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Posted by Sunday, July 27, 2008 7/27/2008 04:42:00 PM with 0 notes | add more notes

I'm bored at home. Maths maths maths. All I did for the whole day was -----
MATHS -_-

haizz...

記得那時候的我們，好像很要好的朋友一樣。可是你卻突然離我而去。沒什麽特別的原因。可能，從一開始只是我一廂情願地把你當作我的好朋友。最近有了好多的感觸。原來，我們沒有我想象中的那麽要好；原來，從以前到現在，我們之間永遠都格着一道墻。這是事實。即使過了一年，兩年，十年，一百年它也不會改變。那道強還是會在我們之間，直挺挺的立着。而我們，也永遠都不可能會當成好朋友。

好朋友。這是很特別的三個字。誰要是能挂上"好朋友"的這個標簽都會感到很幸福的。試問誰不希望身邊有一群永遠都支持自己，共患難的知心好友?
就儅我是貪心好了。我想要你做我的好朋友。能夠成爲好朋友，就説明我們是有緣分的。所以我不想失去你。

我總是想盡方法來討好身邊的人。突然才發覺，好累。如果有一天我消失了，會有人發覺麽? 會有人心疼麽? 會有人在乎麽?
我希望你會...
心裏的空虛是不管用多少愛，費盡多少心血也無法填補回去的。留下的創傷，是不管用在多的淚水都沖不走的。因爲在乎你，所以我傷心。

我喜歡的你們不喜歡。我不喜歡的你們喜歡。我知道的你們不知道。我不知道的你們都知道。不是中國人有錯麽? 我對中國沒有感覺有錯麽?
我是在新加坡長大的有錯麽? 就儅我是沒童年好了，這又有錯麽?
不知道。也不想管了。如果畢業后我們還能保持好朋友的關係，那當然是再好不過的了。可是以現在的情況看來，可能性是低於零。

好多人都說我喜歡他。那一點看得出來?
自己的心事，自己一定看得最清楚。因爲是自己的感覺。看到他，沒感覺。看到他，不臉紅。看到他，心跳不會加快。這算是喜歡?
也許那是依賴。如果你們把依賴當成喜歡，當成愛的話，那我也沒什麽可以說的了。

我相信世界上有純真的友情。即使是男女之間也好。我相信世界上有永恒的友情。我相信知心的好朋友是一輩子的。很多人都說過，中學時的朋友是一輩子的朋友。可是爲什麽想要建立友好的關係，建立一個見面不吵架的友情那麽難?
也許是我太計較。也許是我太小氣。

我只想要好好地珍惜你們，尤其是你。我害怕失去這段友情。我害怕失去你們。我害怕失去所有的一切。我害怕你們任何一個人會受到傷害。這是懦弱麽?
我害怕的事總會發生。世界上沒有公平的事。可是太邪門了吧。儅我以爲我得到了某樣東西時，我就會失去它。經歷過一次友情的奮鬥，最後還是失去了。爲什麽你們要的東西，就可以那麽輕易的伸出手去拿。可是我期盼的，不管我怎麽努力，卻永遠都得不到?
也許，這世界上真的沒有公平的存在吧。

這一次的事件，就讓它緩緩吧。其實，你們倆之間的事，外人是絕對沒有權利插手的，也不能插手。因爲對彼此的感情，只有當事人自己心裏最清楚。你喜歡的是誰，他喜歡的又是誰。連當事人自己的心裏也弄不清楚。所以大家還是緩一緩吧。讓彼此，讓我們都回到自己原本的生活，什麽都不要去想，什麽都不要去管。在一起的日子也沒剩多少了。所以趁這機會，讓一切都恢復到原本的狀態。給我一個機會，也給你自己一個機會，讓我們重新再來過。這一次，不准任何人受傷傷害，不准吵架，也不准讓任何人破壞我們之間的友情！至於以前至今我所做過的傷害到你，或者使你煩的動作，我先道歉。希望你知道，我不是故意的。如果你讀到這一段話，希望你可以做出回應。至少讓我知道，你心裏還是有我的。

所以，爲了這一輩子難得的友情，我們加油吧！~

就讓我鬱悶一次吧...

BAHHH

Posted by Friday, July 25, 2008 7/25/2008 11:41:00 PM with 0 notes | add more notes

Went Tiong Bahru today for teachers' day 排練. Abit disastrous at first but after that okay le :D hehe. Zzz... Kinda looking forward to it :P so PEOPLE, 盡情等待吧!!! :DDDD

Anyway, I screwed up my chem and physics. Nxt week is chem QA and maths. Im aiming for the top for maths!! DUN CARE LAR. MUZ MUG TILL MY BRAINS COME OUT.

T.T

YES, I AM THAT DESPERATE TO GET GOOD GRADES. URGH.

And, Im feeling really the dots so Im uploading chingay photos :D

CHINGAY 2008!!!!!!

Mingquan, Jocelyn and I-forgot-who. ZOMG so sorry! ><

Me and JH!!! With eye-liner and make-up and glitter and stuff :DD FIRST DAY OF CHINGAY. (It lasted 2 days rmbr? :P)

Pufferfish. Hamster 1. Stingray. Hamster 2.

Jiahui. Charmaine. Hwee Chian. Me.

Hahahaha. The stingray and hamster 2 is today on the train, we met hwee chian den we started giving each other these 2 names de. LOLOL.

GLITTER POOL!

LOL no lar. It's dunno hu spilled all over the road. So while waiting we (being curious and playful dunmanians), went to step and step and played with the glitter. Hehe :P

HC AND ME. MY PHONE VERSION.

HC AND ME! HER PHONE VERSION. nice right nice right nice right??? :P

Zzz. SHE CHIOBU LAAA. :DDD

Jiahui's hand. My camera. Singapore as background. YAY.

Haha. Damn nice right?? :P I love the background. Woots~

ShuJun. Me. Jolene (sry I dunno how to spell)

Both are CHIOBUs!!!!! :P

Me and JH!!!

At some road-side after first-day performance :P Haha. Mascara and eyeliner running le lo. *Ewww* :P LOLLL.

Me and JH!!! Zi-lian-ing. But the background damn nice lar :P Hehe :D

MISS SINGAPORE 2007!!!! ZOMG SHE IS DAMN-FREAKING-PRETTY LUH!!! :DDDD

Bahh. Even though I damn small but hey, I got to take photo with her okay. :P lollll!

Lalalalalalala~

Yea. That's all le. Hehe. CHINGAY was in like what, February? And yea, I missed it loads ><>.< color="#ff6666">I MISS CHINGAY!! <3

I wanna go back to Primary School. I wanna go back to childhood. I wanna start everything all over again. ><

如果我說我喜歡你，你會如何回答?

時間，過得好快。一轉眼，你已經不在我身邊了... 可是我卻還是時時刻刻的惦記着你。因爲，不管你的心裏有沒有我，我要你知道，我的心裏永遠有你。

TESTS

Posted by Wednesday, July 23, 2008 7/23/2008 03:46:00 PM with 0 notes | add more notes

PHYSICS TEST = SCREWED!!

zomg tts so... -.- urgh.. forget ti. shant tok abt it. Im juz gonna hafta study hard for the upcoming chemistry test on friday. We have like, another chem test (QA) next week when people alrdy finished theirs like last week or earlier 0.0

Zzz. Slacking in the library... Nothing to do. Sian. Shall go read chem...

WAD LIFE WE HAVE MAN. zzz...

OH YEA. THE TEACHERS' DAY THING REHEARSAL. IT'S TO BE CONFIRMED. I dun tink it's this friday... (i haf no idea why siting mummy post its on Friday. LOL) Cuz xiju ends at 6. 6!! 6!!!!!!!! So by the time we find a place and settle down and then rehearse, its gonna be like wad... 7?? 0.0 Yea. Anw, gonna discuss with them later, so, wait lor. lols.

jy jiayou :D wahahaha...~

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tata//

FRIDAY

Posted by Saturday, July 19, 2008 7/19/2008 12:21:00 AM with 0 notes | add more notes

Went Bugis with Yt, St, Jx, Ak. Jh was stressed, so she went home. Yes, Im stressed too. Everyone is. Whatever.

Had dinner and reached home at abt 10++. Damn tired. OH YA. BTW, WE GOT IN FOR THE TCHERS DAY TING :DDDDDD

Haha. But we sure muz rehearse alot more times. zzz. I hate sku lar cannnnnnnnnn. :( I duno so much stuff...

Haiz. Life is complicated and annoying. zzz. 好煩啊！...

Im sick of everything. The World. The People. and You.

I LOVE MY FRIENDS. But I wonder how many loved me back...

yt&me :D

(fyi: we were zilian-ing dere in the macs. hehehehe :P )

tata!..

Posted by Thursday, July 17, 2008 7/17/2008 11:29:00 PM with 0 notes | add more notes

aiya... 随便了... 管它去死...

siting said 2012 年是世界末日。如果真的是這樣的話，那我有好多的願望啊...!
願望呢，就先不說了. 不可能實現的，還是藏在心裏會比較好。
Inspired by Siting and Yitian's posts, I wanna say wad I wan to say too...

GOOD/CLOSE/BEST FRIENDS: 雖然以後我們各自都會走不同的路，但是我想借此機會說，如果我平時有什麽得罪你們的，請多多原諒啊。如果我們真的分開了，真的失去了聯絡，真的再也見不到面了，那你們要知道，我是愛你們的。因爲在我求學的生涯中，你們在我的生活中增添了色彩。不要忘了我... 恩。

FAMILY: 雖然你們不會看到這段話，可是我還是想說。對於我的父母，很抱歉，這幾年讓你們操了這麽多的心。讓你們生氣，也不是我想要的啊。謝謝你們一直以來給與我的鼓勵與支持；謝謝你們的栽培；謝謝你們給我的愛。如果沒辦法報答你們，那我希望來生我能有這個機會...

還有，對於其他的所有人，我想說，不管你是愛我還是恨我，希望你能記住我。不在乎天長地久，只在乎曾經擁有。我曾經擁有過，那我就已經很滿足了。對於所有我愛和愛我的人，我要你們知道，我會永遠記得你的。
能夠相識，能夠作爲朋友，已經算是一種緣分了。要把握好現在的一切啊!... 不要等到失去了才來後悔。不要等到最後一分刻才對身邊的人說," 我愛你 "。

縂覺得，在一群朋友中的我，總是被冷落，最不被重視的一個。我覺得自己好失敗... 很抱歉。就算是我想太多，就算是我太銘感，就算是我白癡沒事找事干，我還是覺得自己很不重要。恩。最不被重視的，最不被關心的，應該是我吧。很多時候，不是默默地站在一旁rot, 不然就是硬硬地插進你們的談話中。so complicated. and I feel retarded. yea.
我想要的只是一個溫暖的擁抱。
我想要的只是一句安慰的話。
我想要的只是能跟我分享心事的朋友。

是我癡心妄想麽?... 我多麽希望不是阿... 就儅我貪心好了，一個笑容，簡訊中的一個笑臉，都能夠讓我開心一整天，你知道麽? 應該是不知道吧...

對不起。我心情很是不好。就這樣了。

...

u-r-g-h

Posted by 7/17/2008 11:24:00 PM with 0 notes | add more notes

Sian. Im in a bad mood. Tis is so irritating... wl... I HATE ALL THESE LAR. WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF.

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Cleared tchers day audition today. Was a disaster, but char and another sc hu was there to watch our audition said tt we might get in. lolz. Yea. So, anything la... I dun really care abt tt right now.

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真得快烦死了...

我疯了。谢谢谢谢。
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REVIVAL

Posted by Thursday, July 10, 2008 7/10/2008 03:05:00 PM with 0 notes | add more notes

IM HERE TO REVIVE MY BLOG :D

zzz. Yea, thx arh, S1T1NG. Very nice of you to help me announce... zzz.

Anw, after 2 weeks of sku reopening, lessons are finally starting... First week was Electives, and second week was IDMI. Yea. IDMI was C.R.A.P. Total crap-.- zzz. Electives was okay. abit the diao-ded o.O

Stupid lar. Just start sku so much tests. WEEK 3 now.
WEEK 4(juz next week!!!):
Tuesday: HISTORY TEST!!!!!!!!!!!
Dunno-What-day: CHINESE TEST!!!!!!!!!

WEEK 5(juz 1 week away!!!):
Dunno-what-day: PHYSICS TEST!!!!!!!!!
Dunno-what-day: CHEMISTRY TEST!!!!!!!!!
Dunno-what-day: MATHS TEST!!!!!!!!!

ARGHH. THIS IS CO-RAZYYY. Are they trying to kill us?! T.T Arghhh... This is insanity. Tis coming Saturday me and jh going out early in the morning to do LA. Then after tt we're all meeting up for the (retarded) teachers' day rehearsal tingy. I SERIOUSLY D.U.N TINK that we'll be having any 进展 you noe.

Anw, tis is retarded. Gorilla juz left. Gotta chase after her. zzz.

TATA//

ZOMG ZHENGYUANCHANG IS @&%^&^@^*^@ !!!!!!!!!!! :D
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