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Take nothing else.
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Janelle. Born on 16th April.
I'm 80 this year, and I absolutely love knitting.
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 情人節快樂
 Posted by Saturday, February 14, 2009 2/14/2009 05:09:00 PM with 0 notes | add more notes
情人節快樂！
今年又是一個人過啦。恩。
爲什麽你沒有出現？我坐在那裏等你等了好久。對你來說可能就是一個早上，但對我來說，卻好像一輩子那麽的長。我興奮得瞪着你的出現，可你卻沒有來。也許，這輩子都不會再看到你吧。童話故事最終的結局，應該還是王子和公主在一起了吧。但我深信，我的王子會出現的。而你，並不是我的王子，我也不曾是你的公主，以後，也不會是。看開了，可是卻沒怎麽高興起來。無精打采的。我需要努力的目標。等我訂了目標，就是你消失在我生活中的那一天。我，不會在愛你了。
祝福你，
情人節快樂。
感情，非常的複雜 吧？有些事，還是不要知道得好。如果知道了會傷心，那幹嗎要知道呢？
我要離開。我要忘記這一切，忘記所有的人，甚至忘記我自己。可我從來，都不曾認識過自己，何曾來的忘記？
有緣的話，星星會讓我們再次相遇的。
我喜歡天使。非常，非常，喜歡。
黑色星期五
Posted by Friday, February 13, 2009 2/13/2009 10:23:00 PM with 0 notes | add more notes
okay fine. yt & st, here's your 黑色星期五。在白板上寫上日期時，才發現今天是黑色星期五。13th Friday. 真諷刺。明明是情人節除夕，明明是個充滿愛的季節，明明應該是個高興的一天，但卻是“黑色”的。星期五。對我來說，還向每一天都是黑色的。除了周末。周末，不用看到不想看到的人；不看到他們，就不會鬱悶；不會鬱悶，自己也開心多了。但是星期一呢？星期一，比星期五還要黑。
終于，星期五我解脫了。今天大家也都沒去。在外面儅了一天。
對於友情，我還是願意付出的。只是這次，我會很小心，很小心。我不想，在犯同樣的錯誤。
既然你選擇了愛情，放棄友情，那麽我也沒什麽可說得了。只能說，我對你非常的失望。友情，應該是比愛情還要長久的，不是麽？還有，永遠記住，愛的反面，是恨。
idk
Posted by Sunday, February 08, 2009 2/08/2009 03:03:00 PM with 0 notes | add more notes
A sudden urge made me delete all my messages in my inbox. I was actually deleting all of someone's sms. Then I got irritated by everything, so I decided to delete the rest too. Ahh. Anyway. Somehow, I don't regret. I mean, last time, messages to me were considered "precious". Yea yea, I know, I know. You're going to say that I'm mad, or crazy, or whatsoever. But those happy moments, encouraging moments, and moments of blessings were important and memorable to me.
I don't know why I no longer feel so now. Is the world changing? The people and things around me changing? Or is it me who is changing all along? I'm lost in my own world when I'm alone. I get to think. I get my own space, and my own universe.
Fine. So I admit that I'm changing. But you got to admit, that those around me are also changing. Especially some people. I don't know. But you do. you have to.
I'm sick of many things, sick of many people, sick of many habits.
So I'm trying so hard to change. Attempted. Tried. Failed. Attempted again. It's always a cycle, and will always be. When will it finally succeed? I don't know.
Life is unpredictable. People come, and go. Nothing lasts forever. I finally understand. There's meanings behind everything, it's just about whether you understand. It's not hidden for nothing you know.
I wanna jump into the sea. I wanna run along the coast and let the wind hit my face. I wanna bury my face in my pillow and sleep forever. I wanna bang my head against the wall so hard that I'll forget everything that I don't wanna remember. I wanna run away from this world that I'm so sick of and start my life anew. I wanna dream though knowing that I can't live it. I wanna lean on your shoulders forever and cry till I have no tears left. I wanna go with you to the end of the horizon, stay there forever and never come back. I wanna dance till my feet can't hold it anymore. I wanna scream till my heart's empty. I wanna sing till I have no more voice left in me. I wanna live till there's no live in me. I wanna love till there's no more love in me. I wanna catch the stars when the moon comes up. I wanna see the world crash the same way I saw mine did. I wanna live in a fairytale that will never end. I wanna live a dream that will never come true.
I wanna......
Today
Posted by Saturday, February 07, 2009 2/07/2009 09:44:00 PM with 0 notes | add more notes
Didn't do much today. There's not really anything for me to blog. Actually. Went out to study with Siting and Jiahui today. Wasn't exactly effective, but was fun. The feeling of breathing some fresh air is awesome. Walking around the airport was cooling.
School's starting to get busy, and homework's piling up on me, 'till I can hardly breathe. So many things to catch up with, finish up and settle. Getting really moody nowadays.
Maybe I should just keep things to myself. What's the use of telling others? Nobody will understand. anyway. So why bother? I don't know. I just don't know anymore. But maybe being alone gives me more space and time to think, and ponder about the questions that were left unanswered in my fade memory.
So just leave me alone.
Magic, is merely an illusion of the human eye. But what about love?
It's an illusion of the heart.
FRIDAY
Posted by Friday, February 06, 2009 2/06/2009 10:39:00 PM with 0 notes | add more notes
我只知道有黑色星期一。但是星期五对我来说，一样的黑。心情不好。也不知道自己都在郁闷些什么。只知道，最近很烦。非常的烦。超级无敌郁闷地烦。好多东西要做。好多事情要去想清楚。瘸了一个星期，终于可以正常的走路。虽然还是很慢啦... 不过至少比星期一来得好。
为了做那些堆积如山的功课，为了对得起自己，为了对得起父母，我本来决定要退了戏剧的。是啊，现在的决定还是要退了戏剧。可是被人骂了。因为我逃了活动。
最近老是被骂。
一个人郁闷的感觉，不好受...
我想哭。真得很想哭。肩膀，借我一下好么?
Updates
Posted by Thursday, February 05, 2009 2/05/2009 08:13:00 PM with 0 notes | add more notes
There's quite some stuff happening lately. But I don't really know what... Ahh well. Confused about many things, so i'm kinda lost. Not in a very good mood. Don't feel like talking to anyone at all. And all of a sudden, I'm getting used to being alone. Loneliness. I don't know why.
Getting tired very easily nowadays. Don't know why either. Maybe I'm dying. Hmm.. :\
So many things to think about, so many things to care about, and so many things to resolve. I just don't know why am I doing certain things now. Doesn't make any sense, does it?
Was crazy enough to go and watch Josph zhengyuanchang's show. Was a sudden craze. With Huiying. Haha. Don't worry huiying, it was okay [: Love ya.. It was really crazy. I mean, 10 minutes to the show and we've actually got tickets (someone doesn't want his). 10 rowth seats. Can you believe it? I mean, we were lucky, yea. Definitely. I mean, maybe it's fate. I was just about to give up... :\ so, 111 bucks and i'm off to see zyc.
Didn't manage to catch ZhengYuanchang. Ahh well. 10th row is enough to make me happy (:
Zhengyuanchang's character in the show is 李想.
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"你是谁？" "啊，你好！我的名字叫李想！李安的李，梦想的想。李想。" "啊...李想啊...那你的理想是什么？" "我的理想？...哦我的理想是要赚很多很多的钱！"
...
这出舞台戏演得很好，也让我思考了很多。剧中，李想说过这么一句话："我们为什么要上班？"
是啊。他说得很对。为什么要上班呢？就如同我们为什么要上学一样。是啊。为什么要上学？上学就是为了要吸取更多的知识，以后才能赚很多很多的钱，才能有个美好的将来。好啊。那试问，将来的定义是什么？美好的将来，那又是什么？是大家一致的想法--转很多很多的钱，有个幸福美满的家庭，开着豪华的车，过着奢侈的生活么？
其实我也不知道我想要什么...
"总监，我有不会的事情想要问你..." "啊，李想啊。坐啊。有什么事情想问我？" "就是啊...我有了喜欢的人......" "呃...为什么要告诉我这个？干嘛来找我？" "因为老板说过啊，如果有什么不会的就可以来找总监你...." ".......好吧。那你先告诉我，你喜欢的人是谁？" "呃...我喜欢的人...我喜欢的人......我喜欢的人..是谁啊？" "...我怎么会知道？你不是来告诉我的吗？..." "对阿...可是我又记不起来......" "好了好了。我来说吧。你喜欢的人，是我。" "啊？我喜欢的人是你？" "对。" "唔...我喜欢的人..是你？" "对啊。你喜欢的人就是我。" "哦...所以我喜欢的人是你..." "...不。其实你喜欢的是琦琦。" "啊？？不是啊...我喜欢的人是你...！" "不对。你喜欢的人是琦琦。" "我喜欢的人不是琦琦，是你啊！" "你喜欢的人是琦琦。" "我喜欢的是你啦！" "不是我，是琦琦。" "不是琦琦啦，是你！" "人家都说了我喜欢的人是你嘛！~" "你根本不清楚自己喜欢的人是谁。" "我现在很清楚，我喜欢的人就是你！"
hahaha. kawaii (:
到底喜欢谁，不喜欢谁，不是靠别人说的。靠的是，自己的心。但如果你看错了自己的心，那谁也帮不了你了。喜欢？不喜欢？爱情？很简单的。喜欢就喜欢，不喜欢就不喜欢。我搞不懂，为什么人总是要把感情的事弄得这么复杂？最后搞得自己伤恒累累。这又何必呢？我记得，第一次喜欢一个人，是很高兴的。只要一天看到他一次，我就很满足了。而且心情也会跟着好起来。虽然最后把对他的那份好感藏在了心底，虽然到了最后心还是碎了，但我不在乎。记忆，不管是好是坏，都是有回忆的价值的。喜欢，这个感觉，不会一辈子存在的。到了一定的程度，它会开始改变。而只有到了那个时候，你才会发现，其实爱情，很简单。
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HAPPY (belated) BIRTHDAY TO DINOSAUR KOR. xD wahaha. 31st January. Sorry I was 6 days late... :\ LOLL. ahh well. It's the thought that counts x) Anyway! SWEET 16. LOL. xD Wish you all the best for your studies and stuff :D Jiayous for O's.
pighead. xD "你是谁？"
"啊，你好！我的名字叫李想！李安的李，梦想的想。李想。"
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情人節快樂
Posted by Saturday, February 14, 2009 2/14/2009 05:09:00 PM with 0 notes | add more notes
情人節快樂！
今年又是一個人過啦。恩。
爲什麽你沒有出現？我坐在那裏等你等了好久。對你來說可能就是一個早上，但對我來說，卻好像一輩子那麽的長。我興奮得瞪着你的出現，可你卻沒有來。也許，這輩子都不會再看到你吧。童話故事最終的結局，應該還是王子和公主在一起了吧。但我深信，我的王子會出現的。而你，並不是我的王子，我也不曾是你的公主，以後，也不會是。看開了，可是卻沒怎麽高興起來。無精打采的。我需要努力的目標。等我訂了目標，就是你消失在我生活中的那一天。我，不會在愛你了。
祝福你，
情人節快樂。
感情，非常的複雜 吧？有些事，還是不要知道得好。如果知道了會傷心，那幹嗎要知道呢？
我要離開。我要忘記這一切，忘記所有的人，甚至忘記我自己。可我從來，都不曾認識過自己，何曾來的忘記？
有緣的話，星星會讓我們再次相遇的。
我喜歡天使。非常，非常，喜歡。
黑色星期五
Posted by Friday, February 13, 2009 2/13/2009 10:23:00 PM with 0 notes | add more notes
okay fine. yt & st, here's your 黑色星期五。在白板上寫上日期時，才發現今天是黑色星期五。13th Friday. 真諷刺。明明是情人節除夕，明明是個充滿愛的季節，明明應該是個高興的一天，但卻是“黑色”的。星期五。對我來說，還向每一天都是黑色的。除了周末。周末，不用看到不想看到的人；不看到他們，就不會鬱悶；不會鬱悶，自己也開心多了。但是星期一呢？星期一，比星期五還要黑。
終于，星期五我解脫了。今天大家也都沒去。在外面儅了一天。
對於友情，我還是願意付出的。只是這次，我會很小心，很小心。我不想，在犯同樣的錯誤。
既然你選擇了愛情，放棄友情，那麽我也沒什麽可說得了。只能說，我對你非常的失望。友情，應該是比愛情還要長久的，不是麽？還有，永遠記住，愛的反面，是恨。
idk
Posted by Sunday, February 08, 2009 2/08/2009 03:03:00 PM with 0 notes | add more notes
A sudden urge made me delete all my messages in my inbox. I was actually deleting all of someone's sms. Then I got irritated by everything, so I decided to delete the rest too. Ahh. Anyway. Somehow, I don't regret. I mean, last time, messages to me were considered "precious". Yea yea, I know, I know. You're going to say that I'm mad, or crazy, or whatsoever. But those happy moments, encouraging moments, and moments of blessings were important and memorable to me.
I don't know why I no longer feel so now. Is the world changing? The people and things around me changing? Or is it me who is changing all along? I'm lost in my own world when I'm alone. I get to think. I get my own space, and my own universe.
Fine. So I admit that I'm changing. But you got to admit, that those around me are also changing. Especially some people. I don't know. But you do. you have to.
I'm sick of many things, sick of many people, sick of many habits.
So I'm trying so hard to change. Attempted. Tried. Failed. Attempted again. It's always a cycle, and will always be. When will it finally succeed? I don't know.
Life is unpredictable. People come, and go. Nothing lasts forever. I finally understand. There's meanings behind everything, it's just about whether you understand. It's not hidden for nothing you know.
I wanna jump into the sea. I wanna run along the coast and let the wind hit my face. I wanna bury my face in my pillow and sleep forever. I wanna bang my head against the wall so hard that I'll forget everything that I don't wanna remember. I wanna run away from this world that I'm so sick of and start my life anew. I wanna dream though knowing that I can't live it. I wanna lean on your shoulders forever and cry till I have no tears left. I wanna go with you to the end of the horizon, stay there forever and never come back. I wanna dance till my feet can't hold it anymore. I wanna scream till my heart's empty. I wanna sing till I have no more voice left in me. I wanna live till there's no live in me. I wanna love till there's no more love in me. I wanna catch the stars when the moon comes up. I wanna see the world crash the same way I saw mine did. I wanna live in a fairytale that will never end. I wanna live a dream that will never come true.
I wanna......
Today
Posted by Saturday, February 07, 2009 2/07/2009 09:44:00 PM with 0 notes | add more notes
Didn't do much today. There's not really anything for me to blog. Actually. Went out to study with Siting and Jiahui today. Wasn't exactly effective, but was fun. The feeling of breathing some fresh air is awesome. Walking around the airport was cooling.
School's starting to get busy, and homework's piling up on me, 'till I can hardly breathe. So many things to catch up with, finish up and settle. Getting really moody nowadays.
Maybe I should just keep things to myself. What's the use of telling others? Nobody will understand. anyway. So why bother? I don't know. I just don't know anymore. But maybe being alone gives me more space and time to think, and ponder about the questions that were left unanswered in my fade memory.
So just leave me alone.
Magic, is merely an illusion of the human eye. But what about love?
It's an illusion of the heart.
FRIDAY
Posted by Friday, February 06, 2009 2/06/2009 10:39:00 PM with 0 notes | add more notes
我只知道有黑色星期一。但是星期五对我来说，一样的黑。心情不好。也不知道自己都在郁闷些什么。只知道，最近很烦。非常的烦。超级无敌郁闷地烦。好多东西要做。好多事情要去想清楚。瘸了一个星期，终于可以正常的走路。虽然还是很慢啦... 不过至少比星期一来得好。
为了做那些堆积如山的功课，为了对得起自己，为了对得起父母，我本来决定要退了戏剧的。是啊，现在的决定还是要退了戏剧。可是被人骂了。因为我逃了活动。
最近老是被骂。
一个人郁闷的感觉，不好受...
我想哭。真得很想哭。肩膀，借我一下好么?
Updates
Posted by Thursday, February 05, 2009 2/05/2009 08:13:00 PM with 0 notes | add more notes
There's quite some stuff happening lately. But I don't really know what... Ahh well. Confused about many things, so i'm kinda lost. Not in a very good mood. Don't feel like talking to anyone at all. And all of a sudden, I'm getting used to being alone. Loneliness. I don't know why.
Getting tired very easily nowadays. Don't know why either. Maybe I'm dying. Hmm.. :\
So many things to think about, so many things to care about, and so many things to resolve. I just don't know why am I doing certain things now. Doesn't make any sense, does it?
Was crazy enough to go and watch Josph zhengyuanchang's show. Was a sudden craze. With Huiying. Haha. Don't worry huiying, it was okay [: Love ya.. It was really crazy. I mean, 10 minutes to the show and we've actually got tickets (someone doesn't want his). 10 rowth seats. Can you believe it? I mean, we were lucky, yea. Definitely. I mean, maybe it's fate. I was just about to give up... :\ so, 111 bucks and i'm off to see zyc.
Didn't manage to catch ZhengYuanchang. Ahh well. 10th row is enough to make me happy (:
Zhengyuanchang's character in the show is 李想.
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"你是谁？" "啊，你好！我的名字叫李想！李安的李，梦想的想。李想。" "啊...李想啊...那你的理想是什么？" "我的理想？...哦我的理想是要赚很多很多的钱！"
...
这出舞台戏演得很好，也让我思考了很多。剧中，李想说过这么一句话："我们为什么要上班？"
是啊。他说得很对。为什么要上班呢？就如同我们为什么要上学一样。是啊。为什么要上学？上学就是为了要吸取更多的知识，以后才能赚很多很多的钱，才能有个美好的将来。好啊。那试问，将来的定义是什么？美好的将来，那又是什么？是大家一致的想法--转很多很多的钱，有个幸福美满的家庭，开着豪华的车，过着奢侈的生活么？
其实我也不知道我想要什么...
"总监，我有不会的事情想要问你..." "啊，李想啊。坐啊。有什么事情想问我？" "就是啊...我有了喜欢的人......" "呃...为什么要告诉我这个？干嘛来找我？" "因为老板说过啊，如果有什么不会的就可以来找总监你...." ".......好吧。那你先告诉我，你喜欢的人是谁？" "呃...我喜欢的人...我喜欢的人......我喜欢的人..是谁啊？" "...我怎么会知道？你不是来告诉我的吗？..." "对阿...可是我又记不起来......" "好了好了。我来说吧。你喜欢的人，是我。" "啊？我喜欢的人是你？" "对。" "唔...我喜欢的人..是你？" "对啊。你喜欢的人就是我。" "哦...所以我喜欢的人是你..." "...不。其实你喜欢的是琦琦。" "啊？？不是啊...我喜欢的人是你...！" "不对。你喜欢的人是琦琦。" "我喜欢的人不是琦琦，是你啊！" "你喜欢的人是琦琦。" "我喜欢的是你啦！" "不是我，是琦琦。" "不是琦琦啦，是你！" "人家都说了我喜欢的人是你嘛！~" "你根本不清楚自己喜欢的人是谁。" "我现在很清楚，我喜欢的人就是你！"
hahaha. kawaii (:
到底喜欢谁，不喜欢谁，不是靠别人说的。靠的是，自己的心。但如果你看错了自己的心，那谁也帮不了你了。喜欢？不喜欢？爱情？很简单的。喜欢就喜欢，不喜欢就不喜欢。我搞不懂，为什么人总是要把感情的事弄得这么复杂？最后搞得自己伤恒累累。这又何必呢？我记得，第一次喜欢一个人，是很高兴的。只要一天看到他一次，我就很满足了。而且心情也会跟着好起来。虽然最后把对他的那份好感藏在了心底，虽然到了最后心还是碎了，但我不在乎。记忆，不管是好是坏，都是有回忆的价值的。喜欢，这个感觉，不会一辈子存在的。到了一定的程度，它会开始改变。而只有到了那个时候，你才会发现，其实爱情，很简单。
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HAPPY (belated) BIRTHDAY TO DINOSAUR KOR. xD wahaha. 31st January. Sorry I was 6 days late... :\ LOLL. ahh well. It's the thought that counts x) Anyway! SWEET 16. LOL. xD Wish you all the best for your studies and stuff :D Jiayous for O's.
pighead. xD "你是谁？"
"啊，你好！我的名字叫李想！李安的李，梦想的想。李想。"
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J A N E L L E Like fire and rain, you drive me insane♥
NAME: Janelle
AGE: 80
DATE OF BIRTH:16th April
ZODIAC: Aries
NATIONALITY: Singaporean
COUNTRY: Singapore
STATUS: I'm gay
SCHOOL: SAPS, DHS
Favourite
1. Foods: Mum's cooking, pastries, KOI, ice cream, plums, and basically everything.
2. Drinks: Non-carbonated ><
3. Fruits: ALL!♥
4. Deserts: none that I don't like.
5. Colours: Pink, blue, purple.
6. Pet: None
7. Singer: 2AM, SJ, SNSD, B2ST, MISS A, F(x), BIG BANG. (this list is endless~)
Loves
1. Taking photos
2. Hanging out with friends, shopping
3. Singing
4. Movies
5. Cute stuffs
Hates
1. BUGS, especially butterflies.
2. Hypocrites
3. Heights
4. Darkness
Things I currently do
1. Going to school and mugging my brains out
2. Keeping in contact with friends ♥
3. Enjoying life (minus the studying part)
4. Growing up
5. Playing Piano and guitar (for fun)
Wish Lists
1. Change my hairstyle
2. *secret*
3. Get good grades
4. Fly to Korea and Taiwan to meet my husbands (HAHAHA)
5. Shopping
6. For all these to be over.
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2. I will erase those inactive links/removed me from your blog
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My History saving my memories.
Site name: Diary
Site link: http://bahbahblackgoat.blogspot.com/
Site opened: May 2006
About this site:
I have been blogging since 2006. It's kind of like an on-off thing cause I don't blog regularly. It didn't start off with this name. I changed it to this one cause I wanted to be funny. But I guess I wanna keep it this way now. Haha
Blog
yeah I have a tumblr. But it's dead too. hahaha.
Credits
Designed by Mary.
Background by Chocolaterie
Materials by ChocoGoodies, Sorahana & Rebecca
Banner by TheFadingNight
Tell me nicely if I forgotten to credit you. Do not complain anything here cause it's 100% belongs to me.
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