don't know why either. Maybe I'm dying. Hmm.. :\

So many things to think about, so many things to care about, and so many things to resolve. I just don't know why am I doing certain things now. Doesn't make any sense, does it?

Was crazy enough to go and watch Josph zhengyuanchang's show. Was a sudden craze. With Huiying. Haha. Don't worry huiying, it was okay [: Love ya.. It was really crazy. I mean, 10 minutes to the show and we've actually got tickets (someone doesn't want his). 10 rowth seats. Can you believe it? I mean, we were lucky, yea. Definitely. I mean, maybe it's fate. I was just about to give up... :\ so, 111 bucks and i'm off to see zyc.

Didn't manage to catch ZhengYuanchang. Ahh well. 10th row is enough to make me happy (:

Zhengyuanchang's character in the show is 李想.

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"你是谁？"

"啊，你好！我的名字叫李想！李安的李，梦想的想。李想。"

"啊...李想啊...那你的理想是什么？"

"我的理想？...哦我的理想是要赚很多很多的钱！"

...

这出舞台戏演得很好，也让我思考了很多。剧中，李想说过这么一句话："我们为什么要上班？"

是啊。他说得很对。为什么要上班呢？就如同我们为什么要上学一样。是啊。为什么要上学？上学就是为了要吸取更多的知识，以后才能赚很多很多的钱，才能有个美好的将来。好啊。那试问，将来的定义是什么？美好的将来，那又是什么？是大家一致的想法--转很多很多的钱，有个幸福美满的家庭，开着豪华的车，过着奢侈的生活么？

其实我也不知道我想要什么...

"总监，我有不会的事情想要问你..."

"啊，李想啊。坐啊。有什么事情想问我？"

"就是啊...我有了喜欢的人......"

"呃...为什么要告诉我这个？干嘛来找我？"

"因为老板说过啊，如果有什么不会的就可以来找总监你...."

".......好吧。那你先告诉我，你喜欢的人是谁？"

"呃...我喜欢的人...我喜欢的人......我喜欢的人..是谁啊？"

"...我怎么会知道？你不是来告诉我的吗？..."

"对阿...可是我又记不起来......"

"好了好了。我来说吧。你喜欢的人，是我。"

"啊？我喜欢的人是你？"

"对。"

"唔...我喜欢的人..是你？"

"对啊。你喜欢的人就是我。"

"哦...所以我喜欢的人是你..."

"...不。其实你喜欢的是琦琦。"

"啊？？不是啊...我喜欢的人是你...！"

"不对。你喜欢的人是琦琦。"

"我喜欢的人不是琦琦，是你啊！"

"你喜欢的人是琦琦。"

"我喜欢的是你啦！"

"不是我，是琦琦。"

"不是琦琦啦，是你！"

"人家都说了我喜欢的人是你嘛！~"

"你根本不清楚自己喜欢的人是谁。"

"我现在很清楚，我喜欢的人就是你！"

hahaha. kawaii (:

到底喜欢谁，不喜欢谁，不是靠别人说的。靠的是，自己的心。但如果你看错了自己的心，那谁也帮不了你了。喜欢？不喜欢？爱情？很简单的。喜欢就喜欢，不喜欢就不喜欢。我搞不懂，为什么人总是要把感情的事弄得这么复杂？最后搞得自己伤恒累累。这又何必呢？我记得，第一次喜欢一个人，是很高兴的。只要一天看到他一次，我就很满足了。而且心情也会跟着好起来。虽然最后把对他的那份好感藏在了心底，虽然到了最后心还是碎了，但我不在乎。记忆，不管是好是坏，都是有回忆的价值的。喜欢，这个感觉，不会一辈子存在的。到了一定的程度，它会开始改变。而只有到了那个时候，你才会发现，其实爱情，很简单。

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HAPPY (belated) BIRTHDAY TO DINOSAUR KOR. xD wahaha. 31st January. Sorry I was 6 days late... :\ LOLL. ahh well. It's the thought that counts x)

Anyway! SWEET 16. LOL. xD Wish you all the best for your studies and stuff :D Jiayous for O's.

pighead. xD

"你是谁？"
"啊，你好！我的名字叫李想！李安的李，梦想的想。李想。"

HAPPY 初一

2009-01-26T14:49:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 初一.
Not in a good mood.

"My wife is 18"
damn nice. Male lead is damn charming. Makes me wanna get married. =\
ahh well.

tata/

HAPPY CNY EVE

2009-01-25T10:13:00.003+08:00

HAPPY CNY'S EVE PEOPLE! [:

hahaha.

Going out soon. So shall post more next time or something :D

and monee, RP's SO MUCHHHH BETTERRRRRR. BOO HOO [:
hoho xP

Monika you boob. RP is so NOT RIP. and no he doesn't own RP. BOOOO

:D

Em0

2009-01-22T23:20:00.003+08:00

Just a post before I wander off to dreamland. Cuz I'm lost and confused. I have no idea what to do. Just call me crazy. I don't get it. Is it that complicated? I don't think so you know. Many things are unexpected. Nothing is defined in life. So why do some people set their conclusions so early? In the end, as time pass by, you'll just find yourself with a complete different mindset from the start, where you set that conclusion. yourself. You thought life was defined. But it's not. Most of the time, the endings will just catch you unexpected. So what? That doesn't mean that you can run away. It doesn't mean that you can hide away and expect the problem to solve itself. It doesn't work that way, my dear. You have to work your way out. Although I haven't mastered it, but now I understand. I get it now. Finally. I guess?

One point I can't stand: Making empty promises. If you can't live up to your promises, don't even BOTHER about making any more, okay? It's useless. Completely, totally, useless. And you'll just portray yourself as some selfish bastard who can't even keep your own promises. It's not fun at all. And it comes with responsibility. It actually reflects your character, you know that? Yea I hope you do. Because yes, I AM actually talking about someone here. In this paragraph. Don't really bother about naming the person. Just, don't do it anymore. Because you've already broken all (every, single, one of your promises). So don't bother. kay? Cuz I don't really give a damn. Plus, you still have many broken promises to fulfill. So live with it. And if you have a problem, then ask yourself for the answer. Because simply, I don't have it, and I won't.

ignore me.

Elm0's Em0.

?
A question mark.
That, my dear, is my life.

SWEET 16 CHAR'DARLING

2009-01-22T22:32:00.002+08:00

HAPPY SWEET 16 CHARMAINE DARLING (:

So cool that you're 16 now :D NC16. hahaha. You're like the bestest friend ever :D Always there for me and stuff. Haha. Plus, we share the most secrets. xD Jiayou and good luck for all the stuff (: haha. Remember all the times when we have guitar lessons and stuff? LOL. It was damn fun haha. And going out to play. lol. Sorry about the rabbit clip... ): The twerp who broke it haven't return me one yet... But don't worry I'll make sure the twerp returns :D hehe. yep. though I don't think you'll see this. haha. But still... =P happy happy birthday~~
ily♥
(:

Anyways. Lunar new year's coming. We're going out to play/eat, right? :D haha. If not it'll be kinda lonely. Though there really are loads of stuff to do and chiong, but I still wanna play :D Hey you can't deprive me of my holidays can you ;) So well... Got to catch up abit with shimei and miao ytd. haha. Was fun.

It's year 4. And it's another year to anticipate to.
Surprise? I don't think so.

tata/

NEW YEAR

2009-01-01T21:40:00.001+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

This was saved as a draft. For fun. Ahh well...
New Year was nothing much. School's boring. and irritating. So much stuff. Still....learning how to cope. Luckily there're friends around to help :DD

HOMEWORK ARGHH.

damn :\

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVE

2008-12-31T21:59:00.002+08:00

Today's new year's eve! Get high peeps! [: hahahah.

Past two days went out to meet st, yt, cy, ak, lc (luchang). Was for the film thing. But apparently we didn't film anything? And the only "memory" I have left of yesterday (lc wasn't there, btw) is being scolded AND chased away by some (dumb) librarian? Ohhkay. Not funny.

School's starting...

Damn you! >:C

tata/

till then, you'll know everything.

Crap abt so what ifs

2008-12-26T22:04:00.003+08:00

So what if I am?
So what if I do?
So what if I said?
So what if...

It aint gonna change anything so FACE IT. damn.

Twilight

2008-12-26T21:22:00.003+08:00

ZOMFREAKING天 Robert Pattinson is so cute and hot. xDD

[esp this one!!(above)]

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Twilight amazing. Totally made my day and money worth it!♥♥ [:
So I'm now dying to read that series. Haven't got the chance to buy Twilight yet =\ But I'm soooo gonna get it soon heh heh heh~

It's been fun going out. Haha. Yitian and siting are crap. Siting's interested in "Mr. Rochester" in the book "Jane Eyre". And Mr. Rochester was being described by Jiahui as the "Old, dying man". Haha. So we concluded that siting's interested in "old dying men". LOL @ it!

Okay so christmas is over. Which means that new school year's gonna start and I'll be facing more bi-atches><

tata/

It doesn't really matter now, does it? When everything falls through, the world will end, together with our love. Courage is all it takes. But you left. Nothing else is gonna work. So why bother? And I'm still going to beaches. You know why? Because you said you love to watch sunrise beside the waves. ♥

MERRY X'MAS

2008-12-25T22:00:00.003+08:00

MERRY X'MAS PEEPS!! ♥

hohoho. Even though I didn't have any christmas trees or santas, but christmas was nice [:

Hehe. Played the whole day.

Watching twilight tomorrow [:

tata/

It's a season of loves♥♥♥

WYY (Day 1)

2008-12-22T22:21:00.003+08:00

Day 1 of WYY. Damn tired. T.T Now my legs are very pain. ]:

Sobing.

Haish. Tired + the fact that I don't know anyone in the group. At least not close enough to talk to-.- So I was just wandering by myself. What fun huh. sian. It's like, so boring. freaking boring.

T.T

Tomorrow there's more to come. And the mass dance is extremely lame-.- Can't stand it. No offence though.. =\

Okay I'm bored. Holidays are going to end!! Chiong homeworkkkkkkkkkkk! D;

注定的重逢。

我在茫茫人海中寻找一世的恋人，你的容颜在上辈子就烙印在我心底。当你陌生迷茫的瞳孔与眼神撞进我的脑海中的第一刻，我便化作成影子在背后守护你，直至你那白净的羽翼丰盈。

No Title

2008-12-20T22:57:00.002+08:00

Monday and Tuesday will be WYY. Damn. I don't want to go ): 8am-5.30pm WTHH. Some kind of life huh. Haish. Plus we're not going to do anything benefactial to us or anything else.. o.O So lame.

When're we gonna watch twilight tgt?? =]

After Monday's, or after Tuesday's wyy? No more other time le... =\

Wednesday was my sis's violin diploma exam. It was earlyyyy in the morning. Yea lol. And after that our whole family went ecp to play. Okay. More like exercising. Haha. Rode bike and stuff. Was tiring but fun too. lol.

Time's flying.. o.o

你哭着醒来，为擦干泪的明晰让我心痛。你问为什么梦会那样悲伤，我回答那只是个梦，时间久了就会被遗忘。你似懂的点头，也许当梦真正消失之时，心口的忧伤依旧若隐若现。

0.0

2008-12-19T23:54:00.002+08:00

today went bball and stuff wif jx, st, cy, yt, jh. lol. 6 ppl. haha. damn fun =]

Nth much to update. Haish.

lamers 倚天 & 日华姐:
BECAUSE I CAN'T POST OR ANYTHING ON QQ SO I SHALL SAY HERE.
GO AND DIE LAR YOUR HAO YUAN HERE HAO YUAN THERE VERY FUNNY AR.
zzz.. -.-
Lame lar you two. zzzz. I shall try and find out why I can't post at QQ-.- Lolll

Christmas is coming (:

<33 tata/

2008-12-13T23:04:00.000+08:00

Yitian's back! woohoo~ LOL.
Let's go out someday (: And I haven't distributed my chocs yet... =X
And ahem* mrs jung/heroine ate all of hers up. How very nice (: ....
L0L jk.

Anyway, short post cuz there's really NOthing to blog abt in my boring life cuz its in the boring holidays.. =/

So not looking forward to Tanjong Rhu's campus and SOOO looking forward to X'mas (:

SAD movies

2008-12-07T21:12:00.000+08:00

Woots here come my second post of the day :D haha. Just finished watching Koizora (aka Sky of Love) ;) and mannnn it's so romantic and of course, sad.

Go and watch it if you haven't. It's nice but weird too... =/ hmm...
hahas (=

Okay so there's one more movie that's something like this too. Haish. But abit more "pure" lah hor. lol. xD But it's nice too(:

It's called "A walk to remember". Go and watch it:D Nice past time during holidays. Haha.
Hardly completed homework. Gotta get off comp soon. Was hanging on comp for almost the whole day. =X

tata/

Now it's hello homework and byebye computer(:
....

如果有缘的话，星星会让我们在相遇♥

boring

2008-12-07T14:03:00.000+08:00

Okay. After reading mrs gst's blog, i'm very motivated...

...to come here and scold people and express my extreme unhappiness hahaha.

Anyway, I totally see NO point in grouping us in such a random manner like wth do you see sec 3s getting new best friends through wyy?! Plus, we are NOT those high and crazy people who can just hug and interact and do what-so-ever-they-want with people they don't know from different schools. WTH Do you expect everyone to be the same character?! Then they won't be unique. You can't just force your freaking so-called concept on every-single-one-of-us can you?

Okay this is getting ridiculous. and i seriously don't want to go... Unless YOU can tell me what's the point of going. But you can't, right? So forget about it.

Was having a funny convo wif mrs gst. xD

siting_lu@yahoo.com (E-mail address not verified) says:
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siting_lu@yahoo.com (E-mail address not verified) says:
lame la u
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wad lar
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wth can
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interact my 脚 lor
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>=C
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lol
siting_lu@yahoo.com (E-mail address not verified) says:
okok
siting_lu@yahoo.com (E-mail address not verified) says:
go blog go blog
siting_lu@yahoo.com (E-mail address not verified) says:
later ur foot not happy
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-.-
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then go work for happy feet
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LOLLLLLLLLL
siting_lu@yahoo.com (E-mail address not verified) says:
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siting_lu@yahoo.com (E-mail address not verified) says:
lame la u

hahaha. It's an inside-joke about the happy feet thingy. It's actually a temporary stall they've(jh, gst, and jx) has worked for some time ago. LOL. And yea, it's called "happy feet". Haha.

and zomg I've finished watching "Fated to Love you"!!! :D SO NICE OMGGG. ;DD
Ruan Jing Tian is so freaking cute~~ OMGGG. I nearly nose-bleed towards the end. Haha.
Okay I'm hua-chi-ing. So what? Hey loving cute guys is no crime dokay :D

I ♥ RUAN JING TIAN!! =]]

世界上最遥远的距离，不是生与死，而是我就站在你面前，你却
不知道我爱你。♥
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世界上最遥远的距离，不是我就站在你面前，你却不知道我爱
你，而是明明彼此相爱，却不能在一起。♥
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世界上最遥远的距离，不是明明彼此相爱，却不能在一起，而是
明明在意，却假装没有把你放在心里。♥
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世界上最遥远的距离，不是明明在意，却假装没有把你放在心
里，而是明明无法抵挡这股思念，却故意掘出一道无法逾越的鸿
沟，伤害你自己。♥
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Don't hurt yourself because you know I'll get hurt too.
Even if you don't love me, I just want to be by your side.
If we can't be a couple, I hope we'll be the best of friends forever.
What if she didn't appear? Would things still be the same?
What if she didn't betray you? Would you still love her?
What if I said I love you first? Would you leave her?
What if...
There are too many 'what ifs' in my life. So it set me thinking, what am I living for? Or rather, who?

If only you knew I loved you♥

nothing much

2008-12-03T20:44:00.001+08:00

Haish. Here I come again. Life is totally boring. Met char and went for movie. Madagascar 2 is totally funny. hahaha. should go and watch it :D

Can't believe st actually had so much to write about everyday in her post. I don't know. Maybe my life's just more boring than hers? Or is it that her "crapping skills" are REALLLLL good? haha. =\

K anyways, who's free this sunday?? T.T I'm going to be all alone for the whole day till dinner. haish. Sad life right. hahas. It's either that everyone's busy, or they're stuck at home. yea it sounds like me. okay well so....-_-"

Who said only kids can watch PPG? Okay so maybe it's a little teensy weensy bit childish. But hey, i'm not even 16 yet :D heh heh.
.............
=.= Fine so i have deprived childhood and i'm really bored. so what. Haish.

Haven't got to complete any homework. Feeling so unaccomplished. 3 weeks left. jiayous then :D

Not allowed to switch to st's grp for the damn wyy. WHY?! wthhh. Like as if we'll interact and life as if we'll contact each other. Yeah. Whether you agree or not, this is the freaking truth and so FACE IT. Yes I'm darn pissed right now. What-is-their-problem... T.T
If they don't allow any changes, then i'm certainly NOT going for it. What's the freaking use anyway. Don't even enjoy it. Just going for the SAKE of it. -.-"

k so. I'm _ pissed. haish. nvm.

tata/

P.S. I'm changing the narrogin trip post soon. xP

小时候的梦固然重要，小时候的约定更重要，可都不必现在的承诺与一切重要。

holidays and sian

2008-12-02T23:20:00.000+08:00

Went bugis today with jx, st and cy. lols. Borrowed books and stuff.
Really sianed nowadays. Completely out of ideas about what to blog/say. Every second and minute's just passing by like that.

Okay, so maybe computer and tv are pastimes and they REALLY can kill time. But I seriously have no idea what to do. Haish. Life now is like... nothing but study. Well maybe that's for the sake of a brighter future hmm?
=/

Meeting char'darling tomorrow :D Loads to tell her.
Shimei pick up your phone.... -_- lol

如果我们的相遇是一个美丽的错误，那让我们都忘掉它吧；让一切，回到原点，回到那个我们还没相遇的原点...

PLAY

2008-11-29T23:27:00.000+08:00

Yup. Today went out to playyyy. lalala. So details will be next time.
Just came up to update about nothing.

and even though a bit late,
but

YI GUO NV REN WELCOME BACK~~
hahah. now waiting for our dear yitian le. haish... lol.

and since somebody dun wan to reply on msn, so i'll have to say sth here.

GAK LAO BA BON VOYAGE!

and yesh. I've developed a craze and love for ELMO :D
they're extremely cute can. hahaha. elmo's red which stands for love too (:

k tata//

DO NOT READ

2008-11-26T19:50:00.000+08:00

现在我真的是很烦。烦到不行。
我做错了。真的错了。我好糊涂......
要怎么开口?
我不知道...
真的不知道。
我的头好痛。像是要爆炸了似的。我想要抱着一个人埋头痛哭。
我真的错了。可是我不知道要如何去弥补。怎么办?
谁来告诉我啊... ...

好痛苦

home sweet home & quiz

2008-11-15T15:51:00.002+08:00

YAY! I'M FINALLY HOME AND FINALLY UPDATING!!
Due to some particular reasons, I hadn't been updating very much. not so often at least. not at all. Well yea. Anyway, Australia was nothing but F-U-N. haha. The details are on my other blog. Ah wells...

oh and this is freaking shocking and (#$$%&(!!@&^*!!!!
Okay here goes..

I SAW RIHANNA AND SHE WAS ON THE SAME PLANE AS US FROM PERTH TO SINGAPORE.

woots!~

Brought back loads of chocolates :DD
heh heh heh.
Anyways, after being tagged by yitian and siting, I've decided to do the quiz. l0l!

QUIZ!

1) The person who tagged you is?
Ans: Yitian. Siting

2)Your relationship with him/her is?
Ans: Good Friends! ;D

3)Your 5 impressions of him/her is?
Ans: Yitian- Clever, cute, sexy, very "CJ" and extremely outgoing.
Siting- Clever, pretty, nice shen cai, nice personality/character, humourous

4)The most memorable thing he/she has done for you?
Ans: Yitian- hmm... Help me with homework?? lol. Or... go out play?? I don't know. l0l.
Siting- Is exchanging some dark secrets with me considered memorable?? Hahahah

5)The most memorable thing he/she has said to you?
Ans: Yitian & Siting- ermm... I really have no idea sorry. :S

6)If he/she become your lover, you will?
Ans: Yitian- Jinxin will kill me.
Siting- Alot of ppl will kill me.
L0L!

7)If he/she become your lover, the thing he/she has to improve on will be?
Ans: .....................................

8) If he/she becomes your enemy, you will?
Ans: Okay these questions are seriously getting out of hand.... =.="

9)There is no spoon question.
Ans: har??

10) What you want to tell him/her now is?
Ans: Yitian- Come back soon! :D:D
Siting- Go out play!!! :D:D

11) Your overall impression of him/her is?
Ans: Yitian- Very nice girl :D
Siting- Very nice girl too :D

12) How do you think people around you feel about you?
Ans: Erm. No idea? bad probably.

13) The characteristics you love of yourself are?
Ans: Well to be honest, if a friend doesn't betray or abandon me, I won't. Unless he/she does other wise..of course...

14) On the contrary, characteristics you hate of yourself are?
Ans: Quite alot. Don't really want to mention. =/

15) The most ideal person you want to be is?
Ans: Shh.. ;) In my heart lo...

16) For people that care and like you, say something to them.
Ans: Thank you and I love you all too :) [err seriously, if there are any. .... yea sorry.]

17) Pass this quiz to 10 people that you wish to know how they feel about you

1. Siting (you two no need to do le lah. l0l)
2. Yitian
3. Jinxin
4. Chenye
5. Jiahui
6. Charmaine
7. Liyi
8. Dongchen
9. Monica
10. Huiying

18)Who is No. 6 having a relationship with?
Ans: HAHA L0L! alot. lol no lar. jkjk. Nobody that I know of.

19) Is No. 9 a male or female?
Ans: Female

20) If No. 7 and No. 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
Ans: Err hahah. L0L?? But they don't even know each other hmmm...

21) What is No. 2 studying?
Ans: Har?? err... triple sci, hist, hcl, double math, etc etc. L0L

22) When was the last time you had a chat with No. 3?
Ans: Ohh. Before she went overseas :( 快点回来啊... 好想你哦... :( 我有很多话要跟你说耶...

23) What kind of music band does No. 8 like?
Ans: Oh mann... I don't know eh... =X

24) Does No. 1 have any siblings?
Ans: Nope.

25) Will you woo No. 3?
Ans: YEA. xD HAHA. But what if the other 2 (yi guo) comes after me??? *teary eyes*

26) How about No. 7?
Ans: Nice friend! :D l0l fat fruit friend; FFF (is it?? xD)

27) Is No. 4 single?
Ans: NO! With dwb ~~ l0l no lar. Yep she's single.

28) What is the surname of No. 5?
Ans: Lim. Or does she want Jung (zheng<- hmpf. mine lor. l0l jkjk)??

29) What are the hobbies of No. 10?
Ans: Listening to music, etc etc. Hahah.

30) Do No. 5 and No. 9 get along well?
Ans: YESH!!! Totally. xD 2 childish kids. Hahahahaha. Me too lah. xD

31) Where is No. 2 studying at?
Ans: Dunman High School

32) Say something about No. 1.
Ans: Nice friend :)

33) Have you tried developing feelings for No. 8?
Ans: Oh. We've the feelings of good friends. If that's what you mean.... =/

34) Where does No. 9 live?
Ans: Some condo. Hahaha

35) What colour does No. 4 like?
Ans: Purple. Hahahah

36) Are No. 1 and No. 5 best friends?
Ans: Best friends?? Ask them? l0l. But they're very very good friends :D Hahah.

37) Does No. 1 have any pets?
Ans: Oh erm. no. hahah

38) Is No. 7 the sexiest person in the world?
Ans: Yep!!! xD heh heh heh

39) What is No. 10 doing now?
Ans: She's offline so most probably she's sleeping?

okay finally. Done. Don't like quizes. Zzz. But i don't know what to do. Haha.
Okay lah.
done. gotta go.

TATA/

Speechless

2008-10-23T15:14:00.002+08:00

Went out shopping with sittting yesterday. l0l. I bought some stuff. haish. Life's hard and sad without money. I want to find a job. But apparently it's quite impossible for a 15-year-old to find any jobs other than those in MacDonald's and KFC, etc. =______=

argh. Ideas are running out. I hate post-exam. I hate exam. I hate school. Basically, I hate everything.
>.<
<命中注定我爱你>真的很好看。
Must go watch... Will cry de... Especially this song.

WATCH THIS! :D
[and err, if you don't like blood, don't watchthis video. Cuz the girl miscarriaged. =X It's sad la... yeps. ]

yea it's sad.
don't know what to say right now.
Confused.

tata/

back

2008-10-20T17:43:00.000+08:00

OKAY PEEPS I'M BACK.
The crazy me. hah.

Didn't exactly play crazily during the short holidays I had last week. But, well, okay. It was crazy enough... :D

But before I start anything,

15th oct 2008

HAPPY BIRTHDAY QIAO!!!!~~ :D
Why you post your own birthday so small on your blog hmm?? o.0
anyways, you're 100 this year, so it's very significant :D
hahaha no lar.
happy 11th birthday ^^

You have been my special maid for the past 11 years of your life, so keep it up! :)
hahahaha~ Putting it in other words, yes yes yes you're very helpful and I'm the lazy one._.
Anyway, good luck for your violin exam at the end of the year!
And yes yes I'll give you your christmas prezzie (for 2007._.) sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooon :D

hahaha. count the number of 'o's. that's how soon :D
L0L okay lar.

JIAYOU AND I LOVE YOU~~

15th oct - 17th oct 2008 [marking days]

Class chalet was damn FUN:D
There were a few classes together at the same place as us. In the same period of time._.

Okay so gjx and cy didnt go. -_- we could have had a great time ya'know?
zzz. Anyways, I'd definitely miss class chalet. This class is a lot fun actually. But you needa get to know the people (:

All the movie screenings; people screaming next door in the middle of the night; waiting till 2am in the morning just to bathe(long queue...-_-); wild wild wet where we played in the rain AND water, and alot more. It's seriously fun. heh heh.

I think i'm gonna miss this class...(:

18th oct 2008

okay. And the 'birthday celebration' on Saturday. Such a pity jiahui didn't go... ): *sobs sobs sniff sniff*
We had a great LOADS of fun time...

...stoning

haha no lar. Played poker cards, had different kinds of "punishments", etc. There were like 4 pizzas, 1 big cake, 1 whole chicken(gjx's idea-_-), and 6 (or was it 7 hmm?) bottles of drinks. hahaha. I nearly burst. and for the first time, guo jin xin actually felt BLOATED. whoa. That's one thing to note. hahahahaha.
(P.S. We're in the comp lab now and she is REALLY, VERY, EXTREMELY, N.O.I.S.Y... -_- yar. haish. Gorilla will always be a gorilla yea? (: )

It was damn fun. Went home at like 10++ and reached home at 11+.

19th oct 2008

Went to watch movie with dong dong chen. Btw,
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY DONGCHEN!!!~~ :D
hahahaha. Now you can watch M18 movies with the lonely chenye. L0L0L!!! Or maybe chenye want dengXX to watch with her~ L0L okay i'm joking don't smack me. >.< 20th oct 2008 [today]
yea today's results day. Somebody kill me. I'm screwed. Everything screwed. Yitian is damn freaking imba. Tsk. Haish.
more papers to come tomorrow.
Good luck to myself!!

tata/

.

2008-10-20T17:05:00.000+08:00

Yea. Dot. Everything's so screwed.
Don't wanna hear anything, don't wanna know anything, don't wanna see anything.
NOTHING.

Why can't I just be the me a few years ago.

Ha. Wow. Time sure changes a person. drastically.

Really? 'Cause I've been behaving crazily lately.

Yes I know you don't understand.

Go ahead and click the red 'x' at the top right hand corner of this screen.

'Cause you know what?
I'm-so-screwed.
I screwed it!
Everything, everyone.
No matter what, I just screwed it okay?
Fine.
I'm so sorry.
But does it help?
No it doesn't.

and,...

Yes I'm going crazy indeed.
Lost everything. Everything I had.
Ones I loved, ones who loved me.
Trust.
Honesty.
Belief.
Love.
Everything.
Bang.
Gone.

OKAY SORRY. I know i'm mad but i just can't help it.
Anyways, exam results are like bombs to me. yea. *rubs head with a painful expression*
and by the end of tomorrow, I will have a lot more bomb injuries. Yea. Heavier and more serious ones.
Haish. Yea it's all my fault cuz I didn't study well and were slacking etc etc and I know I can't blame anyone but still...

...BOO YOU
G.G

Man exam sucks. Why do we have exams? JUST WHY?? I don't know what I'm talking about.
Okays. I'm crazy.

this holiday... is going to be F.U.N

gone

2008-10-20T16:32:00.000+08:00

BANG BANG.

GONE.

To the extreme.
yea.

dead.
bye.

2 BLOGS

2008-09-06T13:45:00.000+08:00

It's really kind of stupid maintaining 2 blogs here and there. Billingual mah~ =D
haha.
But soon have to go on hiatus le... EOYS COUNTDOWN IS IN 3 WEEKS' TIME ONLY! like Z-O-M-G. Ya. I'm freaking out like a I-don't-know-what. T.T
urgh.

Went Jurong Bird Park last week. hahaha. Saw alot of chenye~~ LOL.
Okay. So many things undone. So many things to do. So many things to catch up with. So many... WHY? Just why are there so many things coming up one after another like there's no end to it? Plus, I haven't got the chance to finish off those given to me at first.

Okay nevermind. I'm crapping. Pissed now. Why got so many things larh. what the hell... SO MANY TESTS AND EFFING DUMB USELESS PROJECTS. Total waste of time and effort. Might as well use that time to study. urgh. I'm doing last minute chionging again. so much to catch up on Math, Chem, Physics. the others no need lar. Just read can le. History is reading. LA and chinese no way to study for them...

Saw the past-year papers ytd. Total killers for maths. ><>=(
urgh.

BIRTHDAYS

2008-09-01T20:24:00.002+08:00

WAH WAH WAHHHH. SO LONG NEVER UPDATE LE. hahaha. okay.

Anyway, I owe 4 peeps happy birthday~~ ^^

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FIRST UP: Chen Ye (陳鳥~)

DATE: 11/08/08

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY!!!~~

{知道你害羞，而且會殺了我，所以我放你自己擋住臉的照片~}

既然你懶得看英文，那我就打華文吧~ 不過是繁體字~ 應該看得懂吧.... 哈哈哈。首先呢，要先道個歉。我真的不知道這天是你的生日呀... 而且還是假日，所以沒能來得及祝你生日快樂。我能體驗你的心情啦... 滿18嵗耶!! 這麽特別的一天，可是卻沒人祝賀你。所以在這裡才把你放第一位啊~ 呵呵呵.... 希望你不介意啦~~

雖然你18嵗，可是卻根本看不出來... (是在誇你啦~...) 不過說真的，你很友善，很好玩 (表誤會，是fun to be with的意思...)，也很樂於助人哦!! 跟你在一起縂覺得很開心。呵呵。你是個愛笑的人。每次看到你的時候，臉上都挂着燦爛的笑容。呵呵呵呵~ 不要因爲挫折而跌倒，而不開心哦!! 因爲背後有你的家人和我們這群好朋友支持着你!~ 雖然我們畢業后很可能會走不同的路，希望你不會忘了我... 哈哈哈^^

18咯!! 很有滿足感吧~ 呵呵。要好好珍惜你身邊愛你以及你愛的人哦~

還有，每天這樣跟你鬧著玩兒，好好玩~ 呵呵~ 市最近才開始叫你"陳鳥"的吧。哈哈哈。很可愛的名字呀~~

還有阿!! 俺得澄清一件事兒!! 你那天問我遊樂園好不好玩對不對?? 我本來是想說，"遊樂園很好玩"的!! 誰知到後來卻把它們結合在一起，說出了"好圓"兩個字兒。唉唉唉.... 現在好後悔啊...!!! 哈哈哈。沒有啦。開玩笑。你開我玩笑，我開你玩笑還挺好玩的... :P hehe~

最後，Wish you the best for everything you do and jiayou too!!

Happy Birthday 陳鳥~ I LOVE YOU!! hehe~

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NEXT UP: Siting (螺絲釘)

DATE: 28/08/08

HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN!!!~~

(even though it's 偷拍 one, but very nice lah. xP )

hehe. whoaa. so nice lor. sixteen liao worr~ can watch nc16 movies with your 老公 lah~ hahax. Anyway, even though that time (lately that time), you *ahem* me because I *ahem*, but we must still be good/best friends forever kayyy. And don't always push your 老公 to me nahh...

And cannot forget me ahh!!

雖然呢，以後會分開的可能性非常大，可是真正的好朋友是活在心理的^^ 記得去年我們確實有了不少的回憶。哈哈哈。雖然有些不是很好啊....~ (like you pangseh me for 1hour ahem) LOL. Joking larrrh.

You're always mingling around us (lame kids), so you're getting lame too. haha! or maybe you were born with it hmmm? I know you're stressed up. But trust me, you're doing well!! Like, better than me nah. lol. Yup! So don't be so stressed k? Must enjoy life also!!

Ohh. Treasure the times you have with your loved ones around you (: and friends!! Actually you have a lot of good friends de.... :D

Lastly!!! I would like to wish you a happy, HAPPY sweet sixteen. May all your dreams come true! Jiayou and good luck for whatever you do!! (:

Stay happy and pretty as always!!!! :DD

Happy birthday mummy~ I LOVE YOU!! hehe~

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THIRDLY: Yitian (meimei)

DATE: 31/08/08

HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY!!~~

(: You're always so cute and of course, so "開放". haha. Even though we're not THAT close. But still good friends yea?? (: hehe. And also, treasure those around you!!! :DD hahax. Wishing you all the best for whatever you do and must remember me and all of us okayyy!! ^^ Stay cute, pretty and bubbly as ever!!~~

Happy birthday yitian meimei~ I LOVE YOU!! hehe~

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LASTLY: Jiahui (rubbish twin :D )

DATE: (today) 01/09/08
HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY!!!~~

whoaaaa. You totally should be a teacher lahh~ So fated. HAHA!! =D Anyway, it's been damn cool knowing you! Like, we are both tall, both in CS, both in BSP, both in same class, and blahh...~~ haha. Remember?? You are my RUBBISH TWIN. LOL!! So lame but so cute. hehe. We sure had loads of fun together~ even though sometimes we take turns to moodswing and emoooo T.T hahaha.

Anyway, must be confident of yourself lahhh! You're quite perfect actually lor~ So don't always complain about yourself okayyy~ All of us love you (:

And lastly, jiayou for whatever you're doing and hope we can be good/best friends forever (: Don't forget me kayyyy!! Must go korea someday together. YAY! hahahax.

Happy Birthday Twin~ I LOVE YOU!! hehe~

P.S.: Hero Kim Jae Joong ♥ YOU!! :P

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Okay. Lately so many people birthday. Haizzz. LOL. Haven't buy for them yet...

Anyways, today had maths remedial. Supposed to have CHEM remedial from 9am-12pm; then followed by MATHS remedial from 1pm-6pm. But chem was cancelled. So maths started at 9am and ended at around 1+pm. haha. Then me, jinxin and jiahui went to ghim moh to eat. THen we crapped all the way. Last half an hour before we left school, we were doing CRAZY (and i mean it-_-) stuff like climbing through windows and doing/acting crazy and lame and dunno-what stuff. haha! yea. but had a DAMN FUN day. =DD

whoa zzz. Damn tired... Want to sleep... T.T

Gotta run!! and this post is going through edits another day!!! :P

tata//

PAPA's BDAE

2008-08-23T22:16:00.000+08:00

This is gonna be a darn short post cuz I have to get off comp now-___-

Anw!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO PAPA! :D

hehe~
This post is going to go through edits some other day. soon! :D

tata/

20/08/2008

2008-08-20T15:29:00.000+08:00

Yay! I must put today's date big big here :D

20/08/2008

Haha. So cool right?? :P The gorilla is sitting beside me right now. Apparently not doing her PORTFOLIO -_- aha LOL. and she is so 变态. TSK TSK. She went to ak's class today and she saw this *ahem* girl. (emphasize on the G-I-R-L, girl. yes yes.) So until now(err. 1 hour?), she has been CORAZY over her-.- and that is when the blizzard comes along and attack me... *shivers*

Anyway. Ak is now officially *ahem* hers :D ahahahahahahaha. Oooh. :P tsk tskk. How many mothers do I have lah????? 0_0 这两个花心大萝卜... tsk tsk tskkk. aha :D

PHYSICS TEST ON FRIDAY. zomg I'm so gonna flunk it. Urgh. Must buck up... Yar. Haiz... Disgusting lar. Still got so many to do. Why physics test must inclue the disgusting HEAT TRANSFER?? ): urgh. Then got extra to study/revise. T.T Fine. All my own fault. I know lah... :/

Okay. So nothing much happened lately. Uhh. Yeah...

So many people got tired lately. Be it physically, or mentally; I believe everyone feels so bah... Me too... Like duh. Everything seems to be coming endlessly. Homework Tests; Quizes; And just simply more work. Yar I know I got a part in it too. Like, unbalanced lifestyle?? Yeah. So mostly it's my own fault...

I've absolutely no idea what to do now besides mug, mug, and mug more. What else?? Yea I know that, we must work hard and 天下沒有免費的午餐. But what do you expect me to do if I really don't understand all the damn things?

urgh... Not emo now. Damn tired. so don't 誤解... ><

最近又多了好多事情。雖然如果要我真的列出來的話，只會有幾項事情。可爲什麽這幾項事情會把我搞得心亂亂的?? >< 想逃避，卻不知道要往哪兒逃。口頭上雖是說說，可是心裏卻總是有股衝動。真的不知道，要做個實際的人好，還是做個喜歡幻想的人好。沒錯，發呆和幻想是我最喜歡干的事，所以要我實際一點還真得挺難的。難，在於我沒有勇氣去面對我不想面對的。所以往往那些都是事實。厭倦了。可是又能怎麽樣? 一直喊累也不是個辦法。沒做完的事還是會堆積如山，兩眼睜大大的瞪着我。唉。這不是辦法，那也不是辦法。我真的不知道要怎麽辦才好了。
好煩啊!
煩死了。
真想有一天，無憂無慮，什麽都不去想地，開開心心地度過。人生就活一次嘛。何必讓自己那麽痛苦呢。我也想開了... ~
加油吧! 如果快快樂樂的生活，那明天將會是一個更美好的一天~ ^^

覺得這段話很美（哈哈):

曾經有一份真誠的愛擺在我的面前，但是我沒有珍惜，等到失去的時候才後悔莫及，世間最痛苦的事情莫過於此。如果可以給我一個機會再來一次的話，我會對這個女孩說我愛她，如果非要在這份愛加上一個期限，我希望是一萬年。

- << 西遊記大結局之仙屢奇緣 >>

呵呵。好了。就到此結束吧。討厭的數學還沒做呢。唉唉唉唉...................................................... *drops dead*

okay. *picks myself up*
nevermind. I'm being lame. Ignore me.

"超過三十嵗的女人能戀愛的可能性，比走在街上被炸彈擊中的幾率還小。"
hahahahaha.

tata/

GORILLA :D

2008-08-17T19:50:00.000+08:00

NOTE: Take it that the date for this post is 15th August okayyy (:

so....

HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY (guo) JINXIN :D

Yay. Happy birthday to my dear dear jinxin :D You're finally 15! hahas. We've known each other from since Year 1 (?). That time we stick to Dongchen, remember?? Hehe. Ya da ya da. I know I've got offended/dao-ed you before. But hey, now I don't right??? ^^ hehe. You've always been such a great friend (: Thanks for being there for me when I'm down. Haha. That time we'all emo together outside container classrooms, remember?? Hahaha. That was soooo duper uper lame. :P But it was kinda fun ;) You're always the 開心果. lol. It was a great pleasure being your friend yea?~

You will always be the *breathes in deep*:

2bb-sexy-golden-gorilla-guo-jin-xin that we all know (:
and the 郭哥哥 that I know. wahahahaha~
大東 will always love you! hehe. And so will we.
Me too ahh~~ ^^

Jiayou in everything you do! Jiayou in all that you are doing and wish you all the best!! (: (I know it's a bit too early and 掃興 to say this, but...) Even if we separate and go our own ways in future, you must always remember me okayyy?? Cuz I will always remember you ^^

I love you guo jinxin~~♥♥♥

DEDICATED POST TO JINXIN~

(see me so nice lo. hehehehe. jkjk~)
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wahaha. I 公開表白. lol. lame=.= okay anw.
Jie flew off to Canada on Saturday morning. Her flight was 9am. ): Haiz. I'm SO-GONNA miss her... Haiz. Her flight is going to be like, 18 hours long. o.O It's like :O haha. Wish that you have a bright future ahead (: Yeah I know you can do it. Haha.

Bahz. I'm now inspired. I want to go overseas too! Well, I'll have to start 努力-ing now... (:

Singapore VS China.
Table Tennis. Haha. Support both. Anyway, both are native to China-.- So it's like, China VS China. It's abit dumb. lolll. China will win anyway. Haha. I love gymnastics! Damn nice. hehe.

Okay. my crap shall stop here then. hahah.

Jiayou China! Jiayou Singapore! Jiayou Olympics! Jiayou to myself!

因爲有你，所以我有了動力。我愛你(:

SICK ):

2008-08-11T17:55:00.000+08:00

I have no idea WHY. But I woke up this morning and I've got high fever... ): *sobs* 37.8°C... T.T Den after tt it remained at that temperature, even though I ate medicine, until like what, 1 plus? Den I fell asleep until like.. 2.30?? Den my temperature totally flipped over. 38.7°C (!!) like zomg. My head was like, hurting like mad, crazy, 0_0 *sobs*

okay. now my temperature is still like what, 37.3?? Okay lah. At least better le... ): Dun feel like going to sku tml le larrrh. zzzz. Okay nvm. I shall go sleep somemore. Head is bursting. haha.

tata!/

(:

北京奥运会2008!

2008-08-08T20:54:00.001+08:00

2008 年 08 月 08 号

中国北京奥运会♥

正式开幕啦~~
开幕仪式超~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~壮观的!! :D

虽然不是在中国长大的，被别人歧视为不是中国人，自己心中对中国也没有归属感，可是现在，我却相信我自己完全的被改变了。奥运会的开幕仪式太壮观了。看了有好多的感触啊。看了奥运会的开幕仪式，心中也燃起了雄雄的壮火。这么开心的一刻，我却突然好像哭。不是眼里进了沙，而是因为太感人了。感动的泪水啊!!~ 哈哈。

好喜欢这种感觉哦...

我爱上了奥运会。
我爱上了北京。
我爱上了中国的人民。
我爱上了中国。

第一次有这种感觉。
第一次对中国有归属感。
第一次那么那么得想回去。
第一次，把爱献给中国。

北京加油！奥运加油！中国加油！耶！！~

现在时间：8点58分
^^ 呵~

七夕快乐!

2008-08-07T22:05:00.007+08:00

七夕快乐!<3>
今天是中国的情人节。农历七月七日。要不是朋友告诉我，我还真不知道七夕是什么。哈哈哈。可我知道，七月七日，是牛郎织女相遇的日子哦。好可怜啊。悲惨的爱情故事。一年才能见你的爱人一次。唉... 可惜昨晚下大雨，不然我就想看星星，找找这对情人 =)

身边有很多爱你以及你爱的人。要懂得好好去珍惜他们；不要等失去了过后才来后悔。到那时候，就来不及啦! 说一句"我爱你"其实并不难。只要你有那个心，并不难。真的! 看看你周围的人。有那么多那么多都是爱你的，也有那么多那么多是你爱的。

So, spread the love around! It's never too late for a 'I Love You', ya'know? (:

家人，朋友们，我爱你们!!! (: 永远永远的爱着你们。就算有一天我们疏远了、我们分开了、我们各走各的了，我还会爱你们的。再一次，祝你们七夕快乐啊!!~

"除非你先放开我的手，不然我是不会放开你的手的... (: "

再一次，祝你们七夕快乐!

♥♥♥♥

QUIZ2

2008-08-04T20:49:00.002+08:00

WAHAHA. Im backkk. Haha. Saw this very interesting quiz on Yitian's blog so I came to do it. Not quiz lah. Some weird thingy. LOL :P

You have to score 30 points and below to be an angel (:

Those in purple are true :P

1. Smoked before
2. Drunk alcohol before
3. Slept with someone of the opposite sex
4. Slept with someone of the same sex
5. Gotten into any fights with my brother (I have a brother? o.O)
6. Kissed someone of the opposite sex (Not really kiss lah. Cuz lips nvr touch. So not counted :P)
7. Kissed someone of the same sex (Lips nvr touch counted??)
8. Had someone in your room of the opposite sex (My dad :DD hahahas)
9. Scolded vulgarities lots of times (I'm sorry :S *teary-eyes* )
10. Bought porn (0_0)
11. Take drugs before medicine
12. Hate going to the doctor's
13. Lied to your parents (Who didn't? :X But nah, it's nothing big.)
14. Lied to a friend back then (Yeah. But I forgot to who about what... :X)
15. Snuck out of the house
16. Done something illegal
17. Cut yourself
18. Hurt someone (But it hurt me too. :( )
19. Wished someone to die (Yeah. I really hated that person. :/ )
20. Seen someone die (0_0 On tv, yeah.)
21. Missed curfew (har??)
22. Stayed up all night (Wahaha. New year nights and stuff :D )
23. Eaten a carton of ice cream (My wish yeah.)
24. Been to a therapist
25. Been to a rehab
26. Dyed your hair (I'm very poor ya'know)
27. Received a ticket (Ooh. Ooh. Who's gonna be the kind soul to be the first one?? :DD )
28. Been in a wreck
29. Been to a club
30. Been to a bar for the sake of playing pool and drinking some stuff.
31. Been to a wild party
32. Seen the Mardi Gras
33. Had a fight (Not literally. Arguing very badly? Yeahh. )
34. Had a spring break
35. Sniffed anything (HAHA! MANY things :P)
36. Wore black nail polish (Nope :( )
37. Wore wristbands (Yeah duhhh. :P )
38. Wore black eyeliner (Chingay!! :DD )
40. Own a 50 cent CD (I want also. Hahaha.)
41. Hugged someone of the opposite sex
42. Hugged someone of the same sex (DUH! LOLOLLL :P)
43. Gone out with someone of the same sex (Ya duhhh. I have a life sometimes okayyy. :P)
44. Gone out with someone of the opposite sex (Yup. Hahah.)
45. Stole something (I turned over a new leaf okay!! LOL no lar. just sth stupid cuz the person scolded me really bad stuff.. :X )
46. Been too drunk to remember anything
47. Blacked out
48. Fainted
49. Had a crush on your neighbour (Uhh. I don't know my neighbours. Well unless you mean the kind old man who lives beside me. :/ )
50. Had someone else snuck into your room
51. Snuck into someone else's room
52. Had a crush on someone of the same sex
53. Had gone and watched movies with friends (I told you I have a life sometimes!! :D )
54. Dry humped someone
55. Been called a slut (Cuz that person was lame and was crazy=.=)
56. Called someone a slut (Cuz that person call me so I call back lo. zzz. lolll.)
57. Installed speakers in your car
58. Broke a mirror
59. Showered at someone of the opposite sex's house (0_0)
60. Brushed your teeth with someone else's brush (uhhh. eeck. :P)
61. Consider Mac, Dre, e40 or Mistah Fab your favorite rapper
62. Seen an R rated movie in theaters (0.0 underage lorrrr. loll)
63. Gone out with friends to the mall (duh!!)
64. Skipped school
65. Had an eating disorder
66. Had hurt yourself before (.......)
67. Gone to court
68. Walked out of a restaurant without paying (I wish. hehehe)
69. Caught something on fire
70. Lied about your age in order to create an account (Wahaha. :P)
71. Owned an apartment
72. Cheated on your boyfriend/girlfriend
73. Cheated with someone
74. Got in trouble with the police (I "失踪"/"离家出走" for 1 whole day. Hahaha...)
75. Talked to a stranger (LOL.)
76. Hugged a stranger
77. Kissed a stranger
78. Rode in the car with a stranger (yeah.)
79. Been sexually harassed
80. Been verbally harassed
81. Met face to face with someone you met online
82. Stayed online for 12 hours (yayyy. haha.)
83. Talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
84. Watched TV for 12 hours straight
85. Been to a fair (duh!! LOL)
86. Been called a bad influence
87. Cursed
88. Prank called someone
89. Laid in the bed with someone of the opposite sex (..............................................................)
90. Cheated on a test (ahem! *innocent look* ACC counted?? LOL :X )
91. Cheated on homework (hehe. okay lah. I 改过自新. :X )
92. Held hands with someone of the opposite sex
93. Want to be dead (I was really emo... :( )
94. Cut yourself before
95. Hate yourself (Yeah I really do... )
96. Had a crush on someone 10 years older than you
97. *NOT VALID* (????)
98. Worn eyeliner (Chingay!! (: )
99. Skinny dipped
100. Laughed at someone who was seriously hurt (I would N.E.V.E.R do that...... :X )

TOTAL SCORE: 34 Looks like I'm not really suited to be an angel huh. LOLOLL. :P

So tired...
:/

他们说过，人要天天快乐，才能永远快乐。发自内心，真正的快乐，我却从来都没体验过。有啦。小时候。什么都不懂的时候。还有跟朋友在一起时。可是，现在却觉得好累。一切的一切。厌倦。疲惫。不知道为什么，心里却好郁闷，好想哭。可我却把眼泪给忍住。也不知为什么，听着伤心的歌曲，虽然更郁闷，更想哭，却没有眼泪。感觉上，好像计时炸弹，随时都会引爆。幼稚? 白痴? 无聊? 找一个时间，谁想要跟我一起去海边，大哭一场? 哭过了，也许就会更好过了吧。觉得很傻。可是却有这个冲动。好想，像以前那样，打从心里地快乐。心里压抑了好久的情感，好像爆发出来。可是却没那个力气。
累了。
真的累了。
这次，是真的了。

QUIZ/

2008-08-04T16:03:00.000+08:00

LALALA. Im back. wahaha. Wif Dear Liyi's quiz here.

A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by them.

B) Tag eight people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.

1. What are your reasons for having a LJ?
0_0 LOL. Dunno :/

2. What do you do before bed time?
Brush teeth. Crap to myself. wahaha :X

3. What would your dream wedding be like?
Simple and sweet. yays xD

4. What is the city of your dreams and why?
Somewhere 'ulu' and near the sea. Because I love being near the sea. (: Well including the fact that I won't drown. Hahaa.

5. Are you an introvert or an extrovert?
LOL. Depends on whether you're close to me. If you're really close, I can be more crazy than anyone, which is extrovert. Hahaha. But if you're not, I can be so quiet that you can forget my presence. :P

6. Which is more blessed; being loved or to love someone?
Both :D But being loved is better, most of the times.

7. Do you trust easily?
Sadly. Yeah. Is that called stupid? o.o

8. Is there anything that has been making you unhappy recently?
Yeah. Like alot? lols. And I realised alot of stuff through it (:

9. What person, dead or alive, is your role model?
Both. Anyway, dead = once alive. Hahas ;D

10. When's the last time you had fun?
No idea. Definition of fun, someone? :/
Hahas. Maybe it's the time when I went ECP cycling with jh, st and jx bah ;)

11. Is being tagged fun?
Hahaha. Yeah. kinda. I'm bored anyway (:

12. How do you see yourself?
No idea. :/ Important but not really because it's usually different from what others see of/from you. ;) Anyway, Just be yourself, it's the best lah. :D

13. Who are currently, the most important people to you?
Family. Best friends. Good friends. Friends. Wahaha :D

14. What kind of person, do you think the person who tagged you is?
Cute. Bubbly. Kind. Nice. ;D

15. Would you rather be rich but single? or poor but married?
Can I be rich and married? :D hahaha. No idea actually ;)

16. How many children would you want to have, if any?
2 :D hahah. Or maybe 3? Dunno. :P

17. What's better? To give or to receive?
Both :D But usually you'll feel a sense of happiness when you give ;) Cool to receive too! hehe..

18. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
0.0 whow. Hmm... I won't fall in love with both. There's only space for one :D wahaha.

19. What would you do if you (or your girlfriend) became pregnant unexpectedly?
I won't have pre-marital sex luh... -_-
LOL

20. What are you waiting for right now?
My friend to end her class so we can go home? ;P

Tagged:
Yanci, Yitian, Jinxin, Siting.

Bah. done :D Tis friday is the damn bloody (0_0) CROSS COUNTRY THINGY. ARGH. Dun wan run lahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh T.T *sob* okay. This week still got tests. Just realised.. :O YAY. Miao's done. Gotta run.

tata/~

boo

2008-07-27T16:42:00.001+08:00

I'm bored at home. Maths maths maths. All I did for the whole day was -----
MATHS -_-

haizz...

記得那時候的我們，好像很要好的朋友一樣。可是你卻突然離我而去。沒什麽特別的原因。可能，從一開始只是我一廂情願地把你當作我的好朋友。最近有了好多的感觸。原來，我們沒有我想象中的那麽要好；原來，從以前到現在，我們之間永遠都格着一道墻。這是事實。即使過了一年，兩年，十年，一百年它也不會改變。那道強還是會在我們之間，直挺挺的立着。而我們，也永遠都不可能會當成好朋友。

好朋友。這是很特別的三個字。誰要是能挂上"好朋友"的這個標簽都會感到很幸福的。試問誰不希望身邊有一群永遠都支持自己，共患難的知心好友?
就儅我是貪心好了。我想要你做我的好朋友。能夠成爲好朋友，就説明我們是有緣分的。所以我不想失去你。

我總是想盡方法來討好身邊的人。突然才發覺，好累。如果有一天我消失了，會有人發覺麽? 會有人心疼麽? 會有人在乎麽?
我希望你會...
心裏的空虛是不管用多少愛，費盡多少心血也無法填補回去的。留下的創傷，是不管用在多的淚水都沖不走的。因爲在乎你，所以我傷心。

我喜歡的你們不喜歡。我不喜歡的你們喜歡。我知道的你們不知道。我不知道的你們都知道。不是中國人有錯麽? 我對中國沒有感覺有錯麽?
我是在新加坡長大的有錯麽? 就儅我是沒童年好了，這又有錯麽?
不知道。也不想管了。如果畢業后我們還能保持好朋友的關係，那當然是再好不過的了。可是以現在的情況看來，可能性是低於零。

好多人都說我喜歡他。那一點看得出來?
自己的心事，自己一定看得最清楚。因爲是自己的感覺。看到他，沒感覺。看到他，不臉紅。看到他，心跳不會加快。這算是喜歡?
也許那是依賴。如果你們把依賴當成喜歡，當成愛的話，那我也沒什麽可以說的了。

我相信世界上有純真的友情。即使是男女之間也好。我相信世界上有永恒的友情。我相信知心的好朋友是一輩子的。很多人都說過，中學時的朋友是一輩子的朋友。可是爲什麽想要建立友好的關係，建立一個見面不吵架的友情那麽難?
也許是我太計較。也許是我太小氣。

我只想要好好地珍惜你們，尤其是你。我害怕失去這段友情。我害怕失去你們。我害怕失去所有的一切。我害怕你們任何一個人會受到傷害。這是懦弱麽?
我害怕的事總會發生。世界上沒有公平的事。可是太邪門了吧。儅我以爲我得到了某樣東西時，我就會失去它。經歷過一次友情的奮鬥，最後還是失去了。爲什麽你們要的東西，就可以那麽輕易的伸出手去拿。可是我期盼的，不管我怎麽努力，卻永遠都得不到?
也許，這世界上真的沒有公平的存在吧。

這一次的事件，就讓它緩緩吧。其實，你們倆之間的事，外人是絕對沒有權利插手的，也不能插手。因爲對彼此的感情，只有當事人自己心裏最清楚。你喜歡的是誰，他喜歡的又是誰。連當事人自己的心裏也弄不清楚。所以大家還是緩一緩吧。讓彼此，讓我們都回到自己原本的生活，什麽都不要去想，什麽都不要去管。在一起的日子也沒剩多少了。所以趁這機會，讓一切都恢復到原本的狀態。給我一個機會，也給你自己一個機會，讓我們重新再來過。這一次，不准任何人受傷傷害，不准吵架，也不准讓任何人破壞我們之間的友情！至於以前至今我所做過的傷害到你，或者使你煩的動作，我先道歉。希望你知道，我不是故意的。如果你讀到這一段話，希望你可以做出回應。至少讓我知道，你心裏還是有我的。

所以，爲了這一輩子難得的友情，我們加油吧！~

就讓我鬱悶一次吧...

BAHHH

2008-07-25T23:41:00.001+08:00

Went Tiong Bahru today for teachers' day 排練. Abit disastrous at first but after that okay le :D hehe. Zzz... Kinda looking forward to it :P so PEOPLE, 盡情等待吧!!! :DDDD

Anyway, I screwed up my chem and physics. Nxt week is chem QA and maths. Im aiming for the top for maths!! DUN CARE LAR. MUZ MUG TILL MY BRAINS COME OUT.

T.T

YES, I AM THAT DESPERATE TO GET GOOD GRADES. URGH.

And, Im feeling really the dots so Im uploading chingay photos :D

CHINGAY 2008!!!!!!

Mingquan, Jocelyn and I-forgot-who. ZOMG so sorry! ><

Me and JH!!! With eye-liner and make-up and glitter and stuff :DD FIRST DAY OF CHINGAY. (It lasted 2 days rmbr? :P)

Pufferfish. Hamster 1. Stingray. Hamster 2.

Jiahui. Charmaine. Hwee Chian. Me.

Hahahaha. The stingray and hamster 2 is today on the train, we met hwee chian den we started giving each other these 2 names de. LOLOL.

GLITTER POOL!

LOL no lar. It's dunno hu spilled all over the road. So while waiting we (being curious and playful dunmanians), went to step and step and played with the glitter. Hehe :P

HC AND ME. MY PHONE VERSION.

HC AND ME! HER PHONE VERSION. nice right nice right nice right??? :P

Zzz. SHE CHIOBU LAAA. :DDD

Jiahui's hand. My camera. Singapore as background. YAY.

Haha. Damn nice right?? :P I love the background. Woots~

ShuJun. Me. Jolene (sry I dunno how to spell)

Both are CHIOBUs!!!!! :P

Me and JH!!!

At some road-side after first-day performance :P Haha. Mascara and eyeliner running le lo. *Ewww* :P LOLLL.

Me and JH!!! Zi-lian-ing. But the background damn nice lar :P Hehe :D

MISS SINGAPORE 2007!!!! ZOMG SHE IS DAMN-FREAKING-PRETTY LUH!!! :DDDD

Bahh. Even though I damn small but hey, I got to take photo with her okay. :P lollll!

Lalalalalalala~

Yea. That's all le. Hehe. CHINGAY was in like what, February? And yea, I missed it loads ><>.< color="#ff6666">I MISS CHINGAY!! <3

I wanna go back to Primary School. I wanna go back to childhood. I wanna start everything all over again. ><

如果我說我喜歡你，你會如何回答?

時間，過得好快。一轉眼，你已經不在我身邊了... 可是我卻還是時時刻刻的惦記着你。因爲，不管你的心裏有沒有我，我要你知道，我的心裏永遠有你。

TESTS

2008-07-23T15:46:00.000+08:00

PHYSICS TEST = SCREWED!!

zomg tts so... -.- urgh.. forget ti. shant tok abt it. Im juz gonna hafta study hard for the upcoming chemistry test on friday. We have like, another chem test (QA) next week when people alrdy finished theirs like last week or earlier 0.0

Zzz. Slacking in the library... Nothing to do. Sian. Shall go read chem...

WAD LIFE WE HAVE MAN. zzz...

OH YEA. THE TEACHERS' DAY THING REHEARSAL. IT'S TO BE CONFIRMED. I dun tink it's this friday... (i haf no idea why siting mummy post its on Friday. LOL) Cuz xiju ends at 6. 6!! 6!!!!!!!! So by the time we find a place and settle down and then rehearse, its gonna be like wad... 7?? 0.0 Yea. Anw, gonna discuss with them later, so, wait lor. lols.

jy jiayou :D wahahaha...~

-___-

tata//

FRIDAY

2008-07-19T00:21:00.001+08:00

Went Bugis with Yt, St, Jx, Ak. Jh was stressed, so she went home. Yes, Im stressed too. Everyone is. Whatever.

Had dinner and reached home at abt 10++. Damn tired. OH YA. BTW, WE GOT IN FOR THE TCHERS DAY TING :DDDDDD

Haha. But we sure muz rehearse alot more times. zzz. I hate sku lar cannnnnnnnnn. :( I duno so much stuff...

Haiz. Life is complicated and annoying. zzz. 好煩啊！...

Im sick of everything. The World. The People. and You.

I LOVE MY FRIENDS. But I wonder how many loved me back...

yt&me :D

(fyi: we were zilian-ing dere in the macs. hehehehe :P )

tata!..

2008-07-17T23:29:00.001+08:00

aiya... 随便了... 管它去死...

siting said 2012 年是世界末日。如果真的是這樣的話，那我有好多的願望啊...!
願望呢，就先不說了. 不可能實現的，還是藏在心裏會比較好。
Inspired by Siting and Yitian's posts, I wanna say wad I wan to say too...

GOOD/CLOSE/BEST FRIENDS: 雖然以後我們各自都會走不同的路，但是我想借此機會說，如果我平時有什麽得罪你們的，請多多原諒啊。如果我們真的分開了，真的失去了聯絡，真的再也見不到面了，那你們要知道，我是愛你們的。因爲在我求學的生涯中，你們在我的生活中增添了色彩。不要忘了我... 恩。

FAMILY: 雖然你們不會看到這段話，可是我還是想說。對於我的父母，很抱歉，這幾年讓你們操了這麽多的心。讓你們生氣，也不是我想要的啊。謝謝你們一直以來給與我的鼓勵與支持；謝謝你們的栽培；謝謝你們給我的愛。如果沒辦法報答你們，那我希望來生我能有這個機會...

還有，對於其他的所有人，我想說，不管你是愛我還是恨我，希望你能記住我。不在乎天長地久，只在乎曾經擁有。我曾經擁有過，那我就已經很滿足了。對於所有我愛和愛我的人，我要你們知道，我會永遠記得你的。
能夠相識，能夠作爲朋友，已經算是一種緣分了。要把握好現在的一切啊!... 不要等到失去了才來後悔。不要等到最後一分刻才對身邊的人說," 我愛你 "。

縂覺得，在一群朋友中的我，總是被冷落，最不被重視的一個。我覺得自己好失敗... 很抱歉。就算是我想太多，就算是我太銘感，就算是我白癡沒事找事干，我還是覺得自己很不重要。恩。最不被重視的，最不被關心的，應該是我吧。很多時候，不是默默地站在一旁rot, 不然就是硬硬地插進你們的談話中。so complicated. and I feel retarded. yea.
我想要的只是一個溫暖的擁抱。
我想要的只是一句安慰的話。
我想要的只是能跟我分享心事的朋友。

是我癡心妄想麽?... 我多麽希望不是阿... 就儅我貪心好了，一個笑容，簡訊中的一個笑臉，都能夠讓我開心一整天，你知道麽? 應該是不知道吧...

對不起。我心情很是不好。就這樣了。

...

u-r-g-h

2008-07-17T23:24:00.000+08:00

Sian. Im in a bad mood. Tis is so irritating... wl... I HATE ALL THESE LAR. WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF.

><

Cleared tchers day audition today. Was a disaster, but char and another sc hu was there to watch our audition said tt we might get in. lolz. Yea. So, anything la... I dun really care abt tt right now.

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真得快烦死了...

我疯了。谢谢谢谢。
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REVIVAL

2008-07-10T15:05:00.000+08:00

IM HERE TO REVIVE MY BLOG :D

zzz. Yea, thx arh, S1T1NG. Very nice of you to help me announce... zzz.

Anw, after 2 weeks of sku reopening, lessons are finally starting... First week was Electives, and second week was IDMI. Yea. IDMI was C.R.A.P. Total crap-.- zzz. Electives was okay. abit the diao-ded o.O

Stupid lar. Just start sku so much tests. WEEK 3 now.
WEEK 4(juz next week!!!):
Tuesday: HISTORY TEST!!!!!!!!!!!
Dunno-What-day: CHINESE TEST!!!!!!!!!

WEEK 5(juz 1 week away!!!):
Dunno-what-day: PHYSICS TEST!!!!!!!!!
Dunno-what-day: CHEMISTRY TEST!!!!!!!!!
Dunno-what-day: MATHS TEST!!!!!!!!!

ARGHH. THIS IS CO-RAZYYY. Are they trying to kill us?! T.T Arghhh... This is insanity. Tis coming Saturday me and jh going out early in the morning to do LA. Then after tt we're all meeting up for the (retarded) teachers' day rehearsal tingy. I SERIOUSLY D.U.N TINK that we'll be having any 进展 you noe.

Anw, tis is retarded. Gorilla juz left. Gotta chase after her. zzz.

TATA//

ZOMG ZHENGYUANCHANG IS @&%^&^@^*^@ !!!!!!!!!!! :D
<3

LAST DAY OF HOLS

2008-06-22T13:54:00.000+08:00

Today is the LAST DAY OF SCHOOL HOLIDAYS D:

Sian. Why sku hols past so fast?? Haiz... T.T I haven't even do finish the stupid maths. Zzzzzzzzz... I dun wan sku reopen leh... ): Haizzz...

Anyway, yesterday is a memorable day. I turned out to noe aLOT of stuff. lols :D

So much stuff left. Wahh. Sian. Why sku starts so fast lar. 4 weeks very short de u noe?? Plus got a lot projects too. >< _________="

okay. I shall go chiong maths. lalala... lol. Im looking forward to Elective :DD yay haha.

I wanna eat fruits :/
lol. random.

tata//

恩.

2008-06-17T22:27:00.002+08:00

現在心情很是不好, 所以來用華文打字. 突然覺得, 繁體字好漂亮~ 呵呵. 拜詩梅所賜. 哈哈哈.

決定隨便寫點什麽. 雖然我華文不怎麽好... :S 隨便啦. [ 給華文頂呱呱的人: SHOO! (:D) ]

人生的道路好長，好遙遠。一切會發生的事情都不在我們所能控制的範圍内。好複雜。帶着愉快的心情踏出門，卻不知道迎接自己的會是什麽。有時候一個人的時候，就會一邊聼着音樂，一邊想着一些事情... 有好多事情需要我去煩惱，有好多事情需要我去解決以及下定論。
所有的人，都有一個活在這世上的理由，都有一個自己可以努力奮鬥的目標。可我呢? 我沒有目標。長大后，跟著情況的突變，以及在那成長的過程中，我學了許多，領悟到了許多，也明白了許多。童年時候那些純真的夢想，都隨著時間的流逝而破滅。突然，發現自己失去了人生的目標。

.... Yeah that was crap... ><

tataaaaaa//

Beach + Film

2008-06-17T11:47:00.000+08:00

Saturday was so FUN :D hahas. Me, Jinxin, Jiahui and Siting went East Coast Park :D

Met Siting at Buona MRT station. I was late. But she was later=___= LOL. Went Orchard Road (Takashimaya) with her. Her laptop was spoilt so she went there to pass it to a relative of hers. hahas. Then we got lost in Takashimaya. Duno walked for how long in Takashimaya. Got lost. So we went to da-bao fast food. Macs dun haf student meal-.-, so da-baoed KFC.

Uh. Uhh. Uhhh. Then we went to Pasir Ris to meet Jinxin and Jiahui. It was like what, 3+? yea. So we decided not to go bowling, and just go straight to ECP. Dongchen and Ak are supposed to come. But Dongchen is celebrating Hongdou's bdae, and Ak is very sick and lying on the bed cannot move those kind (sound like 尸体, okay nvm). Uhhhh. So okay, we took bus 12.

We were singing and laughing and playing and contributing noise to the bus. haha. In the end we overshot by 3 stops or sth liddat. So we decided to walk. Met this Indian guy who was very nice and lead us to ECP. He was going ECP too! haha. (If depend on us, we will never reach ECP.. =__=). So, we rented bicycles at 10bucks for 2 hours. URGH. Actually got better offer can, but we dumb lar, nvr walk further down. haizz. By the time we rent liao, it was like what, 5.30? O.O Yea. Me and Jiahui rented the 1-person ride de bicycle, and jinxin and siting rented the 2-person ride de bicycle. LOL. Jinxin sits in front and Siting sits behind. They bumped into ppl and stuff. Hahaha. Then Siting tried to stear the front, and Jinxin sits at the back (they switched), but it was a total disaster LOL. The bicycle was pratically shaking from left to right and in the end they didnt even move 1m-.- LOLOLOL. I was behind them watching. hahahaha. So funny :P

Before that me and Jiahui were cycling. She was towards the left and I was somewhere in the middle, a bit behind her. Then there was these 3 annoying Malay girls. They were like cycling so slowly and blocking the path. Then there was space on the left, so Jiahui moved towards the left. But who noes that the "Leading girl" (the other two were right behind her) suddenly moved to the left too. So they nearly bumped. Jiahui had an emergency stop. I was behind. I tried avoiding by going right. But the other 2 had to cut into my way and one of them knocked me down. Darn annoying lar. No sorry, nothing at all, just scream like as if dey were the ones being hit, laughed, then rode away-.- like errr.. how lame. stupid lar. Then the dumb stupid chain on my bicycle had to drop out. We were trying to fix for like duno how long, den finally got it fixed. I was darn pissed off can-.- urgh. wthhhh. :( Then my hands got damn bloody black. Irritating twerps. If I see you again I'll strangle you luh-.-

So we cycled like duno how far. It's supposed to be a BIG LOOP. But we didnt manage to finish the loop cuz it was too long. So we u-turned after like 1h+. Then Me and Jinxin switched bicycles. I sat infront and Siting continued to sit behind (-___-). LOL. Their bicycle was so much nicer and easier to ride luh. zzz. The wind was damn nice lar. hehe. We passed by quite a few sceneries :D

After returning the bicycles at like 7.30, we went to walk by the beach to get to the place where we deposit-ed our bags. LOL. Me and Jinxin decided to take off our shoes and socks and walk by the beach. hahah. It was damn fun and cool :D hehe. So long never go beach le. Haiz....~

Then we sat down and talked about the first guy that we all liked. (Except for Jinxin-.-) She said she didnt haf any in primary school. Okay. So we talked and talked and talked, and the annoying seawater below had to splash and splash and splash-.- I was so annoyed okay. urgh. So we talked for a long time before we continued to walk. Me and Jinxin walked barefooted on the tracks. haha. By the time we got our bags and went Macs to eat, it was like, 8++ liao. after eating, it was 9++ liao-.-

We didnt noe how to walk to the bus stop, so we asked this Indian couple. They were veh nice also. They took us to the bus stop. They said they were going that way anyway. haha. Me and Siting took bus to Dhoby Ghaut MRT. Then we took mrt home. Jinxin and Jiahui were supposed to take another bus opp our bus stop to Bedok MRT. But at abt 10+, Jinxin sent a message saying that they waited at a taxi stand instead=.= How clever.

It was damn fun lar :D hehe.

Monday (yesterday). Met up with group members + kaiwen + ak + siting. Went to sku first for filming. It was damn hot okay. The stupid dumb weather. After like such a long time, den we finally finish filming. And after a few discussions, we decided that Siting will be the mother. (Ak father wor~~) HAHAHA. Okay la. Den went JE macs to eat. That time only left wif me, jiahui, siting, edric and ak. Yea. They coming my house. And after coming in, they immediately treated it as their own home. Very nice hor people. It is my house afterall and I was kind enough to contribute it for film can-.- So please BEHAVE LIKE GUESTS. wtfffffff. I was very pissed okay... And they were all sitting around, putting their feet anywhere. Eh, its not your home please. Can give at least some respect anot? =.=""""" And the guys made us cook instant noodles for them. -.-

At abt 7, my dad came home. And then he went out again so that we can finish our stuff. THEN LIKE WTF THEY WERE ALL LOAFING AROUND DOING NOTHING AND WATCHING TV AND NOBODY WAS MOVING. AND WHILE COMPLAINING THAT IT'S GETTING LATE, THEY CONTINUE SITTING THERE LIKE WHAT=.= Urgh. Okay. Nvm. I was darn pissed. >=(

Chased them out and slammed the door. Very nice arh, ask someone eat dinner with me, then like as if asking ur to kiss sumone-.- .............................. wadever lar.

Anyway, next time come my house, Im gonna set rules. dun here poke poke, there poke poke den in the end just moved ur ass and happily go home.... (All those above dun apply to all those hu came my house and it doesnt mean tt you didnt offend me.)

zzzzzzzzzz. Okay. In school library now. jinxin and siting were very noisy just now. LOLOL. Zzz. Sian. I hungry la... T.T And sku reopening nxt wk le. WHY SO FAST?? :( haizzz.

tata/

Abit of everything... (:

2008-06-13T21:36:00.001+08:00

103TH POST
13TH FRIDAY

:O

hahas. I wonder if it's a lucky day for you... It definitely is NOT a lucky day for me-_- as it seems, 13th Friday is really unlucky. Well at least for me... :S

Okay. I'm still feeling as terrible.

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sry. I needed to screammmmm. D: Life sux man. Why does life sux?? :( waaaa... I hate it lar. stupid. dumb. idiotic. annoying. irritating. URGH it pisses me off. >< size="1">突然有种想要逃避的感觉。要逃避现实，要逃避这个世界。为什么我不想面对的，却都摆在我面前，等着我去面对。我不要。我不想。我不管。突然才发现，自己真的好懦弱。看着镜子里面跟我长得一摸一样的人，突然觉得好陌生。在心里默问着，这真的是我么?

nvm. tbe/

bye. :/

Really?

2008-06-12T14:54:00.000+08:00

Yeah my blog's getting dead...

Was chionging LA film script yesterday from 4pm onwards, all the way straight to 9.30 pm... -__- well, except for 30 minutes of dinner break-.-

Had slight fever halfway while doing the script... 37.4°C... Dunno whether fever not. But anyway, was darn cold-___- I was so happy when I finally finished it. hahas :D And temperature incresed by 0.1°C after tt-____- lazy to eat medicine, so I went to bed. Layed there for duno how long and I couldn't sleep. Got up to do hw. Was quite efficient. hahas. Do until 3am den I got tired, and went to bed. Fell asleep at 3.30+am... ><

好累啊...

上次好朋友打电话给我，我们聊了一会儿。她跟我说，她在朋友的blog上看到了有关于好朋友的定义。在她读出来的当儿，我也在想了... 好朋友。她说，好朋友会在你伤心难过的时候安慰你，在你最需要他们的时候在你身旁；好朋友会同你一起分享你的喜悦；好朋友会...

过后，我想了好久。这样的好朋友，世界上真的有么? 就算有，我会遇到么? 想到这里，我就沉默了。

为什么我总是人群里最孤独的一个?
为什么我总是被遗忘的那一个?
为什么我的意见和想法，永远都不会有人去听，去当真?
为什么我伤心难过时，却总是找不到一个人来陪我讲话，听我诉苦?
为什么我高兴时，也没人愿意理我?

我...好想要一个好朋友。可以互相分享喜怒哀乐，可以互相分享秘密等。
随便啦，我不管我这么说会让别人说我幼稚。

本来以为，有一群挺我的好朋友。可是回头一看，才发现，原来我根本没朋友... (读到的人请不要生气。我只是在说3/4个人而已...). 这才发觉，原来我是那么的可悲...

所以我在想，如果我死了，谁会伤心啊?
可能都不会有人发现吧... ... ...

Okay. That was crap. But it's true. nvm. I depressed now. Not emo. -_-

如果我有一把枪，我第一个要杀的人，就是你(_ _ _)。。。

Theeee BIG BOSS

2008-06-08T14:49:00.000+08:00

101th POST.
lols. 101 Dalmatians. haha. Random. sry. lols.

Yesterday went out wif SHIMEI <3 style="color: rgb(51, 0, 51);">to Jurong East Library. hahas. Supposed to be studying, but we crapped and toked ALOT ALOT. LOL! omg omg omg omg. and I knew sth amazing, and so did she. lols hahahas. Then we went to eat food court because we both agreed that Fastfood is -___- ($%^&*@#&*). LOL.

Then I *sort of* forced her to take the longer line with me, cause I was going Bugis. Hehe. Laughed like crazy in the mrt until people got annoyed with us. LOL. But I forgot wad we were uh, laughing about... hahas. She got off at Raffles Place to take the red line back home. She said she's gonna take to Marina and then back so that she gets to sit. haha so cute :D lols.

Thanks darling :D <3

Then met Ak dere. And yeah, I didn't wear my specs, so I was kind of "blind", so didnt see him. lols okay. Then went to walk around. Were debating whether we should go visit Siting. Then he said he was hungry, so we went to eat. Macs. lol Im getting sick of fastfood. okay nvm. So apparently the very nice him lost my DVD cover. -_- He replaced it with uh, chips. LOL. okay. But it was squashed like a dunno-what. haha.

Then we saw this *I-forgot-who* at Bugis. I was lazy to take out my specs so yea, I didnt see who they were. LOL. But I think there were 9.33 DJs there. lol. So, after much debate and discussions and tossings of the 50-cent coin, I decided to go. So he went too. And I realised that Expo MRT station is very nice :D hahas.

So we walked and walked and walked trying to search for Exhibition Hall 5b. -_- And there was one such funny scene...

*Ak standing in front of the BIG '6' sign (indicating that it's exhibition hall 6), but back-facing it*
Ak: eh... *looking lost*
Me: 这里是 exhibition hall 6 leh...
Ak: ?! huh?? 你怎么知道这里是 exhibition hall 6??
Me: -_-" 你瞎啦?.
Ak: *looks around and finally sees the BIG '6'* OH! hahahahaha......

okay. Nvm. LOL. So after abt 20 mintues or so, we FINALLY found the right place and FINALLY, I spotted Siting and Jinxin. LOL. I went up and pretended to look around. lols. But apparently some disgusting old hag at the side knew that I was their friend and was staring at me wif her big gross fishball-like eyes. -_-" Okay.

Then they came over to me and ak and we were sort of talking a bit and stuff. Then this old man (supposingly to be a doctor o.O) called them over and started scolding them. *blah blah blah* Ak was waving to them very happily. Then the boss got unhappy again-.- So started scolding. And then Siting told me that just now they lost ONE (not one pair-.-) shoe pad or that wad-so-ever-thing they were selling. And the boss and everyone else are blaming it to them. Im like wad the?!

Then after dunno how long, they came over happily and announced that they got fired. lols. So we were playing around for a while and stuff. Until the big boss have to came over (again) and spoil everything. Then Siting and Jinxin ran into the supposingly-staff-area-but-it-looks-like-a-dumb-exit-to-me place. The boss followed in. Then after a few minutes he came rushing out, and he stares right at me and ak. Okay, I was scared, and pissed but I know better not to say anything. But ak started to talk back to him after he shouted at us," WHO ARE YOU PEOPLE?" (he sounded like as if we were gonna rob him or what-.-)

Then ak started a short, argumentive convo with him. Then he finally went away. So I was telling ak not to go agitate him. But he still went. He went to look around at the shop and walked round and round that pathetic little shop. And when ak first approached the shop, that old man started to trail behind him like some 冤魂. lols. I was like, staring from far and trying to call him to ask him to stop.

But only after he finish walking then he saw my call-.- So I was like, uh, a bit useless liao. Okay. So in the end he was telling me that he wants to go over and tell him off or sth liddat. So I was trying hard to ask him not to go, cuz apparently that old man knows that we all from dhs de, and sumore he will only blow the matter up and make matters worse, so I was like, forget it lar.

And finally after a LONG while, the other 2 finish changing and stuff, den we left that crazy place. *phew...* Then we all talked and talked and played arnd, until Siting and Jinxin really agitated me and I was really pissed off. Sian... Guess I was in a bad mood and everything just burst out... Zzz. But after that okay liao. haha.

Then we went Paya Lebar to eat Macs. AGAIN!! =.= Then we went home. Jinxin and Ak were sort of fighting and 斗嘴-ing in the trains and everywhere else. LOL. so 配 right?? HAHA. If they really got together, it's gonna be really interesting woots~ and Ak asked for her number wor~ LOLs.

zzzzzzzzzzzz.

*homework staring at me*
*me staring back at homework*

boo ):

100TH POST!!

2008-06-05T15:41:00.003+08:00

100TH POST!! :D

haha. Okay. Happy 100th post to my blog. Lalalala~ Even though siting's blog juz celebrated 150th post... -___- lol haha. Was smsing her for the whole day ytd(Thurdsday). hahas. Jiayous :D One more day left. lols.

Meeting ShiMei<3><>< style="FONT-WEIGHT: bold; COLOR: rgb(102,0,204)">TOOTY AND DISGUSTING AND DUNNO-WAT. Argh... People who gonna see me these few days, DON'T LAUGH OR ELSE... *evil grin*. lols. okay. Im crazy and mad. (and so is siting) lol.

OKAY. I've been emo-ing for the past few days... )= and So is ShiMei.. aww.. zzz...

前天晚上，终于鼓起勇气，把他所有的简讯都删了。说好要放手的，可是不知为什么，心却还在痛。也不知为什么，眼泪不停地流着。告诉自己，哭再多也没用，因为泪水冲不走心中的痛。好郁闷，却连个说话的人都没有。躺在床上，望着天花板，我想了好多事...

两年。整整两年。我喜欢你整整两年了。嘴上说要放手，可心里却好舍不得。这种事，又不是说放手就能放的。可是我知道，如果喜欢一个人，就应该祝他幸福不是么? 所以，我含着泪，按了'删除'键。希望，在简讯消失的同时，痛苦，以及对你所有的情感，都能够消失。

他们说，时间可以治疗伤口。
真的么?
但愿如此吧... ...

zzz. 100th post den so emo... )=

tata/

?!

2008-06-04T23:55:00.000+08:00

Met Monica and Jeremy for LA today. Wasn't really productive but, at least got plot la yea.

Char's back from Indonesia!! :D haha. Called me today. lols.

I waited for her for like, duno HOW LONG today. T.T Abit pissed... Den I dao her for the rest of the.. err.. night. lols. She treated me to KFC :D haha. Okay la. I called to apologise after tt. Sorry lar.. T.T Actually cuz i bad mood, so partially cuz i pissed wif her so i dao her, the others is bcuz my own prob.. ><

Cuz I'm emo-ing... And I'm damn pissed and stressed over some other stuffs... Haiz. Today just wasn't the right day for dinner... :S

... ... I feel darn miserable right now... Talked to ShiMei about it. It helped, thx darling :D But I still a bit emo... >< I wanna cry... T.T Duno who to turn to... I just wanna find someone whom I can cry all my problems to, and all my feelings. But duno hu will listen...

Okay. I'm crazy. Maybe cuz I had a terrible day.

tata/

BUSY

2008-06-03T22:42:00.000+08:00

Okay. I've been going out and out and out these few days. haha.

SUNDAY: 相声比赛 at Suntec

Okay. It was 相声比赛. It was at Suntec the Book Fair there. I was contacting a whole LOADS of ppl to find someone to go wif me -.- like wad the shit. okay. So I found Yitian :D :D She damn nice lar. Last minute aso go out wif me. hahas. Too bad siting can't go. She was supposed to go wif me. But got something on. Okay. So our school sent 2 teams: Aokun and ZhangChe, Boshi and ZengQi.

In the end both teams got 优胜奖. T.T Damn sad lar. Dey were quite good okay. lols. Okay. But anw, at least ur put in effort, and ur went to competition before :D Jiayou next yr bah. And dey were quite affected btw. zzz.

After that went walking arnd wif Yitian. heh. Before that, after we watched our school's performance, me and yitian walked all the way to suntec's another building de basement to eat macs. haha. We got lost a few times so we walked a lot more extra.. T.T

We walked and walked a lot. haha. Shopped arnd the book fair. Quite fun :D hehe.

MONDAY: VIVIAN!
Met Vivian in the afternoons. I was darn late cuz my mum was asking me a lot of stuff. okay nvm. So... It's been a darn long time since i last saw/met her, so I couldn't recognise her. But she still so cute!! She matured. T.T Now I'm the one left to be childish. zzz. hahaha. Took neos and walked arnd. She was looking for friends to eat dinner with her. In the end she couldn't find anyone so she went back hostel. Haiz. Was nice meeting her though!! :D

Den met up another friend for dinner. She pissed me off a few times and twice was because she pulled my earring. Darn pain lar. T.T So I made her send me home. She live in Kallang. My house at Bukit Gombak. Ahahahaha. Who ask her spoil my earring >:(
LOL :P

TUESDAY: STUDY!
My mum and my sis plus my jie's mum and her sis went zoo today. So i was alone at home, and so was she. I woke up at 10. Hehe. Den juz nice she call me. Arranged to go lunch together at jurong east and then I go over to her house to study. hehe. Ate Korean food for lunch. Darn nice but darn ex. T.T I think I'm spending a little too much... ><

So sorry that I asked you so many questions ><>< Oh man, I freaking myself out. ARGH.

Tomorrow going out for LA project at Bugis. Darn pissed with some people over some things.

........

Nevermind.. Anyway, Me and Jiahui discussed and decided to ask AK to be the main character. HAHA. I know that he is sleeping (cuz call a few times no one pik up). So I purposely call and call to wake him up :D how fun. haha. Even though he pissed but, anything la. lols. He agreed (!!). Partly cuz I force him. haha. Okay la. He's nice enough to agree anyway... lols

So I force him do sth else too. haha. Cuz he owe me a LOT stuff. hem...

Okay. It's like, 12:51AM now... I just finished chionging the LA film tingy. OMFG IT WAS DARN >< zzz. Okay It's darn hot here without aircon. I shall go sleep :D Nites!!~

tata/

BSP CAMP

2008-05-30T00:39:00.001+08:00

OMG BSP CAMP WAS DAMN FREAKINGG FUN! :D

GROUP 19 -- 逍遥 <3
Facilitator: Han Tian Yu (HCI)
Leader: Zhong Ci Lin [Cheryl] (NYGH)
Members:
1) Wang Shi Mei (DHS)
2) Wang Jun Yan [Janelle] (DHS)
3) Xie Jia Ming [Joshua] (DHS)
4) Wang Min Min (DHS)
5) Su Chang Jie (HCI)
6) Lin Jie (HCI)
7) Guo Xin (HCI)
8) Huang Jie (HCI)
9) Wu Wei Ze (HCI)
10) Liu Yang Xi (NYGH)
11) Ai Ting (NYGH)
12) Yang Lin Xi (NYGH)
13) Wang Fang Ping (RVHS)
14) Wang Hui Jun (RVHS)

Woots~ Damn fun. But had the stupid SMO in the morning so missed the icebreakers and stuff. BOO ): MinMin had fever and went home ): Even though i don't think u'll see tis, but, rest well (= Got HIGH wif ShiMei<3 Haha.

I miss BSP camp.
I miss Group 19.
I miss ShiMei and those talks with the secrets we had during the second night ( :D )
I miss the time when we all hold hands and run around the auditorium.
I miss the second night when Me, ShiMei, Miao, Yitian, Hangyin and Yingteng all crapped and stuff.

BOO): Why so fast finish?? -_- lolz. I lazy to transfer photos. LOL haha. Had mass convos a few times ytd. kinda fun :D lol.

And during second night I found out that ShiMei's actually in the same position as me. We're on the same boat :D HAHA. Shared a lot of secrets. Me and Her shared my bed. Yitian and Hangyin shared one. Miao and Yingteng shared one :D ShiMei's first time gave me. Muahahahaha. As in she first time sharing a bed (and a pillow) wif a gurl besides her mum. LOL!!

Basically, it was fun ya :D

Sianz. And I haven't done any work yet... Shall start on them nxt week :D hehe. Oh yar. Ak's coming back from Taiwan today. Siting reminded me ytd. LOL. I want my prez... lol :D

tata//

四川大地震

2008-05-26T20:24:00.004+08:00

小孩们，别哭...
512四川大地震. 那天(5月12号), 我刚好在中三露营. 记得, 我就坐在校车上, 吹着冷气, 舒舒服服地睡着懒觉. 可我却万万没想到, 在中国四川省, 竟发生了一个7.8级的大地震. 许许多多跟我们年龄差不多的中小学生以及那些老师, 都丧了命. 这次突如其来的大地震, 夺走了好多人的性命, 夺走了好多人的亲人与朋友, 夺走了好多家庭的幸福. 十几年的心血, 就在那一瞬间, 全都变成了平地. 一分钟内就摧毁了一切, 而要重建一切, 却需要好久好久...

突然发现, 生命是如此的脆弱. 那些小小的心灵, 已经被划伤了. 要愈合, 不是件容易的事. 他们所受的创伤, 是无人能体会的. 除了四川表面上的建筑重建, 还有心里的重建. 虽然我无法体会他们失去亲朋好友的那种悲痛, 可是我能说的是,"加油! 不要放弃!中国人永远不放弃... 你们要替那些舍命救你们的人, 好好的活下去..."
"既然你们活下来了, 就要好好的活下去..."

所以, 不能出力的我们, 只能出钱. 所以, 还没有捐款的人们, 快点行动吧! 让那些四川的学生以及人们, 早点回归自己原本的生活!
让蜡烛来点燃爱与希望

爱与希望'
林俊杰

大地被摇晃著天空突然黑了
我的心也被震碎了

下一秒瓦解了泪堆积成了河
但明天是好的我们要坚定著
爱让我们不放弃活著
还要继续和大自然拔河

当爱与希望投射炙热的太阳
昨日泪光会随时间都蒸发
别轻易放弃明天要许更多愿望
装满了勇气就更有力量

当爱与希望倒映暖暖的月亮
再回头望又是筑好的家乡
我知道未来还有好多路要闯
我打开了窗看见了晴朗

亲爱的小孩'
苏纳

小小的小孩今天有没有哭
是否朋友都已经离去留下了带不走的孤独
漂亮的小孩今天有没有哭
是否弄脏了美丽的衣服却找不到别人倾诉
聪明的小孩今天有没有哭
是否遗失了心爱的礼物
在风中寻找从清晨到日暮

我亲爱的小孩
为什么你不让我看清楚
是否让风吹熄了蜡烛
在黑暗中独自漫步

亲爱的小孩
快快擦干你的泪珠
我愿意陪伴你走上回家的路

亲爱的小孩今天有没有哭
是否朋友都已经离去留下了带不走的孤独

亲爱的小孩今天有没有哭
是否遗失了心爱的礼物
在风中寻找从清晨到日暮

Okay. That's about it. This post was supposed to be posted earlier. But no time. I tink it's so sad. Therefore we should treasure life now, treasure our friends, treasure our family, and those around us! Before it's too late...

Erm, tis is to siting, and everyone else who thought the same as her. The previous post notice i said “Aww but too bad ***** not there): WHY HE OVERSEAS LUH.” Erm, siting thought it was "a.o.k.u.n" that i was talking about-_- Cuz he overseas too mah. Sia lar. It's R**** okay. censored cuz dun wan tell you :D hehe. but anyway, lame yea. But she told me to make myself more clear. okay so I made it clear. lolz haha.

TOMORROW IS BSP CAMP at Singapore Sports School. Dunno why culture tingy go sports school-_- lolz. But I'm so NOT looking forward to it... sian. Why muz we go?? T.T so lame can. like wad the SHIT. My poor holidays. My poor computer. My poor tv. @_____@

So I won't be back till thursday. Don't miss me! :D hahaha. Tomorrow morning is the SMO competition tingy. The real ting, yea... Sia lar. Dunno how to do all the questions... T.T save me!!

Okay. Need to go pack. haven't pack anyting yet. back in 3 days.

tata!

//

LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!

2008-05-24T00:35:00.000+08:00

Okay I'm crazy. My eyes are like this now: -_- LOL. I wanna sleep. Was uploading camp photos.. Damn freaking L-O-N-G post cannnn... :D haha. TODAY IS LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!! (= Which means, the starting of my dear June Hols!! (= hehe.

Went out wif Yitian, Jinxin, Siting today (first). Actually wanted to play bball, but the so-very-clever Jinxin brought the wrong keys to her new house-.- so we went yitian's house instead. Her mum's so NICE!! (=

Then met Yingteng and Jiahui and 6 of us went to take neoprints. Twice. 22 bucks all together. Zzz. Second machine kinda sucked. But was fun and cool :D hehe. Then Jinxin and Yingteng went home for dinner, so me, jiahui, yitian and siting went Macs to eat dinner. Played arnd and I spilled Siting's coke (mannn I'm really sry ><). Den i went to buy her another one. But the person came and return the money and say what she informed the manager and the manager gif her another drink. F.O.C. lol cool lar.

But the cleaner is weird.

Me: Sorry! (While he was cleaning)
Him: Thank you.
Me: Sorry... ( :S )
Him: Thank you.
Me: (???) Sorry...........
Him: Thank you.
Me: =_____= (errr...)

LOL okay but he was really nice okay. haha. zzz.

So went home after that. Toked to char. Me, jinx and jh going char's church tis sunday!!! =D hahaha. Me and Jh going to see cute guys there!! :D Aww but too bad ***** not there): WHY HE OVERSEAS LUH. so retarded-.- lolz

Okay lar. My eyes gonna close le. Upload neos another day. tata/

Camp photos will be up tomorrow!! xD

23rd MAY 2008//

LEVEL CAMP! [edited/]

2008-05-22T18:29:00.003+08:00

hohoho. Tis post will be full of Level Camp photos :D

2nd LINK (:
Next stop is Malaysia! hahaha.

The sea on our way to Malaysia (:

Ms Fang's playing with someone's elephant softtoy. HAHA xD. so cute :D

CANDID SHOT :D (oh that's jiahui's camera and hand btw. lol. and that's Mengying and Michelle in the camera. xD)

the bus we were in for 5 days 4 nights (= BUS 5!

Jiahui's bag. My bag. 合照. I was soooo bored on the bus... lol

ORANG ASLI houses.

lol some random bird in the cage. I used special effect... Nice not? xD ahahaha.

The sea near our first hotel. Nice huh (:

Jinxin and Me! I look -_- lol. (oh btw, jinxin, aka 2BBFFG3 Jinxin. ahahahaha! Rest won't say. kinda A. G3= Golden Gorilla Guo Jinxin. Hehe)

Jiahui, Me, Bear :D
Monica and Me. She got the COOL look yea? hahaha.

Jh's feet and Mine. zzz. Yeah it's RaNdOm and makes no sense =____=

Me and Jiahui's first hotel room :D (sounds wrong leh :/ hahaha)

The swimming pool (night view) of the first hotel we were staying in :D Baby sea turtles. so CUTE rite??? LOL. :D
Shermaine and Mengying. CANDID(: But i love tis shot. hehe.BEAR! :D

The Malay Traditional Kites

MONICA! :D zomg you're so c.u.t.e :D

A computer?? o.ONah. It's the small computer-look-alike beside the real big computer. It's a speaker. LOL

The sea-view from our balcony at our second hotel :D SO NICE rite?

Me and Jiahui's second hotel room :D (man it really sounds wrong xD ) But tis room/hotel is DAMN, FREAKING NICE okayyyy. Some buses we saw. Cool huh. Quite nice. lols.
Jiahui punching my poor GG.
GG looking out. So artistic rite?? lols.
......... As you can see, me and Jiahui are really bored on the bus. LOL

Some damn nice de place where we had lunch at. Very nice rite?? haha. Me and Jiahui in the dark. o.O LOL. Cuz the bus veh dark wad... xD
Me and Jinxin aka Gorilla at the 2nd States dinner :D went out to toilet and then took this. hehe.
Batik Painting. Haven't paint yet.
There :D lols. Looks like some Indian decoration tingy o.O (no dsicrimination involved(= )

YITIAN and YINGTENG. The 2 YTs. lolz. Siting and Me! :D
Siting and Me! :D So chio rite?? (I wonder if someone will take it. hmmm.. (: ) lolz.
Siting and Me! again. We doing this action cuz we were all "playing" something stupid. Like touching the chin of another person. HAHA. We're lame yeah.
Yingteng and Me! :D

Yitian and Me! :D She's so cute rite??

Me and Jinxin! :D
Jiaxin and Me! :D Jiaxin veh cute rite! lolz

Weian and Me! :D After a few shots cuz Jiahui's hand is shaky. hehe.

GG and Jiahui's pink nemo. LOL. The pink nemo given by our dear brother, Jinxin. LOL xD
and finally, home sweet home!! <3

Actually got 2 more star photos. shall post them nxt time. tata/

I missed level camp :/

LEVEL CAMP

2008-05-18T14:33:00.000+08:00

OKAY I NOE IM LACK BUT STILL,

I'M BACK FROM LEVEL CAMP!!!

It was FUN FUN FUN !! :D

I'll tell the story first and photos will come laterrrrrrrrrrrr :D

DAY 1:
Set off on the long long long journey to Malaysia. Slept on the bus. teehee. Went through the Singapore Departure Hall and then through the Malaysia "customs" (?) lol. Stopped for lunch at some unknown place. Stopped at Orang Asli to see the huts/houses there after lunch. Then headed to our so-called hotel. It was damn freaking (and i mean it) gross. >< There were lizards and flies in the toilet. yea i noe, y.u.c.k. Boo hoo. Had dinner and then went to the turtle sanctuary at night. It was damn cool. Saw the cute little sea turtles being released into the sea. But the thought that most will get eaten by (evil) fishes and sharks and blah, makes me sad ):
Got back to the "hotel" at arnd 10.30 liddat. Bathed and went to bed.

DAY 2:
Had a visit to all the cultural arts&crafts stuff. Kinda cool. Bought a magnet =___= lol.

DAY 3:
Went to visit the miniature mosques and stuff. Bought stuff too. :D

DAY 4: Had hands-on on the cultural arts&crafts tings. kinda fun. hahaha. Then at night was TalentTime. We came in second for the photo competition. woots! Big thankyiew to BEAR!:D (yenchen) We came in sixth for the TalentTime performance. No matter what, Big thankyiew to WEIAN! :D as well as everyone else in 3E! (:
Sat with Jinxin, Yingteng, Yitian, Jiahui, Siting, Tianli as well as another 3 PRCs whom I duno.. o.O Well anyway, but anyway, it was fun! (= and finally got to sit with them...

DAY 5:
Another long journey back to Singapore. Slept through the whole journey. Again. lol. Was darn tired. slept at 3+ the previous night cause We had a "sleep-over" at me and jh's room. haha. kinda cool :D

Generally, it was quite fun. I love the baby sea turtles. But it was kinda slack. Cuz we sleep, eat, sleep, eat. Felt like a pig. Missed Days 4 and 5 de breakfast. So was starved till lunch time. =_____=

Okay. photos will come another day. Meeting jie for movie :D

tata/

XIEREN AND CAMP

2008-05-11T21:45:00.000+08:00

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!! <3

okay. since time is short, I will make this short too. okayyy erm, happy mothers' day!! Sorry mum I didn't get you anything... )= But I duno wad to gif leh... =X

okay. nxt ting. last friday was XIE REN! Although it's kinda sad that some nice nice seniors are going... but anyways, CONGRATS to those who got post(s)!! (=

TOMORROW IS LEVEL CAMP!!

It's from 12th May - 16th May.
In Malaysia.
We'll be living in hotels (!!!!).
It's a culture camp. (meaning no disgusting stuff.. o.O)

okay but anyways, I suddenly feel excited (=.=). lolz. duno why. maybe its cuz of the hotel part. (dun get me wrong-.-) lol. But we needa get sku by 6.20 am tml!!!! oh mi gosh luh... zzz.

and I love my mum!! (= She bought me new clothes, slippers and a new converse bag ytd/today!! ^^ ahahaha. So happy.

And err Jiahui messaged me like last nite to bring softtoy... LOL. okayyy. zzz.

anyways, I'll be back in 5 days. (O.O tts kinda long huh. lol)

TATA TILL THEN/

青春旋律

2008-05-02T22:34:00.000+08:00

YESTERDAY'S 青春旋律 WAS A SUCCESS!!!

Okayyyyy. Now 检讨...

I tink I did a bad job D: cuz I made mistakes... Even though I practiced a lot of times, I still made the mistakes.... ): haiz~...

anyway, I got to go like now=___________=

TAG REPLIES:
Siting: Like errr-.- okay. LOL. I shall flood urs today. and sry abt today lar... ):
Dc: hi s.t.r.a.n.g.e.r~ :D hahaha. (hi dongchen)
Ak: 唉... You're not suppose to 郁闷 rmbr. LOL. :D
Siting: lol okay... Let's cry together... ): I think I'm going to be scolded like mad... too... haiz... life is harddddd. D:

yea.

tata/

青春 REHEARSAL

2008-05-01T00:22:00.000+08:00

Today's rehearsal was GENERALLY okay... I tink. LOL. Except a few errors here and dere. Yea... kana scolded... AGAIN. wthhhh... D:

okay. EMO. so dont read...

我就算做得再多也没用... 反正我做什么都是错的, 那我干吗还这么拼命? 除了一直不停地挑我的缺点, 你还会干别的么? 我好累... ): 真的好累... 生活中的每一天就是不停的被不同的人骂, 骂, 骂... 好没劲... 如果活着这么累, 那为什么要活着?... 我想哭... 谁陪我一起哭啊?...

明天青春大家要加油啊!!~

^^

我为你而笑... <3

EVERYTHING(:

2008-04-29T16:53:00.001+08:00

LONG time no blog. lol. created a private blog:D but i cant change the stupid dumb dumb template for sum freaking reason =______________________=

TOMORROW IS 青春总彩
leaving class at 11! :D hehe. Skipping physics test. HAHA so nice. Zzzz. Thinking of how to write 微型小说... Oh man. No ideas. No inspirations. ): No-thing at all. ahhhhhhh. Haven't do history presentation de powerpoint yet!!

oh and, today Ben and Jerry's giving out free ice-creams!:D

...

But I can't go-.-

Retarded. hahaha.

I want to go around the world!
But I no money.
I want to get good grades!
But I lazy study.
I want to make more money!
But I don't know how.
I want to eat everything! (probably cuz my stomach's growling right now. xD)
But I can't ):

arh. I want to be rich :D

man, I think I'm getting the madness from Siting and gang =____________=

random report 1:
(she's staring at the comp with a retarded--> :/ expression and listening to her noodles earphones and at the same time asking me to be quick. HAHAHA :D)

random report 2:
(Jinx is looking at her laptop with her mouth open... again--> :O hmm. not so big lar. --> :o LOL!!)

random report 3:
(I'm hungry... Well actually, that's a fact._. ahaha)

random report 4:
(I want to eat waffles.)

random report 5:
(I want to jump into the sea.)

random report 6:
(Jinx just pointed to me this retarded photo of 大东with a retarded basket on his head and a retarded expression on his face.)

man, I can see siting's face going black in front of the comp. HAHAHA.

And she's scrrrrrrrreaming and nagggggggggggggging to me to get off the comp like my mum... -.-

Hi mum.

-.-

yuck.

tata.

I <3>
(:

BIRTHDAY! :D

2008-04-16T20:20:00.000+08:00

LALALA.
TODAY'S MY BIRTHDAY :D

hehe. happy birthday to myself. LOL.

Anyway, this post is to be edited soon. (after the 2 tests. D: ) haha. And this post is dedicated to those who wished me happy birthday :D

A BIG THANK YOU TO ALL FRIENDS WHO WISHED ME HAPPY BIRTHDAY TODAY! :D

Love you all lots lots kays <33

ahahaha. even thou a lot ppl forgot. but those hu really rmbred, a big hug to you all(:

Maths test's tml. Im so screwed. zzzz.... gotta study now.
tata~

Frantically searching for the love that I've once had in me...
& I still love you... (:

D:

2008-04-14T22:04:00.000+08:00

Yeah I noe, second post tonight. Just wanted to reply the tags. haha.

Yitian: Yeah! LOL. Even thou i didnt see him -_____- hahaha.
Siting: err what the... I got tag back ok. Uu nvr reply tags de-.- LOL
wr: LOL. err. double tags? ._. haha. I will try and bug it out of you :D

zzz. pathetic 3 tags. juz didnt feel like using my tagboard. zzz. I wana new sling bag for my bdae. Its on 16th April okieeee. which is like 2 days later :D hehe.

*HINT HINT* hehe~

okie. film's screwed. tml deres LA presentation. SO SCREWED. urgh wth.

:D

2008-04-14T21:37:00.000+08:00

yeah everything was fine :D hehs

Sku was okay today. Except during assembly. Some unknown local band called," JackofHearts" or sth liddat came to our sku and started singing. I mean, the playing is not bad, and it's totally COOL. But the singing is a bit err... out of tune, I would say. haha sry. But hey, it takes great courage to stand up dere and sing rite? (:

Stayed back for film. But it was totally useless. Nothing seems to be working rite now. D:
I'm freaking out.
and so are they.
Everything's wrong.
What the hell.
We are so screwed.
We are dead meat.
Dateline's tomorrow.
How?
What?
Huh?

I dunno...

and OMG IM FREAKING OUT. WE HAVEN EVEN FINISH DOING THE CHINESE FILM TINGY. HOW ARE WE SUPPOSED TO HAND IN TML HUH?!

...

Im scared. What if all our efforts just went down the drains like that? so many saturdays and hours dedicated... And maybe she will start shouting into our ears, asking us why is this happening, etc. It's out fault, but we didn't expect this to happen did we? We didn't want this to happen either did we? Huh? What the hell is wrong with this world? Everything's going wrong, everything went wrong; What next huh? I hate this. The same thing happens everytime. Why? I suppose nobody knows.

Everything's going haywire. What the hell. No matter how hard I try, I get nothing back, and it's the same, old, thing. What am I supposed to do? I just keep trying, and I just keep seeing how the world fails me. How everything is failing me. How I'm failing everything. Yeah I'm a failure. But I ain't gonna give up....

加油...

Even after everything, I still love you<3

No it's not

2008-04-13T21:02:00.000+08:00

Everything's gonna be fine(:

is it?

Easier said than done huh...

):

2008-04-12T17:44:00.000+08:00

YEAH WHATEVER. guess what. I dun really gif a damn. wtf

anw, after so many ppl's cheering ups (:D), Im not tt depressed. zzz. here goes the retarded incident:

It was raining after hsk today. so mii, yingteng, jinxin, siting and jiahui waited at the centre for the rain to stop. was damn hungry. After a long while, the rain finally stopped. so we started walking back to tiong bahru mrt station. Jinx didnt come wif us cuz she was going sumwhere else. oh well.

so we ate macs. After eating and stuff, i started mixing bbq sauce and garlic chilli sauce (eew, I noe.). den yingteng started throwing all kinds of papers in it (o.o) Den i dipped my straw into the disgusting product and started putting the sauce onto siting's paper (the one which dey gif uu on the tray, below ur food-___-). den she got kinda irritated and started to push my hand back.

Well, I was only joking (and she tried to do it bac anw) and i tried to (pretended actually) to put the sauce on her (wif the straw). den she pushed my hand (and the straw) back and we started "fighting". den she bent the straw and the sauce dripped on me and splatted on jiahui. ok fine. so i started it. I apologised after after after tt rite-.- den she was damn freaking pissed. and siting was helping her wipe. yeah i started it, but hello, I got sauce on me TOO.

So I got kinda irritated and told siting Im not goin for the proj. Jinx didnt go anw =.= den after tt when mii and yt got out of the toilet, dey are gone=.=

I was tinking lyk maybe after cleaning up and stuff dey would be less "irritated". hu noes dey gone liao. so I went home larh. FINE. so ur pissed. I tried to tok but ur ignore. wad can i do. wtf. and there are many other stuff i dun wan say (not abt today)

SO ANW, Im still irritated=.= yeah wadever.

HSK was fine. Even though I was lyk freezing. and after every component dere were lots of time. lol. Kinda sian. supposed to be studying maths. urgh wadever. anyways, I got a new friendster account:D ask me for it. hoho:D

DUN READ(i noe uu'll read if uu dun understand eng-.-)

Fine. Im sorry ok. I was just playing around only. If uu wanna be angry sumore, den its kinda none of my business, and I got sauce on me too (including hair). so we're all quits. But if uu dun tink tis way, den... deres nth i can do-.- yeah wadever. uu wan say fuck den say larh. i dun really care actually.

and yeah, it's all over now...

UNTITLED

2008-04-12T15:30:00.000+08:00

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK

WHAT-THE-FUCK

sorry for being vulgar.
wadever.
zzz

ROT

2008-04-10T16:49:00.001+08:00

yeah blog's dying. zzz. anw, screwed chem prac today D: everything's screwed larh. why she can get so good grades when she hardly study and i get such ahem grades when i study... ): urgh wth larh.

D:

nth's fair harh.

you suck larh. and you, you, you, you, you & you. urgh

Boo. lol. sry. im random :D anw, 爱的主旋律 is damn freakingggggggggggggggg nice xD gogoGO listen ks? Im uploading my pics and stuff at another place. ask me for it :D [that is, if uu tink I'll give you(: ] lalala.

Lessons are boring. we hardly learn anything most of the time cuz we got like, relief tchers for every single freaking subject except for history and chemistry. which is lyk -_______-

anyways, heres an IMPORTANT ANNOUNCEMENT! :D

青春旋律 CONCERT!
VENUE: VICTORIA THEATRE
TIME: 7:30PM
DATE: MAY 1ST [its on labour day ok. and its public hol. DUN gimmi sum kind of f*cking excuse tt uu cant come cuz uu got sku/lessons-.-]

IT'S NICE OKIE:D even thou i still got my original 5 tickets wif mii -_____- but its really really nice okie! And everyone puts in so much effort to make the show perfect:D LOL. anw, i juz found out tt i cant change all the font colours and stuff cuz i was at the 'edit html' page all the time=.= wthhhhh.

and i freaking HATE my new seating arrangement=.= even thou Glad and Edric are nice, but tt seat totally sux. cuz deres like spiders all around and we juz saw one damn big one today o.O freaked me out. zzz. Siting's getting excited and stuff cuz AHEM is in the sku library now-___- errz. yeah he's cute, but im not really excited cuz he dao-ed mii when i ask him hu to get the CD from=.=" [I noe ur looking tis part of the post wif big eyes and smiling cuz uu tot of him:D lala. Im so clever:D and dun uu dare tag sth idiotic. if not i tell him, ahem hem ARH.]

ok, yitian is smiling at me wif a sly look. LOL. and G3 [ aka Golden Gorrila Guo JinXin ] got a BF!! He's called 红毛 o.O haha. no larh. called sth else but we call him tis cuz his name sounds lyk it. LMAO. and so she is 黑毛. okieeeee... so dey both are the weirdo couple cuz he kept calling her for lyk 3,4 times ytd when she was wif us [mii, siting, yitian, jiahui]. LOL.

okie. nda get home. so many stuff to study. URGH. and siting's giving mii the "要死了" [which means angry] look. lala.

I love you(:

STUFF

2008-03-29T22:12:00.000+08:00

HELLO WORLD! THE SUN IS REVOLVING AROUND THE MOON! G3 (ahahahaha) IS GETTING FEMININE! oh mi gosh :D

LOL! It's a long long long long story. So I shall not waste my time talking abt it. anw, I'll do a rough summary. she pangseied us (hemhemHEM) for (ahemahemAHEM). lmao. she refuses to tell us more. zzz. Okie. crapPpzZzz. Monica and Huiying are transferring. WAD ABT US?! ): hai... 2 less frens in 3E now ):

So mii, siting, jiahui and monica (cheese :D ) went Bugis. Cheese wanted to tag along since the start of the film project / competition tingy. Anw, she went rite after we bought our drinks. After deciding to heck care jinx, we went to go take neos. We were deciding for such a long time which machine to use [I was in a REAL hurry btw].

Den we spent a long time separating the money and stuff. And FINALLY, we got to settle down and take the neos. but its so ......... DOTS. lmao. after taking and choosing the ones to decorate, i rushed off. So dey decorated and separated the neos. haha. im getting dem on monday ^^

And today i dunno why suddenly head very pain. My headache was so bad ): I nearly fainted on the MRT train... Hai... So I met Jiahui and we both wore claz jersey. LOL! such a coincidence. We were very late. Cheese was kinda pissed :X sorry larh. i wasnt feeling well mah. so left house later... hehe

We went Macs to do the Chinese Project de script. I fell asleep after buying my food cuz I didnt feel like eating anything at all :S Felt much better after waking up. lmao. and Jinx came 'decorated'. (?) errr.. I mean she came looking nice. lol. unusual. xD We were teasing her. haha.

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Im tired ): Haiz... and I scratched my knee ): wad a bad day... ZZZZZZZ...~

郁闷...

I'm emo-ing ):

tata!

CHINGAY!!!!

2008-02-17T01:09:00.000+08:00

HELLO PPL:D

CHINGAY IS DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN FREAKING FUN!! LOL. and i juz ate my dinner and bathed. so much stuff to wash off. HAHA! =P yesterday was fun fun fun. today was FUN FUN FUN!!! hehe. sorry. im high now. okie. forget it.

cuz i usin another laptop, so i cant transfer my photos in. so i shall post it in the next post =D hehe. and, today after we finished the last performin area, everyone was damn high sia. den sumone started to splash water(wif the free bottles of water for dem). and yup. I got drenched. whoa. damn cold leh... LOL!

so mii, jiahui, char and hwee chian decided to go FUNAN IT MALL and eat. yup. we walked from marina square dere, all the way to funan it mall. and damn the stupid mall lah! why muz close so early?!nvr get to eat loh. so we decided to cross the road (back) and go 7-11 and buy drinks. haha. we were sweating and thirsty>< haha.

after char and hwee chian went, mii and jiahui were waiting for our dads to come and fetch. haha. den tis tall and cute guy came and ask us sth to do wif starbucks and stuff(cuz he dunno how to go. LOL) Only after he went, den i realised tt he's kinda cute. ARH. den i started grumbling to jiahui abt why i didnt get his phone number. Im still regrettin it now lor!! ):

Jiahui aso didnt get her CUTE SKATER's phone number. Dere was tis guy skater hu went around shoutin," hu wan my number??" LOL! den he came and ask us. i said no. jiahui said "ok!" (-.-)HAHAHA. den he said "Ok! Gimmi ur phone!Den i punch in the number!" but jiahui didnt take. after tt den she realised tt she shld haf gotten his number so tt she can ask for the cute skater's number. LOL!!

wah. so it was damn sad luh. nvr get the cute guy de number... ): HAHA

but today was fun. and ytd and today were like MOCK 2.4.... juz we run and run and run. den after runnin we dance. after dancing we run. whoa siao. its crazy sia. LOL!

OKIE. IM TIRED. GOING OFF NOW.

Hope tt i can meet tt cute and tall guy again;) hoho:D but i noe no chance luh ):

LOL!

HAPPY CNY! =D

2008-02-06T09:51:00.000+08:00

OKIE. IM HERE TO UPDATE. BUT WITHOUT PICS): CUZ TIS LAPTOP DUN HAVE MY PICTURES...

ANYWAYS IM GOING TO MY JIE'S HOUSE LATER. AND I HAF TO MEET RAYMOND AND GET CHAR'S CAKE. SHE DOESN'T NOE YET =P HAHA. HOPE I CAN GT OUT AND MEET DEM SUMHOW... =X ANYWAY, DEN WE GONNA CELEBRATE AND TAKE NEOS=D HEHE

OKIE. NOW THE 'NON-CAPS'...

haha. Okie. I TOTALLY-SCREWED-UP maths test): so sad... Im gonna work hard for the next test... the chinese tingy... =X lol. anw, we got our claz jersey. (Yea, its quite long ago..) The jersey's nice=D shall upload photos sum other day. hehe.

last friday mii, siting, jiahui and miao went out for dinner after our cca. so, we reached bugis at err 8 sth. (O.O) lol. We ate KFC and den walked arnd and stuff. haha. den we shopped till 10:10? haha. after tt mii and miao went to the macs at our house dere and bought drinks. den we tok tok tokand i reached home at 11.30++
._.

but it was fun!! =D hehe

anw, gotta run. CYA!!

AND HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR PPL!!! =D

UPDATE! -.-

2008-01-23T22:21:00.000+08:00

LOL. UPDATING HERE! ZZZ.

IM USING CAPS CUZ JIEMIN AND I TOT TT CAPS WERE NICE, AND TT PPL HU HATE CAPS HAF BAD TASTE-.- HAHAHA!

ANW, 3E HAS CLAZ NAME LIAO. ITS 3ENCORE!! =P HEHE. AND WE GOT OUR CLAZ JERSEY LIAO. NICE SIA. AND, WE'RE GETTIN CLAZ TEE SOON. =D HEE. AND CHAR'S BDAE WAS... W0W. LOL. LIKE, SHE WAS TOUCHED AND SHOCKED WHEN WE SURPRISED HER WIF DAH CAKE. BUT SHE NVR CRY-.- HAHA

ANW, EVERYONE IN 3E IS NICE NICE NICE =D

GOTTA RUN. =P

[TBE!! WIF PICS!!]

[to be edited]

2007-12-31T16:39:00.000+08:00

Im lazy to update. but hey, today's the last day of 2007.. i HAF GOT TO say sth rite. hahaha. anw, tis year's been... fast, i would say. but nth's been perfect so far. zzz. nvm, crapping here.

anw, HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! (in advance)
and, MERRY belated CHIRSTMAS!!!

hahaha. yea. I noe im slow. hehe.

i got to go. zzz. hehe. BYEEEEE!!!! ;)

Updatessss!

2007-11-10T15:35:00.000+08:00

SITING: HERES THE UPDATE LAH. haiyoh. haha

Im in 3E nxt year. Phy + Chem + History.
great. no good good frens dere): sobs. anywae, tis holdiay is sianz sianz sianz. nth to do at all. cant start guitar aso. stupid. =X

Now all my frens all diff claz from mii... Wan cry liao.. ):

haizz.

anywae, now I watching the shows 公主小妹, 刁蛮公主. =D hehe so nice lah!! 公主小妹 2 more eps to go. 刁蛮公主 6 more eps to go~ lala.

公主小妹:

刁蛮公主:

YUP(:

toodles~

Cant tink of a title. BOOHOO): [-.-]

2007-10-23T20:30:00.000+08:00

Hey dere(:

lol. Last last week [dunno which day], Went out wif char for almost the whole day. haha. so fun. We walk and walk [we were at JE, btw], den walk to the Science Centre. haha._. den we took so many picts. so fun!!

BUT.. The goondoo mii go delete those photos-.- BY ACCIDENT OK. urghs. anywae, got sum photos from her:D haha. Tt day cuz got the wad DJ ting in sku. I actually lazy go de. den she drag mii dere, throwing mii ALL HER THEORIES=.= hahaha xD

so I went loh. den actually supposed to meet at [dunno where aso. forgot=X ], den in the end I was lazy. so changed venue to CCK. teehee. had my way:D yup. so no photos to upload luhhh):

Saturday went to cut my hair. it was... err... terrible? yap. TERRIBLY TERRIBLE.

hmm...

ok la. not THAT terrible. but still pretty bad. I was telling the uncle to cut more fringe and cut the fringe infront shorter. den he *snip snip snip* happily and tell mii wad its sum kind of Japan new hairstyle (wad the crap?!)

okie. so I was like... errr... couldnt say anyting? urgh. but its... nice... juz tt he snip all the hair so short... den the ponytail is still long...

[does it make sense?]

urgh. anywae, it would be nicer if all those short hair didnt pop all th way up, which were suppose to be my fringe. yuck. =P

startin guitar soon I tink. My mum says she will only pay for mii one year._. den if I next year results good, den help mii pay one more year. yea. but no, it doesnt apply to the following years): tts another on my list: PART TIME WORK.
Im learnin alone. yeah. cuz veh ma fan. haha.

TOMORROW: 24/10/2007, IS THE DAY WHEN THEY RETURN REPORT BOOKS.

URGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGHURGH

I SURE DIE LE LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA):

O levels?..

IP?....

GEOG?...

HISTORY?....

*cry*

Im so confused now. and my head's bursting of ALL THESE PROBLEMS AND DILEMMAS. sumone save mii lehhhh... ='(

I wanna cry... haizzzzZZZZZZZZ...

My results sux loh. =X and only now den I realise everytin._. hope it aint too late...

BACK TO TOPIC. sorry. =S

LAST FRIDAY'S talk talk talk and presentation presentation presentations are boring boring BORING>.< I was practically dozing off luh [zZzZzZzZzZz...~] so boring!!! den yesterday [monday] was pretty ok la... at least the talks are short and sweet. except for the Streaming Talk at the last. Even though it was useful, but it was too much. I was practically screaming (silently) cuz my leg was damn pain luh.from the 1 hour ++++++ of sitting on the ground, crossed legged, in the non-airconditioned hall. bleah>.<

Today has sum kind of CERAMIC painting. speaking of tt, I haven paint my art work yet>< later go paint. anywae, after the ceramic painting, it cums the DOVE talk. it was DAMN ~~FREAKING~~ FUNNY, FUN, AND... and... erm... interesting(?) haha:D Ms Sarah (the lecturer from DOVE), was SO NICE luh. lalala:D

den after tt cums the 45-min break. so shiok la. haha. after tt was the cermaic painting again, basically it was free time. haha. and we were released at 12.30pm:D early eh. den siting, mii and miao went 3H to look for siswo ( SUMONE'S SUMONE(: ; its ok if uu udn udnerstand(: ). den pass him the letters of excuse for December's CS Outing [wen yi ying]. boohoo. I wanna go too):

after sku took train wif Char, Jinx, Yvonne and Gen. We four (C, J, Y, and mii) alighted at Bugis. yep. mii and yvonne sat inside the station (which means we didnt tap our cards:D) and waited for Jinx and Char. Dey went to Kinokuniya and bought Jinx's <<终极一家>> de book. yay=.= anywae, Jinx's excited. den dey came bac asap. haha.

Jinx and Yvonne went home (to CHangi direction) and mii and Char went City Hall cuz she persuaded mii to=.= den in the end go dere eat KFC ONLY LA. WAD THE.... I WAS SO PISSED TT SHE WANTED TO GO HOME AT 4.16 JUZ TO CATCH HER 4.30 HOKKIEN SHOW. (Wadever it is-.-) URGH. so fan now anywae. booo):

okie. Lynn's transferring to Dunman High. GOOD LUCK LA~

SHall upload the pics I took for today's ceramic painting another day. MOST PROB NOT tml. cuz.. err... RETURNING REPORT BOOKS, like hello??

im scared D:

EOYS OVER!(:

2007-10-12T16:55:00.000+08:00

EOYS ARE OVER!!!!!! like... finally? lol. okie. I noe Im late by 2 days, but hey, I gotta play rite? :D

Weds was our last paper: Science. ok la. sum questions, (like in section C) kinda hard to tackle. lol. Weds after exam Mii, Char, Yingteng, Jinxin, Yvonne, Hangyin and Kaiwen went to Jurong East de Macs to haf lunch. Yingteng, Jinxin and Yvonne went to ice-skate after tt. Hangyin and Kaiwen went home. den mii and Char went to Boon Lay (Jurong Point) to shop around.

actually wanted to watch movie. but I dun feel like watchin "Balls Of Fury", so we decided to walk around :D Okie. we were childish enuf to go into the "Kiddy Palace" and the Toys shop ._. lolx

Photos are as follows:D :

Guess who?
Its CHARMAINE(:

Char's fav disney character._.

nawww~ dun dey juz look cute together? (:

♥♥♥♥
err... char did it. Im innocent. :D

The BANANA we took at errr... sum shop. :D we tried to take photos wif it loads of time. but juz doesnt work):

The ice kachang we bought cuz we were so tired and wanted to find sumwhere to sit. so char suggested the food court ._.

the scenery outside from where we sat :D

so we went another toy shop. and saw these flowers O.O

It looks small. but its kinda big. uu can ride on it =.= I jumped a lil when i turned around the corner and saw tis. O.O hahah.

Icecream anyone? :D

okie. tts abt it for wednesday. Thursday mii and Char went to CCK in the morning to get our presents. char bought tong-zhuo presents. she was askin mii to buy too. den i was like," err..." lolx. so I bought stuff for myself(: den we went bac to sku for the DJ ting=.= quite fun luh. but I nearly fell asleep. haha.

den we went to Jurong East. We shopped a bit, den we walk and walk until sumwhere near the science centre. so we decided to go dere for sum shots:D but I shant post dem. cuz im lazy. hahaha.

Shall go and watch my 公主小妹^^ Its nice dokay. :D

lala~

I hate uu >:(
dun ever lemmi see uu again...
or else I swear I'll punch ur nose in=.=

EOYS!! HIATUS!! ):

2007-09-25T20:19:00.000+08:00

PEOPLE! EOYS IS IN 5 DAYS!!!!! So the hardworkin mii has decided to be on

lol. CUTE RITE?? :D oh and, Im gettin my new sony phone tml~ hehe. even thou free phone, but better than the one Im usin now luh-.- (for those hu noe, uu understand rite? HAHA. =P )

yup. tts all, EXAMS STARTIN ON 1ST OCTOBER 08:30AM AND ENDING ON 10TH OCTOBER 10:45AM

LOL. So.......

JIAYOUS FOR THOSE HAVIN EOYS!!~~

AND I'LL BE BAC IN 15 DAYS!!!~~~

BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~~

=P Hahax.

2007-09-13T21:31:00.000+08:00

LONG time never blog le. lols. okie. so, countdown, EOYS IN like... 17 DAYS? O.O tts like... OMG??? haha. okie. so for the past 2 days I've been studyin in the sku library(:

first time was wif jia hui, siting and jin xin. second time was wif jiahui only. apparently both jin xin and jia hui were watchin "X-family" the time. -.- diao? haha. well, dey said the maths test not veh hard. tts all the info I got. but Im gonna study hard(: lol. I was chionging like siao tis few days luh. so tired>< so tis few days late when meetin kaiwen in the morning. SORRY KAIWEN><

yupppp. so tml maths and science tests. I took a break and came to bloggg(: haha. PPL, TAGG MORE YA!! [: hehe. I dun wan my blog dead... tt is... (: okie. so tired. damn stressed too. today during ACC, history, maths, and dunno wad laaAAAA. haha. we were revising maths today. =X so ahrdworkin rite? (: and we were turnin arnd to ask chih siong all the qns we dunno. haha. but yvonne asked more. and she wanted to pull him to stay bac wif her. TSK TSK:D

yuppp. so, I wont be bloggin until after EOYS. It lasts for 10 days. so I'll be bac on 10th October nite(: hehe. BUT KEEP TAGGIN!!~ (:

okie~

JIAYOUS FOR MII!! AND EVERYONE OUT DERE HAVIN THEIR EOYS SOON YA~ (:

BUH BYEES(:

panic? ><

2007-09-04T23:42:00.000+08:00

september hols here liao. yuppp. sumhow feelin damn sian... lol. eoys in 20+ days. panic time... ._. but I sound pretty calm eh. lol.

I muz be crazy. tml morning got dazu all the way until 4 sth=.= lame sia. and den thurs morning 9-10.30 got maths remedial. den in the afternoons 1-4 got LA remedial. >< SIANzzzzzzzzzzzz...~ hahax

tchers day performance... lets juz say tt it wasnt veh successful... even though we did our best, but... well, it juz dint turn out quite well luh. lol. but it was a great experience. even though I was like, nervous like siao. lol. and charmaine, dun be so crazy over HIM luh-.- LOL! XD

haha. mii and yvonne [turtle =P] haf been planning out for our outings for after EOYs. starting from 10th october, the last day of exams, until 16th october, the last day before we go bac sku for results [on 17th]. We muz play like siao within those days. otherwise later results not good cannot play liao >< teehee. =P

We've planned A LOT of stuffffff~ hehe. KBox, shopping, iceskatin [she wanted it ALOT. so.. o wells. LOL], etc etc. a lot laaaa. =D o and, the prom tingy is cancelled. O.O I dun understand anytin lor. lol. hehe ;P

today went out wif my family to woodlands to eat crystal jade for dinner. lol. was veh nice. =D den took neos wif my sis. veh nice too! but wont post dem. lol. I nvr scan into comp yet. xD

11:51PM

I MISS UU.... [:

tired><

2007-08-24T20:34:00.000+08:00

okie. seriously, I haf to update. lol. cuz lately veh busy and veh tired.. zz... lol. Las sunday was my last guitar lesson at hark]: miss everyting and everyone dere. lyk charmaine[hint hint] LOL =P

took photos wif dem but shant post cuz I look duper weird ._. haha. but I shall post the pics of HARK MUSIC[:

MY CLAZ ROOM[: cuz veh small space so I could only take tis part of the claz. but the clazrm aint big luh-.- lol

the staircase. sorry. pls tilt ur head to the right[:

HARK MUSIC<3
hehe. yup. the main door/gate[:

DHOBY! I got nth to do and was bored. lol. was waiting for raymond cuz apparently he's late and its raining and he has an umbrella while I dont ._. lol

DHOBY!<3

o anddddd, GOOD NEWS! 2F IS PERFORMING FOR TCHERS' DAY CONCERT NXT FRIDAYYYY[: hehe. mii, charmaine, sherlyn and elizabeth are playing e guitar[: sherlyn and elizabeth are catching up veh fast[: I tink if I were dem I cant even play luh-.- lol

anywae, dey say tt we're gonna haf tis YEAR 2 GRADUATION NIGHT or sth. O.O and dey say the dress code is formal. and we haf to pay 25 bucks. and the venue is gonna be at the Ulu Pandan CC ball room dere. ._. erm... I shall see bah. see hu goin. lol. yvonne wants to go shopping wif mii. haha. but... its AFTER EOYs... hai~ not TOO long away.........

okie. so, Im retarded-.- I tout I lost my pick. den my dad said he tink he threw it away. den after tt my sis found it. I was happie, yea, but the next day, I brought it to sku, and I lost it-.- GREAT luh-.- lol

Im so scared of my EOYs.. =X CAN SUMONE COACH MII? ._.

lol. shall go do my hw now... still got so many... >< WAHHHHH>< and today saw setsquare~ [: hehe

kkk. shall go now. bbbbbbb[:

stressedddddd ]:

2007-08-12T21:05:00.000+08:00

updating[:

lol. On weds, we celebrated national day in sku[: and and AND, Nurul sthsth [sorry! forgot the name... ><] came to our sku. KEELY, THE CAMPUS SUPERSTAR, CAME TOOOOO! [: we took photo wif her. yupppp. haha. sorry yvonne, I lazy to send uu.. =P hehe. will send later later laterrrr la. hehe

yup. and so I slacked and slacked. urgh. juz damn freaking stressed now larrr. >< tml got to hand in chinese file. haven file finish and do the corrections yet, and Im here bloggin. damn-.-

Weds after the celebration tingy, mii and charmaine did history project wif sumei and eunice. SO FUN[: lol. but was veh tired though. haha. den I followed charmaine all the way to paya lebar [see, I so nice:D] cuz she got piano and we haven eat lunch yet. so we ate at the Post Office. yuppp[: haha. den after tt she tempt mii into buyin bubble tea wif her-.- wah lau. I was damn full lor. haha

den raymond say he end exam early. den I juz reached charmaine's house den I gtg le. -.- lol. den since charmaine is like, goin for her piano lesson, I meet raymond first. yup. so met him at bugis. den went to buy the tickets for 'SECRET'. IT ROX KAYSSS[: GO WATCH, PPL!! hehe

den raymond went to eat at food court. obviously I cant eat anytin after pei-ing charmaine eat LOADS before tt.. haha~ yup. so he ate for 45 mins. lol. den he taught mii how to fold straw heart and star. THANXX[: but I forgot liao-.- haha

den went to the arcade. yup. watch ppl play luh. and raymond played the bball game. dint feel lyk plain.. sorry =X and FINALLY, AT 6+++, CHARMAINE FINALLY CAME. haha. yup. and our movie is 7.40pm de. aiyah, den we walk arnd, waste time here and dere. even went to the bkshop luh-.- haha

anywae, the main point isssss, 不能说的秘密 ROX!!!!!! GO WATCH LEHH!! 叶湘伦 + 路小雨 = LOVE! so sad lor. charmaine cried and cried. haha. I was goin to cry, but see her den I feel lyk laughin... lol.. sorry =X

haha. yup. so today's my second last lesson at hark. SO SAD LARR]: den I took pictures of the sku[: shall take more next week, which is my last lessonnn]: omg, Im lyk, so sad lar. ]:

haha. but I took an ugly picture of lawrence. =D hahaha. can use it to threaten him. lol. no lar. I not so bad de. haha

tml is CIP. hai~ so gonna miss wenxue. suddenly wan go wenxue lehhh. haha. influenced by yanci.. lol. and YANCI, I never change my blogskin cuz I was pissed off wif it. haha. and I no time... lol. and, since uu wan mii to say, den I say lor. haha. ya, its an honour tt uu read my blogg. hahaha. uu better update ur blogg. I dun care. =D

okie. gotta run liao~ byeee pplz. and TAKE CARE ya[:

TOODLES~! [: