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Today

Posted by Saturday, February 07, 2009 2/07/2009 09:44:00 PM with 0 notes | add more notes

Didn't do much today. There's not really anything for me to blog. Actually. Went out to study with Siting and Jiahui today. Wasn't exactly effective, but was fun. The feeling of breathing some fresh air is awesome. Walking around the airport was cooling.

School's starting to get busy, and homework's piling up on me, 'till I can hardly breathe. So many things to catch up with, finish up and settle. Getting really moody nowadays.

Maybe I should just keep things to myself. What's the use of telling others? Nobody will understand. anyway. So why bother? I don't know. I just don't know anymore. But maybe being alone gives me more space and time to think, and ponder about the questions that were left unanswered in my fade memory.

So just leave me alone.

Magic, is merely an illusion of the human eye. But what about love?
It's an illusion of the heart.

FRIDAY

Posted by Friday, February 06, 2009 2/06/2009 10:39:00 PM with 0 notes | add more notes

我只知道有黑色星期一。但是星期五对我来说，一样的黑。心情不好。也不知道自己都在郁闷些什么。只知道，最近很烦。非常的烦。超级无敌郁闷地烦。好多东西要做。好多事情要去想清楚。瘸了一个星期，终于可以正常的走路。虽然还是很慢啦... 不过至少比星期一来得好。
为了做那些堆积如山的功课，为了对得起自己，为了对得起父母，我本来决定要退了戏剧的。是啊，现在的决定还是要退了戏剧。可是被人骂了。因为我逃了活动。

最近老是被骂。

一个人郁闷的感觉，不好受...

我想哭。真得很想哭。肩膀，借我一下好么?

Updates

Posted by Thursday, February 05, 2009 2/05/2009 08:13:00 PM with 0 notes | add more notes

There's quite some stuff happening lately. But I don't really know what... Ahh well. Confused about many things, so i'm kinda lost. Not in a very good mood. Don't feel like talking to anyone at all. And all of a sudden, I'm getting used to being alone. Loneliness. I don't know why.

Getting tired very easily nowadays. Don't know why either. Maybe I'm dying. Hmm.. :\

So many things to think about, so many things to care about, and so many things to resolve. I just don't know why am I doing certain things now. Doesn't make any sense, does it?

Was crazy enough to go and watch Josph zhengyuanchang's show. Was a sudden craze. With Huiying. Haha. Don't worry huiying, it was okay [: Love ya.. It was really crazy. I mean, 10 minutes to the show and we've actually got tickets (someone doesn't want his). 10 rowth seats. Can you believe it? I mean, we were lucky, yea. Definitely. I mean, maybe it's fate. I was just about to give up... :\ so, 111 bucks and i'm off to see zyc.

Didn't manage to catch ZhengYuanchang. Ahh well. 10th row is enough to make me happy (:

Zhengyuanchang's character in the show is 李想.

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"你是谁？"

"啊，你好！我的名字叫李想！李安的李，梦想的想。李想。"

"啊...李想啊...那你的理想是什么？"

"我的理想？...哦我的理想是要赚很多很多的钱！"

...

这出舞台戏演得很好，也让我思考了很多。剧中，李想说过这么一句话："我们为什么要上班？"

是啊。他说得很对。为什么要上班呢？就如同我们为什么要上学一样。是啊。为什么要上学？上学就是为了要吸取更多的知识，以后才能赚很多很多的钱，才能有个美好的将来。好啊。那试问，将来的定义是什么？美好的将来，那又是什么？是大家一致的想法--转很多很多的钱，有个幸福美满的家庭，开着豪华的车，过着奢侈的生活么？

其实我也不知道我想要什么...

"总监，我有不会的事情想要问你..."

"啊，李想啊。坐啊。有什么事情想问我？"

"就是啊...我有了喜欢的人......"

"呃...为什么要告诉我这个？干嘛来找我？"

"因为老板说过啊，如果有什么不会的就可以来找总监你...."

".......好吧。那你先告诉我，你喜欢的人是谁？"

"呃...我喜欢的人...我喜欢的人......我喜欢的人..是谁啊？"

"...我怎么会知道？你不是来告诉我的吗？..."

"对阿...可是我又记不起来......"

"好了好了。我来说吧。你喜欢的人，是我。"

"啊？我喜欢的人是你？"

"对。"

"唔...我喜欢的人..是你？"

"对啊。你喜欢的人就是我。"

"哦...所以我喜欢的人是你..."

"...不。其实你喜欢的是琦琦。"

"啊？？不是啊...我喜欢的人是你...！"

"不对。你喜欢的人是琦琦。"

"我喜欢的人不是琦琦，是你啊！"

"你喜欢的人是琦琦。"

"我喜欢的是你啦！"

"不是我，是琦琦。"

"不是琦琦啦，是你！"

"人家都说了我喜欢的人是你嘛！~"

"你根本不清楚自己喜欢的人是谁。"

"我现在很清楚，我喜欢的人就是你！"

hahaha. kawaii (:

到底喜欢谁，不喜欢谁，不是靠别人说的。靠的是，自己的心。但如果你看错了自己的心，那谁也帮不了你了。喜欢？不喜欢？爱情？很简单的。喜欢就喜欢，不喜欢就不喜欢。我搞不懂，为什么人总是要把感情的事弄得这么复杂？最后搞得自己伤恒累累。这又何必呢？我记得，第一次喜欢一个人，是很高兴的。只要一天看到他一次，我就很满足了。而且心情也会跟着好起来。虽然最后把对他的那份好感藏在了心底，虽然到了最后心还是碎了，但我不在乎。记忆，不管是好是坏，都是有回忆的价值的。喜欢，这个感觉，不会一辈子存在的。到了一定的程度，它会开始改变。而只有到了那个时候，你才会发现，其实爱情，很简单。

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HAPPY (belated) BIRTHDAY TO DINOSAUR KOR. xD wahaha. 31st January. Sorry I was 6 days late... :\ LOLL. ahh well. It's the thought that counts x)

Anyway! SWEET 16. LOL. xD Wish you all the best for your studies and stuff :D Jiayous for O's.

pighead. xD

"你是谁？"
"啊，你好！我的名字叫李想！李安的李，梦想的想。李想。"

HAPPY 初一

Posted by Monday, January 26, 2009 1/26/2009 02:49:00 PM with 0 notes | add more notes

HAPPY 初一.
Not in a good mood.

"My wife is 18"
damn nice. Male lead is damn charming. Makes me wanna get married. =\
ahh well.

tata/

HAPPY CNY EVE

Posted by Sunday, January 25, 2009 1/25/2009 10:13:00 AM with 0 notes | add more notes

HAPPY CNY'S EVE PEOPLE! [:

hahaha.

Going out soon. So shall post more next time or something :D

and monee, RP's SO MUCHHHH BETTERRRRRR. BOO HOO [:
hoho xP

Monika you boob. RP is so NOT RIP. and no he doesn't own RP. BOOOO

:D

Em0

Posted by Thursday, January 22, 2009 1/22/2009 11:20:00 PM with 0 notes | add more notes

Just a post before I wander off to dreamland. Cuz I'm lost and confused. I have no idea what to do. Just call me crazy. I don't get it. Is it that complicated? I don't think so you know. Many things are unexpected. Nothing is defined in life. So why do some people set their conclusions so early? In the end, as time pass by, you'll just find yourself with a complete different mindset from the start, where you set that conclusion. yourself. You thought life was defined. But it's not. Most of the time, the endings will just catch you unexpected. So what? That doesn't mean that you can run away. It doesn't mean that you can hide away and expect the problem to solve itself. It doesn't work that way, my dear. You have to work your way out. Although I haven't mastered it, but now I understand. I get it now. Finally. I guess?

One point I can't stand: Making empty promises. If you can't live up to your promises, don't even BOTHER about making any more, okay? It's useless. Completely, totally, useless. And you'll just portray yourself as some selfish bastard who can't even keep your own promises. It's not fun at all. And it comes with responsibility. It actually reflects your character, you know that? Yea I hope you do. Because yes, I AM actually talking about someone here. In this paragraph. Don't really bother about naming the person. Just, don't do it anymore. Because you've already broken all (every, single, one of your promises). So don't bother. kay? Cuz I don't really give a damn. Plus, you still have many broken promises to fulfill. So live with it. And if you have a problem, then ask yourself for the answer. Because simply, I don't have it, and I won't.

ignore me.

Elm0's Em0.

?
A question mark.
That, my dear, is my life.

SWEET 16 CHAR'DARLING

Posted by 1/22/2009 10:32:00 PM with 0 notes | add more notes

HAPPY SWEET 16 CHARMAINE DARLING (:

So cool that you're 16 now :D NC16. hahaha. You're like the bestest friend ever :D Always there for me and stuff. Haha. Plus, we share the most secrets. xD Jiayou and good luck for all the stuff (: haha. Remember all the times when we have guitar lessons and stuff? LOL. It was damn fun haha. And going out to play. lol. Sorry about the rabbit clip... ): The twerp who broke it haven't return me one yet... But don't worry I'll make sure the twerp returns :D hehe. yep. though I don't think you'll see this. haha. But still... =P happy happy birthday~~
ily♥
(:

Anyways. Lunar new year's coming. We're going out to play/eat, right? :D haha. If not it'll be kinda lonely. Though there really are loads of stuff to do and chiong, but I still wanna play :D Hey you can't deprive me of my holidays can you ;) So well... Got to catch up abit with shimei and miao ytd. haha. Was fun.

It's year 4. And it's another year to anticipate to.
Surprise? I don't think so.

tata/

NEW YEAR

Posted by Thursday, January 01, 2009 1/01/2009 09:40:00 PM with 0 notes | add more notes

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

This was saved as a draft. For fun. Ahh well...
New Year was nothing much. School's boring. and irritating. So much stuff. Still....learning how to cope. Luckily there're friends around to help :DD

HOMEWORK ARGHH.

damn :\

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVE

Posted by Wednesday, December 31, 2008 12/31/2008 09:59:00 PM with 0 notes | add more notes

Today's new year's eve! Get high peeps! [: hahahah.

Past two days went out to meet st, yt, cy, ak, lc (luchang). Was for the film thing. But apparently we didn't film anything? And the only "memory" I have left of yesterday (lc wasn't there, btw) is being scolded AND chased away by some (dumb) librarian? Ohhkay. Not funny.

School's starting...

Damn you! >:C

tata/

till then, you'll know everything.

Crap abt so what ifs

Posted by Friday, December 26, 2008 12/26/2008 10:04:00 PM with 0 notes | add more notes

So what if I am?
So what if I do?
So what if I said?
So what if...

It aint gonna change anything so FACE IT. damn.

Twilight

Posted by 12/26/2008 09:22:00 PM with 0 notes | add more notes

ZOMFREAKING天 Robert Pattinson is so cute and hot. xDD

[esp this one!!(above)]

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Twilight amazing. Totally made my day and money worth it!♥♥ [:
So I'm now dying to read that series. Haven't got the chance to buy Twilight yet =\ But I'm soooo gonna get it soon heh heh heh~

It's been fun going out. Haha. Yitian and siting are crap. Siting's interested in "Mr. Rochester" in the book "Jane Eyre". And Mr. Rochester was being described by Jiahui as the "Old, dying man". Haha. So we concluded that siting's interested in "old dying men". LOL @ it!

Okay so christmas is over. Which means that new school year's gonna start and I'll be facing more bi-atches><

tata/

It doesn't really matter now, does it? When everything falls through, the world will end, together with our love. Courage is all it takes. But you left. Nothing else is gonna work. So why bother? And I'm still going to beaches. You know why? Because you said you love to watch sunrise beside the waves. ♥

MERRY X'MAS

Posted by Thursday, December 25, 2008 12/25/2008 10:00:00 PM with 0 notes | add more notes

MERRY X'MAS PEEPS!! ♥

hohoho. Even though I didn't have any christmas trees or santas, but christmas was nice [:

Hehe. Played the whole day.

Watching twilight tomorrow [:

tata/

It's a season of loves♥♥♥

WYY (Day 1)

Posted by Monday, December 22, 2008 12/22/2008 10:21:00 PM with 0 notes | add more notes

Day 1 of WYY. Damn tired. T.T Now my legs are very pain. ]:

Sobing.

Haish. Tired + the fact that I don't know anyone in the group. At least not close enough to talk to-.- So I was just wandering by myself. What fun huh. sian. It's like, so boring. freaking boring.

T.T

Tomorrow there's more to come. And the mass dance is extremely lame-.- Can't stand it. No offence though.. =\

Okay I'm bored. Holidays are going to end!! Chiong homeworkkkkkkkkkkk! D;

注定的重逢。

我在茫茫人海中寻找一世的恋人，你的容颜在上辈子就烙印在我心底。当你陌生迷茫的瞳孔与眼神撞进我的脑海中的第一刻，我便化作成影子在背后守护你，直至你那白净的羽翼丰盈。

No Title

Posted by Saturday, December 20, 2008 12/20/2008 10:57:00 PM with 0 notes | add more notes

Monday and Tuesday will be WYY. Damn. I don't want to go ): 8am-5.30pm WTHH. Some kind of life huh. Haish. Plus we're not going to do anything benefactial to us or anything else.. o.O So lame.

When're we gonna watch twilight tgt?? =]

After Monday's, or after Tuesday's wyy? No more other time le... =\

Wednesday was my sis's violin diploma exam. It was earlyyyy in the morning. Yea lol. And after that our whole family went ecp to play. Okay. More like exercising. Haha. Rode bike and stuff. Was tiring but fun too. lol.

Time's flying.. o.o

你哭着醒来，为擦干泪的明晰让我心痛。你问为什么梦会那样悲伤，我回答那只是个梦，时间久了就会被遗忘。你似懂的点头，也许当梦真正消失之时，心口的忧伤依旧若隐若现。

0.0

Posted by Friday, December 19, 2008 12/19/2008 11:54:00 PM with 0 notes | add more notes

today went bball and stuff wif jx, st, cy, yt, jh. lol. 6 ppl. haha. damn fun =]

Nth much to update. Haish.

lamers 倚天 & 日华姐:
BECAUSE I CAN'T POST OR ANYTHING ON QQ SO I SHALL SAY HERE.
GO AND DIE LAR YOUR HAO YUAN HERE HAO YUAN THERE VERY FUNNY AR.
zzz.. -.-
Lame lar you two. zzzz. I shall try and find out why I can't post at QQ-.- Lolll

Christmas is coming (:

<33 tata/

Posted by Saturday, December 13, 2008 12/13/2008 11:04:00 PM with 0 notes | add more notes

Yitian's back! woohoo~ LOL.
Let's go out someday (: And I haven't distributed my chocs yet... =X
And ahem* mrs jung/heroine ate all of hers up. How very nice (: ....
L0L jk.

Anyway, short post cuz there's really NOthing to blog abt in my boring life cuz its in the boring holidays.. =/

So not looking forward to Tanjong Rhu's campus and SOOO looking forward to X'mas (:

SAD movies

Posted by Sunday, December 07, 2008 12/07/2008 09:12:00 PM with 0 notes | add more notes

Woots here come my second post of the day :D haha. Just finished watching Koizora (aka Sky of Love) ;) and mannnn it's so romantic and of course, sad.

Go and watch it if you haven't. It's nice but weird too... =/ hmm...
hahas (=

Okay so there's one more movie that's something like this too. Haish. But abit more "pure" lah hor. lol. xD But it's nice too(:

It's called "A walk to remember". Go and watch it:D Nice past time during holidays. Haha.
Hardly completed homework. Gotta get off comp soon. Was hanging on comp for almost the whole day. =X

tata/

Now it's hello homework and byebye computer(:
....

如果有缘的话，星星会让我们在相遇♥

boring

Posted by 12/07/2008 02:03:00 PM with 0 notes | add more notes

Okay. After reading mrs gst's blog, i'm very motivated...

...to come here and scold people and express my extreme unhappiness hahaha.

Anyway, I totally see NO point in grouping us in such a random manner like wth do you see sec 3s getting new best friends through wyy?! Plus, we are NOT those high and crazy people who can just hug and interact and do what-so-ever-they-want with people they don't know from different schools. WTH Do you expect everyone to be the same character?! Then they won't be unique. You can't just force your freaking so-called concept on every-single-one-of-us can you?

Okay this is getting ridiculous. and i seriously don't want to go... Unless YOU can tell me what's the point of going. But you can't, right? So forget about it.

Was having a funny convo wif mrs gst. xD

siting_lu@yahoo.com (E-mail address not verified) says:
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siting_lu@yahoo.com (E-mail address not verified) says:
lame la u
[c=6]JANELLE[/c]]} *star [u]北极星[/u][c=37]♥[/c]}} says:
wad lar
[c=6]JANELLE[/c]]} *star [u]北极星[/u][c=37]♥[/c]}} says:
wth can
[c=6]JANELLE[/c]]} *star [u]北极星[/u][c=37]♥[/c]}} says:
interact my 脚 lor
[c=6]JANELLE[/c]]} *star [u]北极星[/u][c=37]♥[/c]}} says:
>=C
siting_lu@yahoo.com (E-mail address not verified) says:
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[c=6]JANELLE[/c]]} *star [u]北极星[/u][c=37]♥[/c]}} says:
lol
siting_lu@yahoo.com (E-mail address not verified) says:
okok
siting_lu@yahoo.com (E-mail address not verified) says:
go blog go blog
siting_lu@yahoo.com (E-mail address not verified) says:
later ur foot not happy
[c=6]JANELLE[/c]]} *star [u]北极星[/u][c=37]♥[/c]}} says:
-.-
[c=6]JANELLE[/c]]} *star [u]北极星[/u][c=37]♥[/c]}} says:
then go work for happy feet
[c=6]JANELLE[/c]]} *star [u]北极星[/u][c=37]♥[/c]}} says:
LOLLLLLLLLL
siting_lu@yahoo.com (E-mail address not verified) says:
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siting_lu@yahoo.com (E-mail address not verified) says:
lame la u

hahaha. It's an inside-joke about the happy feet thingy. It's actually a temporary stall they've(jh, gst, and jx) has worked for some time ago. LOL. And yea, it's called "happy feet". Haha.

and zomg I've finished watching "Fated to Love you"!!! :D SO NICE OMGGG. ;DD
Ruan Jing Tian is so freaking cute~~ OMGGG. I nearly nose-bleed towards the end. Haha.
Okay I'm hua-chi-ing. So what? Hey loving cute guys is no crime dokay :D

I ♥ RUAN JING TIAN!! =]]

世界上最遥远的距离，不是生与死，而是我就站在你面前，你却
不知道我爱你。♥
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世界上最遥远的距离，不是我就站在你面前，你却不知道我爱
你，而是明明彼此相爱，却不能在一起。♥
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世界上最遥远的距离，不是明明彼此相爱，却不能在一起，而是
明明在意，却假装没有把你放在心里。♥
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世界上最遥远的距离，不是明明在意，却假装没有把你放在心
里，而是明明无法抵挡这股思念，却故意掘出一道无法逾越的鸿
沟，伤害你自己。♥
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Don't hurt yourself because you know I'll get hurt too.
Even if you don't love me, I just want to be by your side.
If we can't be a couple, I hope we'll be the best of friends forever.
What if she didn't appear? Would things still be the same?
What if she didn't betray you? Would you still love her?
What if I said I love you first? Would you leave her?
What if...
There are too many 'what ifs' in my life. So it set me thinking, what am I living for? Or rather, who?

If only you knew I loved you♥

nothing much

Posted by Wednesday, December 03, 2008 12/03/2008 08:44:00 PM with 0 notes | add more notes

Haish. Here I come again. Life is totally boring. Met char and went for movie. Madagascar 2 is totally funny. hahaha. should go and watch it :D

Can't believe st actually had so much to write about everyday in her post. I don't know. Maybe my life's just more boring than hers? Or is it that her "crapping skills" are REALLLLL good? haha. =\

K anyways, who's free this sunday?? T.T I'm going to be all alone for the whole day till dinner. haish. Sad life right. hahas. It's either that everyone's busy, or they're stuck at home. yea it sounds like me. okay well so....-_-"

Who said only kids can watch PPG? Okay so maybe it's a little teensy weensy bit childish. But hey, i'm not even 16 yet :D heh heh.
.............
=.= Fine so i have deprived childhood and i'm really bored. so what. Haish.

Haven't got to complete any homework. Feeling so unaccomplished. 3 weeks left. jiayous then :D

Not allowed to switch to st's grp for the damn wyy. WHY?! wthhh. Like as if we'll interact and life as if we'll contact each other. Yeah. Whether you agree or not, this is the freaking truth and so FACE IT. Yes I'm darn pissed right now. What-is-their-problem... T.T
If they don't allow any changes, then i'm certainly NOT going for it. What's the freaking use anyway. Don't even enjoy it. Just going for the SAKE of it. -.-"

k so. I'm _ pissed. haish. nvm.

tata/

P.S. I'm changing the narrogin trip post soon. xP

小时候的梦固然重要，小时候的约定更重要，可都不必现在的承诺与一切重要。

holidays and sian

Posted by Tuesday, December 02, 2008 12/02/2008 11:20:00 PM with 0 notes | add more notes

Went bugis today with jx, st and cy. lols. Borrowed books and stuff.
Really sianed nowadays. Completely out of ideas about what to blog/say. Every second and minute's just passing by like that.

Okay, so maybe computer and tv are pastimes and they REALLY can kill time. But I seriously have no idea what to do. Haish. Life now is like... nothing but study. Well maybe that's for the sake of a brighter future hmm?
=/

Meeting char'darling tomorrow :D Loads to tell her.
Shimei pick up your phone.... -_- lol

如果我们的相遇是一个美丽的错误，那让我们都忘掉它吧；让一切，回到原点，回到那个我们还没相遇的原点...

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